Who keeps your flame? Who tells your story?

i really dont understand how to live as a person?? Im so fuckin depressed and just want to exist this planet and im so lonely and it feels like i have zero (0) friends and im so fucking lost and my heart constantly feels like it’s gonna burst from this absolut agonizing feeling of loneliness. Im also so damn stuck in the past and cant fking move on or accept that hey friendships end and people move on and maybe people didnt like you to begin with, and that haooens. But fuck man i feel like im all by myself because i try to fking be happy with what i have but like… what do i have? A friend that kinda forgot my birthday? Cool. A friend that mostly talks about herself? Fun. That only friend that sometimes doesnt feel like a friend? Sick. But that’s basically my only friend? Im just gonna have to accept at some point that i have to fking move on and get over it and stop being such a big fat baby about having pretty much barely anyone.