Stony Feels

how do I go into work tmo and be a normal person? like how do I explain that all I'd rather be thinking about are the 2 gay British men that I've been watching online since I was 15 who finally felt safe enough to announce that they are in a relationship together even thought it was kind of an open secret but now we have actual confirmation which we never thought we would get because we all collectively agreed we had enough, we knew we didn't deserve it, and they have a right to privacy after all that they were put through on the internet over the years but once again like the gracious kings that they are they have let us in to something so special but really at the end of the day it's not even for us it's for themselves and they now just get to enjoy the beautiful life that they have build and shared together for the last 15 years side by side creating content and art for the masses and we are now going to get the privilege of seeing them in their most authentic form but they will still have boundaries which is exactly what they should have and how it should be and I simultaneously feel like I'm being caught in a saw trap and floating on cloud 9 cuz I'm just so happy and proud and overjoyed for them and so so very excited for where their journey is going to go from here but also in the same breath want to cry a river because they found each other so long ago and oh how lucky they are to have had this type of love all along......................