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Stumbled upon these lil Dawsons Creek moments in my dropbox. There are so many photos that for whatever insignificant reason I deemed unfit for my IG... Well we in a drought right now so here are a few gems from the archive. Does it make you miss the beach? 📸: @gaborjurina https://www.instagram.com/p/B--ThB3jUMH/?igshid=o9kti9ome3ma

I'm not dpinning enough fiiiiiiirrrrrrreeeeee! There aren't enough reasons to do it. Maybe I'll get on Livestream and do it tonight. I don't wanna get rusty. 🔥🔥🔥 📸: @gregory_vaughan_ #firepoi #firespinning #gayfit #talent #evolkidmedia #evolkid #hollywood (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-8SY27jQKH/?igshid=1ifpwlg4sfc62

I miss last summer a lot. I miss my friends. I miss being stupid and cute with my friends. I miss hugging my friends. Ugh. I miss hugs. I didn't realize how important little affectionate gestures were to me until the ability to share them was stolen. Bummer. Other than sex, what forms of intimacy and affection do you miss sharing the most? Hello/goodbye kisses and soft platonic caresses/head rubs are at the top of my list 🐶 #friendship #friends #headrubs #housearrest #stuckathome #staycation #gaycation #homo #queer https://www.instagram.com/p/B-2kyK-j7qR/?igshid=g6ueidb9gqbq

Entropy: We all make mistakes. Sometimes those mistakes are redeemable and sometimes they are not. Sometimes the cards you are dealt are just reality and there is no changing that. Nobody can save you from it... but sometimes this new normal is exactly what's necessary to experience progress. Sometimes the collapase was destiny all along. Don't believe me? Ask my burn marks. 📸: @gregory_vaughan_ #entropy #godthedevilandyou #burnmarks #firefirefire #evolkid #evolkidmedia #firepoi #iburnstuff #burnbabyburn #firespinning #alleyfire (at Melrose Avenue) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-vDKCfD1O7/?igshid=1j40yz7qjr0of

Hey everybody. I hope you're all doing ok. Some of you are great. Some of you are rich. Haha. But some of you are not so fortunate. Some of you are alone right now, and have been for some time. Whether you're rich or not, this is a super confusing situation to be in...which makes it even harder to imagine what a person who is alone with no money is dealing with right now. Or a single mother with 2 kids and no safety net resources like mom and dad to call on. No emergency fund. Look out for your friends and the people you don't know. Stay home! Be silly and make each other laugh on video chat apps. And look at this janked up circumstance from the other side, when it's over, we will miss all of this downtime. 📸: @samdphotonyc Really missing NYC. I gotta get back there when this is all over. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-sIaVZD7ve/?igshid=g7qrl3vqlydc

Random Thoughts... The benefits of spinning poi or hooping when there are few things in the immediate future to look forward to Summer was great (like really great!) When your friend looks up from their phone just to say some bullshit. Keep lookin atcha dag own phone. Fetishizing does not equal appreciation. It is objectification It's funny how people don't know when it looks like they are looking at someone/thing When you're kinda uncomfortable but it's kinda turning you on Sexy talk, but with typos 📸 angle #1: @keiynanlonsdale 📸 angle #2: @sebastianjamal #techpoi #firepoi #spinmorepoi #3dpoi #toroid #helicalpoi #helical #evolkidmedia #evolkid poi by @crispyclownsfireprops https://www.instagram.com/p/B-qO6TNjLPK/?igshid=j84bfbsyszm3

This is me rembering that there are other things happening in the world that don't involve Tiger King or, even though it's important, Covid 19 cautionary information and updates such as: - Ru Paul is fracking. 🤬 But I already love this season and will be forever grateful for what she has done to create visibility for queer men. *sigh* - Sherry Pie is a serial catfish and deserved to be disqualified for it... but her drag is on point. Ugh. - There are now Virtual house parties and Drag shows on Zoom and Twitch. Welcome to the future. Check out @the.kin.ship And @biqtchpuddin for deets. - If you are looking for something to do while in Quarantine, try taking a free class from Berkeley or Yale online. It's a great time to learn some new shit. - Everyone is bored af. Celebrities are getting on live and just being casually bored and human. It's weirdly inspiring, mildy psychotic and extremely identifiable. We're gonna miss all this freetime at home when we get back to real life. Take advantage of this time in isolation and, at your leisure, level up. 📸: @themalelens #quarantinedqueers #homehomo #homesweethomo #queer #fitgay #tigerking https://www.instagram.com/p/B-nIw1eD_lK/?igshid=15lkm7f775aek

Things to remember about giving and gaining: - Just because someone gained a lot from what you gave, doesn't mean you gave a lot. - Just because you gave a lot doesn't mean someone gained much... or anything at all from what you gave. - Just because you didn't give much doesn't mean that the value of what you gave was not significent to someone. - Just because you couldn't give enough, doesn't mean you didn't give what you could. . . . I'm running out of pictures. Bout to start sharing dumb shit. 📸: @themalelens https://www.instagram.com/p/B-h6WsbD9Mt/?igshid=1tbgd2lhi7l0r

Ego makes it hard for humans to feel gratitude. Ego makes it hars to feel anything but alone. Gratitude can over power the ego if love is evident. This does not always resolve the issue, but it makes it easier to be objective. Love first, love big, and love deep to keep your ego in check. 📸: @themalelens (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-fYP4iDiSn/?igshid=1k7apabfu18pw

Happy belated #transdayofvisibility. I'm a day behind (because I'm a day behind on everything right now 😒), but I refuse to not post about this. My trans brothers and sisters are some of the best and most amazing people in my life. I won't make this long and sappy because there is a lot going on and a little time, but I wanna shine a light here because it's important. If it were Christmas, Covid or not, we would make time for it. So here is a moment for some of the trans people who lost there lives over the past 365 days: Paris Cameron, 20 Claire Legato, 21 Michelle "Tamika" Washington, 40 Ashanti Carmon, 27 Muhlaysia Booker, 23 Eli/Ellie Marie Washtock, 38 Dana Martin, 31 Nina Surgutskaya, 25 Julie Berman, 51 Alex Milkovich, 19 Camila Diaz Cordova, 29 Mhelody Polan Bruno, 25 Michelle "Tamika" Washington, 40 Chynal Lindsey, 26 Johana Medina Leon, 25 Chanel Scurlock, 23 Zoe Spears, 23 Brooklyn Lindsey, 32 Denali Berries Stuckey, 29 Tracy Single (née Williams), 22 Kiki Fantroy, 21 Pebbles LaDime Doe, 24 Jordan Cofer, 22 Bailey Reeves, 17 Bee Love Slater, 23 Itali Marlowe, 29 Brianna "BB" Hill (a.k.a. Breonna Be'Be), 30,  Monica Diamond,32 Valera, 46 Dustin Parker, 25 Nikki Kuhnhausen, 17 These are not all the murders as trans people are often killed and then left unaccounted for. The victims are also disproportionately trans women of color who's families don't condone their way of life. . . . I know this post is coming late but take it in whether or not today is the day to do it. Times are tough but they could be so much worse. So much more dangerous. Be thankful for what you have in this life and cherish the little things that don't seem like privileges. Many people on this list had their right to live freely stolen from them. . . . Take a moment of silence for those who have passed and walk into your day with your head up and gratitude in your heart. Spread love and enjoy your day. #transdayofvisibility #transisbeautiful #protecttranskids #transawareness #queer https://www.instagram.com/p/B-ciX6AjtZO/?igshid=eurktzwqo0ze

I just woke up. Is it May already? Jk. I woke up super early this morning ... to look at instagram some more. In case you were unaware, it's not particularly exciting at 5:30 am. Lol. I keep telling myself I'll go Spin Poi or Jog at 6:30, but I never do. Is it just me or is this quarantine making life extremely ADD? What I want to do just kinda jumps around randomly. I have no obligation to do any one thing, so I've just been taking my precious time doing anything I want to do. I have so many ideas! Kinda into being A.D.D right now. Every day is not productive though. Some days get overwhelming and I struggle to complete anything. I take on a bunch of stuff before I have a plan of action and by the end of the day I've accomplished virtually nothing... which is also ok because I'm allowed to do nothing if I want to. 😁🤷🏾‍♂️ ... Wyd? 📸: @themalelens https://www.instagram.com/p/B-bATbajBVm/?igshid=gw4hccv69crg

I'm so freaking bored. I could wake up and talk about important things like petitions, Covid 19, what the president is not doing, in what ways the country is royally screwed, but social justice and wokeness is exhausting and sometimes i just want a place of refuge for my head. Like playing video games, posting artful thotty pictures or wine drunk trivia nights on house party. How do you rest easy when there is so much wrong with the world? Where does your mind go to take a break? . . . Also, my PS4 gamertag is Evolvapor. Dm me if you wanna play. 😁🎮🕹 📸: @themalelens #musclegay #inmycalvins #chill #gaymer #fitnessfreak https://www.instagram.com/p/B-UujFvj_ca/?igshid=1prqgb003wqeb

I was supposed to be in SF this weekend. Ya can't always git whatcha want I guess. On a brighter note, I learned that I can do 3 handstand pushups! Lol. Those suckers are difficult. Happy Saturday! 📸: @j_robot #handstand #fitness #stayqueerasfuck https://www.instagram.com/p/B-SYSoDDP-s/?igshid=1igwbkmp65651

I miss sex. I miss intimacy on any level. From squeezing my bestfriend when I have missed her or tongue kissing a hunky stud I just met on the dancefloor. Dancing to basslines with strangers in a field of thousands of people I don't know. All kinds of different people shoulder to shoulder, just sharing space up close and personal. I miss showing love ya'll. 😔 This picture was taken for a project we did with @brookecandy a few years ago. When I got there I maintained hanging with a handful of people, but by the end of the shoot we had all fallen in love with each other. I saw it when I was scrolling and was transported back to when all these different kinds of people could stand together. This close. And I shuttered at the thought that it's gonna be a while before this could happen again anywhere in the world. Take care of yourself. Wash your hands A LOT. Work out and eat immune boosting foods like garlic, Citrus, ginger, and tumeric. Get hand sanitizer and use that shit. Clean off all counter daily. Especially metal or plastic ones. Reasearch the best ways to avoid it completely or cut down your viral load (if you are asymptomatic). And stay happy 😁 It'll be over before you know it😉 📸: @jeremylucido Threads: @lockwood51la #stayqueerasfuck #queer #covid19 #coronavirus #imisssex #sexpositive #musicfestivals #festivals #brookecandy #houseofavalon (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-QTD4ADxLs/?igshid=159buoiyzlwf2

Is anyone else struggs to func? I just keep undershooting what I plan to do for the day. I might have 3 - 5 goals and manage to knock one out which is usually something like "play the Sims" lol. I'm not mad though. It's incubation time. . . . Here's another drawing someone did of me. @auden.art is really talented. Swipe for the picture that this drawing is based off of. 📸: @gregory_vaughan_ #art #drawing #selfportrait https://www.instagram.com/p/B-NMzhKho45/?igshid=suaevt6k5ryl

feel bad for people quarantined by themselves. . . . I guess this is reality now. Talking about what it's like to be in quarantine. Grocery store multiple times a week with a consistently limited selection. Freaking out a little 2 or 3 times a day and then getting really excited about extremely menial things. It's jarring to find yourself aware of how small the world has become. How the reality of a single person has become relatively insignificant while the mass of people, unprepared and unaware, is everyones main concern. . . . My heart goes out to people working in healthcare who are more at risk than most of us, to the elder individuals who were struggling with health issues before this, to the people who have family members that are older or immunocompromised. I hear you, I feel you, and I'm doing my best right now for you. . . . And honestly, Trump administration can fuck the fuck right the fuck off. You all had multiple opportunities to prepare us for this. To mitigate the weight of fallout, but instead I'm bracing myself for the impact. Underprepared for this because of your carelessness. This could have been prevented. 📸: @erik_carter https://www.instagram.com/p/B-LVg5Kh75v/?igshid=i23jh6g7oiw2

This is basically me right now laying around at home most of the time trying to avoid the Covid 19 demons flying around. As much as I hate the circumstances we are under, I'm perpetually optimistic these days. Trying to look at the bright side of things. People are available. People are calling their friends and their friends will probably answer. People are making art and... while some of what comes out may be a little psychotic 🤷🏾‍♂️, people have time to think and feel. This incubation phase that we are in will undoubtedly leave us raw and out in the open, but it will leave us new. I'm nervous, curious, and excites to reach the end of this. Stay home! 🖌: @patshuro #cgi #graphicart #covid19 #stayhome #art #trippyart https://www.instagram.com/p/B-I11NBBPOe/?igshid=ktkd7om3bmf4