āØHOW MY PLACEMENT MANIFEST INTO MY LIFE
This is the first random astrology observation based from my own chart! I might be wrong but heree we are
āØi think aspect in ascendant give a big influence in appearance. Iām a Capricorn asc but i have moon trine asc so my face look more softer and rounder, iām an average height and look more plump, not petite and bony(?)
āØspeaking of ascendant, i have chiron tightly conjuct ascendant and when i read how it will manifest in someone birthchart i almost choke my drink š
Chiron conjuct asc is an indicator of being bullied, especially in early life. I get bullied when i was in middle school (also, i have my chiron (rx) in 12th house so i donāt even realize the damage that it caused, it took me soo long to finally realize how those trauma affecting the way i behave and interact with people. Healing journey is hard and painful, I always try to runaway from my past and i never really tell anyone how exactly my past is, it traumatizing and scary to remember)
āØmoon in taurus not necessarily have a good relationship with ur mom. In my case, she try to provide my needs but thereās no love there. In the end of the day, as a kid you need affection and love from ur parent and replacing those needs with the idea of provide you food etc is not helping.
āØi have moon in 4th house really close to 5th house, i can feel those 2 placement in my daily life.
I also have my lilith in 4th house, my family have a lot of inner problem, i feel like a black sheep and my family also traumatizing to me, but my emotion is easily affected by my home situation. Itās hard for me to stay happy or positive when everyone in my family put me into a bad vibe. (Itās getting better now but when i was younger oh damn itās hardš)
While my moon is in 5th house in whole sign, and all of those emotion i have is being expressed into an art. Art is almost everything to me (since taurus also ruled by venus) and i love singing! (Taurus ruled throat). My art is highly influenced by my emotion, whether itās a song, writing, painting, etc.
āØhaving planet in 8th house makes you sort of act less like the sign of that planet
Iām a leo stellium (sun, mercury, mars) and for real before i know astrology deeper, i always confused and hate it if someone make an assumption about who i am based on my sun sign. I donāt know why they always put a bad things over leo it makes me annoyed to hear someone say yadi yadi yada when they donāt even know meš i also have a few people i know that is leo and i donāt relate to them at all. Turns out that i have my sun in 8th house, also my sun, moon and mercury is in scorpio degree. Everything is make sense now.
But i think now that i make an observation based on my own chart is literally leo behavior lmao jk
āØwell about heavy scorpio influence⦠(8th house and a lot of pluto aspect) even when people always say that i have a baby face, they told me that i often come across as intimidating. Even when they donāt tell me, i get the vibe when someone is scared of me or afraid to make me mad (yet i still get hurt because i used to be so easy to taken advantage of lmaooooš)
āØlilith aspecting ascendant attract jealousy? I think so :/
i have lilith square ascendant and my relationship with woman is hella complicated my entire life. They always have something to hate about me, and one of the reason why they hate me because since i was kid, iām getting used to get along with not only girls but also boys. When i was in middle school, it becomes a big thing that the girls start to see me as someone who try to seduce all boys when the boys just naturally come to me and be my friend, i donāt even try at all because i like to be friend with everyone regardles the gender. I start to got rumor spreading about it and i end up spend my middle-highschool year not being so close with either woman or man, i prefer being alone.
āØalso because my lilith is in hard aspect to my ascendant, i hate man gaze. I donāt want to be seen as sexy, hot, anything around that vibe. Even just having a thought that someone staring at me in that kind of way and having sexual desire over me makes me want to throw up
āØbut funny enough i also have major lilith influence in my chart, heavy leo and scorpio energy. I can say itās not like i hate sex or something, iām can be wild but only with someone i really have high level of trust and intimacy. I love the idea of my future s/o being obsessed over me (lmao), not some random people ewš„²
āØsun square moonā¦. my mom and dad hate on each other HAHAšš»
āØi donāt have any planet in scorpio but i think i got a big scorpio influence since my dad is scorpio sun and my mom is scorpio moon and mars, now here iām the only heavy fire in my family but with big scorpio energyš¹
āØIC persona chart explain a bit detail of how our childhood looks like
i have 12th house stellium including my moon in my IC Persona chart. I can say my childhood is soooo confusing and emotionally traumatizing but itās hidden inside of me. with saturn in my 4th house, i donāt get a chance to explore my self a lot because the strict rule that given to me, so i often detach my self from reality and end up forgot a lot of things from my childhood now. I have my chiron in 11th house and friendship is wounded me. I also have pisces rising there.
Meanwhile my brother have leo moon 5th in his IC persona chart (itās literally the opposite of me) and idk but heās more open about his emotion and somehow got more attention and closer to my parent than me. He has 11th house stellium there and i remember he got a lot of chance to spend a time with his friend too (i canāt relate bro HAHA)
I think if youāre a blacksheep in ur family u could check your ic chart.. it sort lf give you a validation of how you feel all this time (since i canāt afford theraphy yet LMAO i still stuck with my family anyway)
āØvenus in virgo get too much hate why thoš
each people may got a different manifestation from this placement but for me personally is that i rarely fall in love (well i never officially date anyone but i do have involved in complicated situation) It takes time to build a trust and when i know that this person donāt take this relationship seriously iāll cut them. Thatās why i end up never date someone because people in my age love the idea of dating for fun. Iām now almost 4 years not having any crush and iām completely fine. Itās better than playing around with relationship. I just kinda know what i wanted in relationship and iām not gonna settle for less.
But i had my venus square saturn lMaO itās makes me even harder to get into a relationship
āØmy venus in 9th house makes me⦠:
always wanted to travel and live abroad since i was little.
wanted to learn multiply languageš but so far english is the only language i diving into (i do try to learn korean, japanese and thai in elementary school but wellll since english is a universal language i stick with this one first)
attracted to date a foreigner instead LMAO š¹š¤” When i was in 4th grade, thereās a singer from my country that really into english song and speak english really well. I usually listen to the song from my country, japan, thai, chinese, and korean song but because of this singer i start to listen to the song he covers and i start to have a thing for someone that can speak english really wellš¤”
love to learn about higher knowlegde, philosophy, spirituality, etc. I also see relationship as a way to expand our experience too. To get better and to learn a lot of thing from life. I want someone to learn about life together.
Okay thatās all for today!šš» itās fun to putting my thought here:D maybe iāll do it again in the future!