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— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin, strangers to lovers au
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 6.1k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; slight angst ; smut consisting of: oral (f.&m. receiving), fingering, cowgirl, doggy style, unprotected sex, spanking, choking, they’re both tipsy, lots of dirty talk, possessive/jealous tendencies from both of them
NOTE. this is pure, filthy smut. i didn’t mean for this to get out of hand, but alas, here we are. buckle up for the next chapter, as it’s about to be a loooong ride. is it really one of my stories if there’s zero angst? nope!
ᝰ TEN | SERIES M.LIST
Rasāsvāda रसास्वाद (Sanskrit) — a word for the taste of bliss in the absence of all thoughts
“Fuck,” Hyunjin groans lowly, his head knocking against the door on the other side of the car. His legs are sprawled out in front of him, his hair messily falling across his face, his cock painfully straining in his pants. Before he can even blink, Y/N’s already on top of him, the car door on her side still wide open, her lips eagerly mapping every single inch of his mouth, “Fuck.”
He kisses her back with just as much ferocity, his hands tightly gripping at her hips, moaning into her mouth once she rocks forward. Her hands are everywhere—in his hair, on his chest, on his dick—and he feels like he’s in a dream.
A loud clear of a throat rings through his ears, and he opens his eyes, seeing Renaldo standing by the car, only reminding him that this is not a dream and someone is actually watching them right now. His expression is unreadable, his eyes flickering down once before returning Hyunjin’s gaze as he cocks an eyebrow.
Something ugly ignites inside his body. He really doesn’t like that he just looked at Y/N like that.
Hyunjin pulls away, and Y/N whines in protest, tilting her head and placing her hands on his face, urging him back towards her lips. He lets himself kiss her back for a few seconds before he’s pulling away again, his hands coming up to softly grab at her hands.
“Jagiya, hold on,” He tells her quietly, another roll of her hips causing his eyes to roll in the back of his head. She doesn’t reply, choosing instead to kiss down the column of his throat before settling on the side of his neck. He hums, basking in the feeling of her lips on his skin, tilting his head to shoot a glare at Renaldo who’s still watching them.
“Do you mind?” Hyunjin snaps, hands resting on her ass in attempts to cover it from his view.
He doesn’t say anything, which only adds to his frustration. Sure, maybe making out in the backseat of this Range Rover with the door still wide open isn’t the best idea, but Hyunjin didn’t get in a say in this. As soon as they walked outside and he opened the door for her, she was shoving him into the car and climbing on top of him, not really giving him a choice in the matter. But fuck if he was going to complain about it.
Hyunjin sighs, knowing he needs to think with his head right now and not his dick, “Okay, I apologize. I’ll pay you extra if you don’t say a word about this, close the door, put the partition up, and drive a little over the speed-limit to get us back to the hotel. Deal?”
The driver simply blinks at him, and Hyunjin groans loudly, his hands tightening around her ass as she licks and sucks around his chin, “Please? I’ll pay you whatever you want!”
Renaldo rolls his eyes, still not saying a word, before finally slamming the door shut. Hyunjin sighs in relief, although the breath of air he releases quickly gets caught in his lungs once Y/N starts eagerly unbuckling his belt.
“Wanna suck your cock,” She mouths at the side of his jaw, her words causing his dick to twitch in his pants, “Lift up for me.”
He does, and she instantly slides his underwear and pants half-way down his legs, his cock slapping freely against his stomach. He groans, spreading his long legs as far as they’ll go in this backseat as she shimmies her way down and in-between his legs.
“Oh, fuck,” He whimpers out once she licks a long stripe up his cock before circling his tip with her tongue. His hips buck into her mouth, his head rolling to the side. Thankfully, the partition is rolled up and the car is now moving, finally giving them some privacy. Well, he thinks the car is moving. It might just be his head still spinning.
He doesn’t have too much time to dwell on that, though, his eyes rolling into the back of his head once she takes him in the back of her throat. “O-oh, fuck yes, just like that,” He’s panting out as she deep throats him just how he likes it, slurping and licking and quite literally sucking the soul out of his body.
He shifts a little on the seat, his hands coming out to rest on the seat beneath him in attempts to catch himself from falling out of the seat. Either his driver is driving recklessly just for shits and giggles, or he’s actually speeding down the highway. He doesn’t care which one it is, as long as it gets them home safely where he can fuck her into his mattress.
“Oh, baby, fuck,” He’s blabbering out a mix of complete nonsense, high on adrenaline, high on the feeling of her lips wrapped around his cock. She moans, the sound sending vibrations up his dick and straight into his balls, and it has him seeing stars for a second. “Yeah, keep doing that. Keep sucking me just like that. Fuck, you’re such a good girl. My good fucking girl.”
He grips his hair, pulling and tugging at it, throwing his head back onto the seat as she jacks him off quickly, her mouth sucking hard at his tip. And then she’s licking a stripe down his cock and towards his balls, taking them greedily into her mouth, jacking him off even faster.
“Oh fuck. Oh shit,” He gasps out, feeling like he’s about to burst all over these seats, his vision growing blurry as he jerks his hips up. Fuck, he’s going to cum. Again. “I’m gonna cum. I’m gonna cum, fuck.”
She’s popping off his cock with a low moan, his impending orgasm disappearing just as quickly as it came. He looks down, his eyes instantly drawn to Y/N whose now kissing and sucking against his inner thighs, her hand tightly wrapped around the base of his cock. His cock that is hard as stone, angry, and leaking.
He can’t help the frustrated groan that falls from his lips, “Y/N… stop fucking around. Put my cock back in your mouth.”
“Don’t want you to cum yet,” She gives one last kiss to his thigh before straddling his legs, his cock standing tall between them, “Want you to cum from my pussy, not my mouth.”
He feels like he’s died and gone to heaven. All prior annoyance he felt was now gone as he lets out a needy whine, rutting his hips, “Oh, yes, fuck, please.”
She’s kissing him again, rubbing herself against him, the friction of her lace panties grazing against his cock driving him insane. Why didn’t he take those off again?
She’s pulling back, biting her lip through a grin, her hands coming up to rest on the back of his neck, “Pull my panties to the side so I can fuck you, Hyunnie.”
He does, in a mix of harsh pants and wide eyes and shaky hands, her pussy glistening with her arousal. He groans at the sight, “Fuck… please. Fuck me, please!”
He’s fisting the base of his cock as she lifts herself up, his other hand gripping onto her hip as he helps to guide her on him. He feels like he’s drooling once she starts slowly easing herself down on his cock, her hands moving to rest on his chest. He curses lowly, hands working to bunch up her dress as far as it will go, wanting nothing more than to watch her swallow him whole. His hands are still shaking, pants and moans falling from his lips as he struggles to hold her dress up, eyes focusing on her pussy that’s drenching his entire cock.
“Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me.” He chants over and over as she keeps sliding down onto him, knocking the breath out of his lungs.
She takes him to the hilt, and he feels like he’s going to pass out. “S-so… big.” She moans out loudly, biting her lip as she lifts herself off of him once more, only to come back down with enough force that has his entire body shaking, “Forgot how big you are, Hyunnie. Mhm, f-feels so good.”
“Fuck,” She moans, throwing her head back as she fucks him faster, a breathless laugh falling from her lips, “I can’t wait to cum on this cock.”
“I’m gonna cum if you keep talking,” He strains out, his cock glistening with her arousal with every lift of her hips. The sight is so lewd he has to look away, and he throws his head back against the seat.
“Hm, baby, that’s the whole point,” She smirks at him, fingers dancing up to the side of his neck before she wraps her hand around his throat. It’s just enough pressure that has him seeing stars once more, and his mouth falls open in a choked moan, his balls tightening.
“You’ve taken such great care of me this week, Hyunnie,” She purrs, leaning her body down to kiss the side of his mouth, “Let me take care of you now.”
Fuck yes. Use him, destroy him, fuck him.
He doesn’t reply, he can’t reply. Because now she’s bouncing up and down on his cock like it’s the only thing she knows how to do, moaning his name, fucking him faster. She’s drenching his thighs, drenching his cock, grip tightening on his neck with each delicious lift of her hips. Her pussy is so wet, her ass slapping against his balls with each bounce on his cock. He wants so badly to lean his head up and watch her fall apart on his cock, but his head is still spinning and his balls feel so heavy he genuinely thinks he’ll explode if he does.
“Mhm, so good,” She moans, the pressure in his balls only growing heavier, “So good. I love your cock, Hyunnie. Missed this so much. Missed you… so much.”
“Oh fuck,” He chokes out, because did she just say she missed him?
“Missed the way you felt inside me. How quickly you lose control around me. How pretty you look when you cum from my pussy,” She pants out, fucking him harder, “Did you fuck anyone else after me? Make anyone else your dirty little secret?”
Her grip tightens around his neck, and it’s enough to send a jolt of electricity up his dick, reminding him she just asked him a question and she wants him to answer. “Fuck. Y-yes. No.” Really, he doesn’t even know what he’s saying, at this point.
“Yes? No?” She breathes out, grinding on his cock, “Which is it?”
“Y-yes. I did, but wasn’t satisfied,” He barely gets the words out, too distracted by how she’s grinding her clit against his pelvis, her tits spilling out of the dress. He feels his mouth water at the sight, “W-wasn’t rough enough. Wasn’t you. Always thought about you.”
“Mhm,” She hums, slightly loosening her grip on his throat, “Did they make you cum?”
“Yes,” He squeezes his eyes shut, sweat forming in his hairline and dripping down his forehead, “T-they did, but it was never enough.”
God, this is mortifying for him to even be admitting this, but it only turns him on even more. He must be sick in the head.
“Of course it wasn’t,” She picks up her pace again, lifting herself back up to fuck into him. The feeling has him trembling everywhere, the squelching sound her pussy is making with every lift of her hips driving him crazy, and he whines her name out, pleading.
She leans her body down, ghosting her lips against his ear, and he shivers, “Don’t worry, baby. I’m here now, and I’ll make sure you cum so hard from my pussy you won’t even remember their names.”
“Oh, please,” He whines out loudly, not even caring how pathetic he sounds, because holy shit!
“Are you gonna cum for me, Hyunnie?”
He responds in Korean, in a mix of whimpers and whines, babbling his head off, begging, feeling like he’s about to black the fuck out.
“Hmmm, yeah. I’m gonna cum all over your big cock.”
And fuck, she is.
Her hips stutter as she calls out his name, and the feeling of her pussy clenching around him is enough to send him completely over the edge. She loosens her grip on his neck and he gasps out for air, legs tensing up once she lifts off of his cock, replacing her pussy with her hand as she quickly jacks him off.
“Cum, baby. Cum on me.”
“Oh fuck,” He cries out, his legs shaking as his body quite literally convulses, “Ohfuckohfuckohfuck.”
Hyunjin feels like he’s floating. He’s got to be floating, stuck in a complete bubble of bliss. His body feels numb, and his heart feels whole, and the ringing in his ears only grows louder with each second that passes.
He doesn’t know how long he’s been out, until he suddenly regains full consciousness, a pair of warm lips peppering kisses all over his neck. Did he just black out? Fuck, that’s embarrassing.
“I missed you,” She mumbles into his skin, her fingers caressing his hair. There’s those words again—I missed you. Except this time, when she says it, he’s sobered up a bit to where he can actually form a coherent reply.
“You did?” He hates the vulnerability in his voice when he asks that.
“I did,” She stuffs her face into the side of his neck, his arms pulling her closer on top of him, “Not just this, but… you. I just missed you.”
Hyunjin swallows thickly, his mouth going dry. The car is still moving, their bodies bumping together with every movement it makes. He can feel every breath she releases into his neck, can feel how rapid her heartbeat is, and it brings him a sense of calm he’s always yearned to have.
“I’m really glad you reached out,” She admits softly, placing a quick kiss on his skin. He can feel his pulse drumming in his ears. “I’ve never… I’ve never stopped thinking about you. About the night we had together. I was always hoping we’d find each other again, and we did. But I’m just…”
Her voice catches in her throat, and he glances down at her, shifting a little on the seat. “Hey,” He whispers softly, placing his fingers on her chin, forcing her to look up at him, “It’s okay. I get it. I feel the same way, jagiya. You’ve got no idea.”
She’s looking at him with an unreadable expression, and something strange settles in his chest. She’s gazing at him so intensely that he hates he can’t figure out what she’s actually thinking. Is she regretting everything? Is she freaking out? He genuinely has no idea, and it’s driving him insane. He’s about to pry further, when she suddenly interrupts him.
“I’m just… giddy. And still slightly tipsy,” She giggles softly, bringing his face down towards hers, lightly brushing her lips against his, “And I can’t believe we just fucked in the backseat of your driver’s car.”
“This wasn’t where I wanted it to happen again, but I don’t regret it. At all.”
And it’s true. Naturally, he wanted to fuck her in the privacy of his hotel bed where she’d be comfortable and he could take his time with her, not the in backseat of his drivers car where there was limited time and space. But shit happens, and Hyunjin simply can’t help it when Y/N’s being so sexy and needy for him. His dick can’t help it, either, apparently.
“I don’t care where it is, as long as it’s with you. This was perfect. You’re perfect, Hyunjin.”
And there she goes again with her words that make his entire body feel all mushy.
The words are at the top of his tongue. She’s kissing his neck, kissing the side of his face, running her hands through his long hair, and the words are begging to come out.
Come to Seoul with me.
He wants to say it so bad, but something is stopping him. Maybe it’s the underlying fear of rejection, of saying that and losing her completely. She says she likes him, calls him perfect, kisses him and touches him like he’s hers. And in his head, he is. But what if she doesn’t see it that way? What if this is just a spur in the moment thing for her?
She shifts against him, brushing her knee against his softening cock. The movement causes him to let out a quiet groan, previous thoughts now forgotten, his grip tightening on her waist. “Oh, did you like that?” She smirks down at him, biting her lip softly. He feels his dick twitch at the sound of her voice, and she glances down, a soft giggle falling from her lips, “Hm, looks like your dick does.”
She does it again, and to his horror, his dick comes alive once again. What the fuck? He’s already came twice in the span of a little over an hour.
“Anything you do makes me hard, jagiya.” He admits painfully, feeling heat creeping up on the back of his neck. There’s no point in lying—it’s true. And from the pleased expression she’s currently sporting, he knows she already knows that.
She’s kissing him again, tilting his head as she slips her tongue inside his mouth. He opens for her instantly, groaning into her mouth, his hands wandering all down her back and to her ass where he grabs both cheeks in his hands.
“God, I love this ass,” He pants out, moaning at the feeling of it jiggling perfectly in his hands, “Wanna watch it bounce for me when I fuck you.”
And fuck, he does. He still thinks about how her ass looked when he fucked her into the mattress in her dorm four years ago. He hates that he had to think about that whenever he’d fuck someone else in the same position just to get off. Hyunjin thinks all women are beautiful, but it’s something about the curves on Y/N’s body that really reels him in and drives him to complete insanity.
He gives it a quick smack, and she’s bucking her hips forward, rubbing against his cock so deliciously. She gasps into his mouth, tightening her grip on the back of his head, “H-how much longer until we get back to the hotel?”
Hyunjin grins, pleased that she’s just as desperate and riled up as he is. He’s leaning over to knock on the partition that’s separating them to ask, when the car comes to an abrupt stop, his grip tightening around her waist so she doesn’t roll off of him.
“Looks like we’re there now,” He chuckles, giving her a quick kiss before helping her sit up. It’s just then that he realizes his dick is still out, leaking pre-cum, hard as fuck, and he sighs in annoyance before quickly tucking his dick back into his dress pants. There’s cum on his shirt—his cum on his shirt—and he’s pretty sure there’s some on the seats as well, but whatever. He’s paying Renaldo extra anyway.
“Fix your dress, jagiya,” He mumbles, leaning up to slide the straps of her dress back up her shoulders, “Don’t want anyone seeing you like that.”
Her face flushes, and she’s clumsily stuffing her breasts back into the dress from when they spilled out earlier. Hyunjin watches her fix herself with shaky hands and blown-out pupils, and he bites his bottom lip, really trying to control himself right now.
A harsh knock on the window causes Y/N to jump slightly, and once he’s satisfied with her appearance and that she’s not showing too much skin, he clears his throat, running a hand through his hair.
“Yes?”
“Decent?” Renaldo’s voice is heard from outside the car, directly behind Y/N’s body.
“Yes. All good.” He replies loudly, smirking at Y/N once he sees how embarrassed she now looks. She’s desperately trying to fix her hair, patting down her dress, wiping underneath her eyes, and he leans forward, grabbing ahold of the back of her neck, bringing her face close to his.
“You look perfect, jagiya,” He whispers hoarsely, “Thoroughly fucked and absolutely perfect. Everyone here is going to know you’re mine. And you are, aren’t you?”
She nods, lips parting ever so slightly, and he hums, grip only tightening on the back of her neck once the door opens behind her. “Good girl. Now, get out of the car so I can take you to my room and fuck you properly.”
He lets go of her, and she scrambles to get out of the car, almost tripping over her heels and face planting on the ground. Thankfully, Renaldo catches her, being careful as to not let his gaze linger too long on her, much to Hyunjin’s relief. He must’ve gotten the hint earlier.
Hyunjin steps out once she’s fully balanced, his hand instantly grabbing onto the back of her neck once again. She’s swaying a little, clutching her purse so tightly that her knuckles are turning white, gazing at him with a look that screams fuck me. He glances over at Renaldo who’s staring at him with a bored expression, one eyebrow raised. Hyunjin knows he looks like a complete mess with cum stained on his shirt and the crotch of his pants, zipper un-zipped and belt hanging down his waist. Thankfully, it’s dark as shit out here, and they’re at a private entrance where it’d be difficult for any paparazzi to find them.
He grins at Renaldo, reaching into his pocket to grab a wad of euros, counting a stack out before handing it to him. “Thanks, man. I appreciate it.” Hyunjin pats him on his back once he grabs the money from him, turning back towards Y/N, hurriedly leading her into the back doors.
“H-Hyunjin. Can you slow down?” She breathes out quietly, almost tripping on the rug once he shoves her forward.
He doesn’t reply, tapping his foot impatiently on the floor as they wait on the elevator doors to open. “These heels are hard to walk in. Do you want me to fall?”
“Do you want me to shove my cock down your throat? Because that’s what’s going to happen if you don’t stop complaining.”
She whimpers beside him, very obviously rubbing her thighs together. He feels his cock grow even thicker in his pants at how needy she is for him right now. He knows for a fact that she’s wet, dripping down that poor excuse of a thong she’s wearing, and he’s tempted to get on knees and find out, until the brief ping of the elevator catches his attention.
The door opens and he’s shoving her inside. She stumbles, catching herself on the wall behind her, and he’s quickly hitting his floor button and shutting the elevator back before turning towards her. Her hair is messed up, makeup running down her face so beautifully, gazing at him with an expression that has his stomach turning.
“What the hell, Hyunjin—“
He’s cutting her off quickly, practically pouncing on her before she can even finish her sentence, mouth roughly moving against hers. She moans in his mouth, hands coming up to grip at his hair, tugging and pulling him even closer. His hands are back on her ass, urging her to rock into him. He’s panting into her mouth once she lets go of the back of his head to quickly slip her hands inside his pants.
He breaks the kiss, glancing down, “What are you—“
She’s down on her knees with his dick in her mouth before he can even blink, slurping and sucking and bobbing her head up and down. “F-fuck,” He curses lowly, planting his hands on the wall in front of him to steady himself, slowly rocking his hips forward as she takes him completely down her throat.
She gags around him, her throat constricting around his dick, and he’s throwing his head back with a loud groan, feeling like he’s about black out once again.
“Fuck, jagiya. You couldn’t wait just a few more minutes? You just had to have my cock down your throat, didn’t you? Such a slut for it, aren’t you?”
She nods, taking him even deeper, and he growls out another curse before he’s snapping his hips forward, fucking her mouth just like he’s about to fuck her pussy. “Mhm, sound so pretty when you choke on my cock, jagiya,” He pants out, snapping his hips even faster. His balls start to feel heavy, and as much as it pains him, he has to stop so he doesn’t cum all in her mouth.
“Fuck,” He hisses once he abruptly slides his dick out of her mouth, a long string of spit falling beautifully from her lips. The elevator door opens right as he messily tucks his dick back into his pants. He grabs her shoulders, helping her stand on wobbly legs before he rushes them both out of the elevator and down the hall to his room.
His hands and mouth are all over her once they finally make it inside his hotel room. He kicks the door shut as he guides her backwards, giving her ass one more squeeze before shoving her onto the mattress. She falls back with a loud gasp, and Hyunjin’s on his knees and bunching up her dress without another thought, roughly sliding her hips off the bed.
“H-Hyunjin,” She calls his name out breathlessly, legs opening wide for him as he settles in-between her. He lowers his head to her pussy, groaning in annoyance when he sees her soaked thong.
“Fuck this shit,” He growls before ripping it in half, tossing it behind him carelessly. Finally.
“Hyunjin! Seriously—“
Her words turn into a loud moan once his mouth sucks hard around her clit, fucking her open with three of his fingers. She’s so wet already that she easily takes it, squirming and fucking her hips on his mouth, moaning out his name so sweetly.
She clenches around his fingers, and he slides them out, licking a long stripe up her pussy before biting against her swollen clit. “F-fuck, Hyunjin!”
He stands up suddenly, hands quickly working to un-button his shirt as he gazes down at her. “Take your dress off,” He commands lowly, throwing the fabric somewhere behind him as he kicks his pants and underwear off his legs. She gapes up at him, rubbing her thighs together.
He grabs his dick in his hands, giving it a few strokes, “Take your fucking dress off, jagiya. Now.”
She sits up, quickly sliding the straps down her shoulders before attempting to slide the entire dress down her body. She’s struggling, he can tell, and he fucks himself faster as he watches her.
“I swear to God, if I make myself cum before I can even fuck you…” He trails off in annoyance, and she whimpers, finally getting the dress down to her knees.
Hyunjin doesn’t even wait for her to completely get it off before he’s grabbing her hips, quickly flipping her onto her stomach. The shriek she starts to let out gets caught in her throat once he drags her to the edge of the bed, planting her feet on the floor behind her.
“Spread,” He says lowly, and she obeys instantly, spreading her legs as wide as they’ll go. He groans once she arches her back, spreading her pussy for him, and he places his hands on her ass, roughly kneading it in his hands.
“You want my cock, jagiya? Want me to fuck this pretty pussy?”
“Mhm, yes, fuck,” She moans into the mattress, wiggling her hips towards him, “Want it… so bad. Please, fuck me, Hyunnie! Please, please, please!”
The brief thought of a condom passes through his mind as he watches her arousal coat the head of his dick. But it’s just that—brief. Logically, he knows it’s safer to pop a condom on. He’s always wore one whenever he slept with someone, having learned his lesson the first time it happened when he got in huge trouble with his manager four years ago. He’s always used a condom, except for when it came to her.
And right now, with her pussy dripping down her thighs, he just can’t be bothered with it. He didn’t use one earlier, anyway, so does it really matter?
Of course it does. But he tells himself it doesn’t.
He’s fucking into her without another thought, bottoming out completely. She moans loudly, hands clawing at the silk bedsheets beneath her, and Hyunjin’s mouth opens with a silent curse. She’s so tight and wet around him, she’s always so tight and wet around him.
“You’re insatiable,” He breathes out, bringing his hips back just to snap back into her with more force than before. Her body jolts at the action, a choked gasp falling from her lips. He watches her ass bounce off his cock with each thrust forward, so plump and so perfect.
“I can’t get enough of you, jagiya,” He grunts, fucking her harder, faster, skin slapping against skin, “Fuck, you’re perfect for me. Everything about you… is so perfect for me.”
He spreads her cheeks apart as he snaps his hips forward, eyes focused on his dick fucking into her, seemingly mesmerized. In and out, in and out, in and out. “Your pussy is swallowing my dick, jagiya. You’re being such a good girl for me, laying here and taking what I give you. Does it feel good? Does it feel good to be fucked by me?”
“Mhm, yes, yes, yes! So good, so good!” She’s crying into the mattress, her sobs muffled by the way she’s stuffing her face into one of the pillows on his bed. He grabs ahold of her hair with one hand, twisting and tugging until her back is arched into him and she’s peering up at him through her pretty lashes.
“Let’s try this again, where I can hear you properly,” He leans his face down, skimming his lips across hers, “Tell me again. Does it feel good to be fucked by me?”
He slows down his pace, waiting patiently for his answer. Her eyes are wide, tears falling down her cheeks, and she looks so beautiful. “Y-yes! It f-feels so good! You fuck me… so good! So good! M-make me cum, please!”
He lets go of her head and she’s falling back into the mattress with a choked gasp. He readjusts himself, one hand keeping her back arched, the other gripping her ass, and then he’s fucking into her relentlessly.
“O-oh, Hyunjin, baby, yes, yes, fuck!”
“Only I can make you cum like this, right?” He breathes harshly. Sweat is pooling down his entire body, drops falling onto her skin, only making it ten times more erotic.
“Yes! Yes! Only you, Hyunjin! Only you!”
She’s babbling the same words over and over again as he fucks her rougher, the sound ringing through his ears as a sweet siren. He loves his name from her mouth, loves how sweet and innocent it sounds even when he’s fucking her dumb into his hotel bed.
“Oh god, I’m going to cum!” She cries out, clenching around him so hard that his eyes cross and he sees stars, “Fuck! I’m coming, I’m coming!”
He lets out a string of curses, throwing his head back, eyes screwed shut as she drenches his entire cock like the good girl she is. She’s moaning and crying and thrashing and coming, and it’s all for him.
“Fuck,” He whines out before sliding out of her quickly. He doesn’t even need to jack himself off, his cum shooting onto her perfect ass as soon as he slips out of her. He watches it paint her skin all over her lower back and in-between her asscheeks—the most beautiful sight he’s ever seen.
He collapses onto her, holding himself up with his arms so he doesn’t crush her. His body feels weak, his limbs feel numb, and he’s panting into her damp skin on the back of her neck, planting a quick kiss there before burying his face in there. Even after almost three hours of fucking, she still manages to smell so sweet.
She squirms under him, and he rolls off of her, falling onto his back with his legs sprawled off the bed. She’s curling into him instantly, and he welcomes her easily, pulling her body closer to his.
They don’t say anything for a moment. Hyunjin’s glancing up at the ceiling, trying to steady his breathing. He’s focusing on the rapid heartbeat in Y/N’s chest, the steady thump, thump, thump, that only reminds him that she’s real and she’s with him.
Hyunjin had spent years convincing himself that what happened between them had been just one, impossible coincidence—a memory that lingered because neither of them ever got the chance to find out what came after. But now, there was an after.
It was croissants and espresso every morning for breakfast. Long drives and meaningful conversations. Arguments over who paid for what. Coffee and touches in hidden cafés. The sketch he drew of her still folded carefully inside her purse. She hadn’t become less extraordinary after getting to know her even more, she’d become more. So much more.
Hyunjin had met many beautiful people in his life. He’d met kind people, people that piqued his interest, people he’d dated briefly before fame complicated everything. But none of them had made him feel like home.
Come with me to Seoul.
He opens his mouth to say the words again, but nothing comes out. His mouth feels dry, and he tries to swallow down the lump in his throat.
It’s too soon, isn’t it? They’d only had a handful of days together. Surely a few couple days don’t even come close to comparing to a whole life she’s built in New York. He couldn’t ask her to abandon that because he’d suddenly remembered what it was like to want someone so deeply and finally be able to have them.
It’d be selfish of him to ask—so selfish. Yet, he can’t stop thinking about what she’d say if he did.
“I’m clean, by the way.”
Her voice startles him, and he turns his head towards her, “What?”
“You didn’t use a condom,” She says sleepily, her hands rubbing circles on his waist, causing a shiver to run up his spine, “I’m clean. And I have an IUD. Just letting you know.”
“Oh,” He replies dumbly. I guess he should be relieved at that fact. “Me too.”
His eyes widen slightly, “I mean, I’m clean, too. But I don’t have an IUD… obviously.”
She giggles into his skin, curling more into his body, and once again, he feels his mind battling the push and pull of wanting her or leaving it be. But then she’s leaning her head up to kiss him gently, moving her lips against his so softly, and suddenly it doesn’t even feel like an internal battle anymore.
“We should probably shower,” She mumbles into his mouth, fingertips rubbing softly against the side of his face.
“Probably.”
He grabs onto the back of her hands, holding her against him, nuzzling into her touch. Her eyes are closed, a smile tugging on her lips, and she looks beautiful.
She looks like his.
“Stay with me.”
The words come out in a soft whisper before he can stop himself. His breath hitches in his throat once she opens her eyes, the soft flutter of her lashes causing his heart to clench tightly in his chest.
“Okay.” She whispers back.
Hyunjin simply nods, trying to ignore the flutter of hope in his chest. Because if he admits he started imagining a life that stretched far beyond Florence, he wasn’t sure he would be able to stop.
— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin, strangers to lovers au
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 6.1k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; slight angst ; smut consisting of: oral (f.&m. receiving), fingering, cowgirl, doggy style, unprotected sex, spanking, choking, they’re both tipsy, lots of dirty talk, possessive/jealous tendencies from both of them
NOTE. this is pure, filthy smut. i didn’t mean for this to get out of hand, but alas, here we are. buckle up for the next chapter, as it’s about to be a loooong ride. is it really one of my stories if there’s zero angst? nope!
ᝰ TEN | SERIES M.LIST
Rasāsvāda रसास्वाद (Sanskrit) — a word for the taste of bliss in the absence of all thoughts
“Fuck,” Hyunjin groans lowly, his head knocking against the door on the other side of the car. His legs are sprawled out in front of him, his hair messily falling across his face, his cock painfully straining in his pants. Before he can even blink, Y/N’s already on top of him, the car door on her side still wide open, her lips eagerly mapping every single inch of his mouth, “Fuck.”
He kisses her back with just as much ferocity, his hands tightly gripping at her hips, moaning into her mouth once she rocks forward. Her hands are everywhere—in his hair, on his chest, on his dick—and he feels like he’s in a dream.
A loud clear of a throat rings through his ears, and he opens his eyes, seeing Renaldo standing by the car, only reminding him that this is not a dream and someone is actually watching them right now. His expression is unreadable, his eyes flickering down once before returning Hyunjin’s gaze as he cocks an eyebrow.
Something ugly ignites inside his body. He really doesn’t like that he just looked at Y/N like that.
Hyunjin pulls away, and Y/N whines in protest, tilting her head and placing her hands on his face, urging him back towards her lips. He lets himself kiss her back for a few seconds before he’s pulling away again, his hands coming up to softly grab at her hands.
“Jagiya, hold on,” He tells her quietly, another roll of her hips causing his eyes to roll in the back of his head. She doesn’t reply, choosing instead to kiss down the column of his throat before settling on the side of his neck. He hums, basking in the feeling of her lips on his skin, tilting his head to shoot a glare at Renaldo who’s still watching them.
“Do you mind?” Hyunjin snaps, hands resting on her ass in attempts to cover it from his view.
He doesn’t say anything, which only adds to his frustration. Sure, maybe making out in the backseat of this Range Rover with the door still wide open isn’t the best idea, but Hyunjin didn’t get in a say in this. As soon as they walked outside and he opened the door for her, she was shoving him into the car and climbing on top of him, not really giving him a choice in the matter. But fuck if he was going to complain about it.
Hyunjin sighs, knowing he needs to think with his head right now and not his dick, “Okay, I apologize. I’ll pay you extra if you don’t say a word about this, close the door, put the partition up, and drive a little over the speed-limit to get us back to the hotel. Deal?”
The driver simply blinks at him, and Hyunjin groans loudly, his hands tightening around her ass as she licks and sucks around his chin, “Please? I’ll pay you whatever you want!”
Renaldo rolls his eyes, still not saying a word, before finally slamming the door shut. Hyunjin sighs in relief, although the breath of air he releases quickly gets caught in his lungs once Y/N starts eagerly unbuckling his belt.
“Wanna suck your cock,” She mouths at the side of his jaw, her words causing his dick to twitch in his pants, “Lift up for me.”
He does, and she instantly slides his underwear and pants half-way down his legs, his cock slapping freely against his stomach. He groans, spreading his long legs as far as they’ll go in this backseat as she shimmies her way down and in-between his legs.
“Oh, fuck,” He whimpers out once she licks a long stripe up his cock before circling his tip with her tongue. His hips buck into her mouth, his head rolling to the side. Thankfully, the partition is rolled up and the car is now moving, finally giving them some privacy. Well, he thinks the car is moving. It might just be his head still spinning.
He doesn’t have too much time to dwell on that, though, his eyes rolling into the back of his head once she takes him in the back of her throat. “O-oh, fuck yes, just like that,” He’s panting out as she deep throats him just how he likes it, slurping and licking and quite literally sucking the soul out of his body.
He shifts a little on the seat, his hands coming out to rest on the seat beneath him in attempts to catch himself from falling out of the seat. Either his driver is driving recklessly just for shits and giggles, or he’s actually speeding down the highway. He doesn’t care which one it is, as long as it gets them home safely where he can fuck her into his mattress.
“Oh, baby, fuck,” He’s blabbering out a mix of complete nonsense, high on adrenaline, high on the feeling of her lips wrapped around his cock. She moans, the sound sending vibrations up his dick and straight into his balls, and it has him seeing stars for a second. “Yeah, keep doing that. Keep sucking me just like that. Fuck, you’re such a good girl. My good fucking girl.”
He grips his hair, pulling and tugging at it, throwing his head back onto the seat as she jacks him off quickly, her mouth sucking hard at his tip. And then she’s licking a stripe down his cock and towards his balls, taking them greedily into her mouth, jacking him off even faster.
“Oh fuck. Oh shit,” He gasps out, feeling like he’s about to burst all over these seats, his vision growing blurry as he jerks his hips up. Fuck, he’s going to cum. Again. “I’m gonna cum. I’m gonna cum, fuck.”
She’s popping off his cock with a low moan, his impending orgasm disappearing just as quickly as it came. He looks down, his eyes instantly drawn to Y/N whose now kissing and sucking against his inner thighs, her hand tightly wrapped around the base of his cock. His cock that is hard as stone, angry, and leaking.
He can’t help the frustrated groan that falls from his lips, “Y/N… stop fucking around. Put my cock back in your mouth.”
“Don’t want you to cum yet,” She gives one last kiss to his thigh before straddling his legs, his cock standing tall between them, “Want you to cum from my pussy, not my mouth.”
He feels like he’s died and gone to heaven. All prior annoyance he felt was now gone as he lets out a needy whine, rutting his hips, “Oh, yes, fuck, please.”
She’s kissing him again, rubbing herself against him, the friction of her lace panties grazing against his cock driving him insane. Why didn’t he take those off again?
She’s pulling back, biting her lip through a grin, her hands coming up to rest on the back of his neck, “Pull my panties to the side so I can fuck you, Hyunnie.”
He does, in a mix of harsh pants and wide eyes and shaky hands, her pussy glistening with her arousal. He groans at the sight, “Fuck… please. Fuck me, please!”
He’s fisting the base of his cock as she lifts herself up, his other hand gripping onto her hip as he helps to guide her on him. He feels like he’s drooling once she starts slowly easing herself down on his cock, her hands moving to rest on his chest. He curses lowly, hands working to bunch up her dress as far as it will go, wanting nothing more than to watch her swallow him whole. His hands are still shaking, pants and moans falling from his lips as he struggles to hold her dress up, eyes focusing on her pussy that’s drenching his entire cock.
“Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me.” He chants over and over as she keeps sliding down onto him, knocking the breath out of his lungs.
She takes him to the hilt, and he feels like he’s going to pass out. “S-so… big.” She moans out loudly, biting her lip as she lifts herself off of him once more, only to come back down with enough force that has his entire body shaking, “Forgot how big you are, Hyunnie. Mhm, f-feels so good.”
“Fuck,” She moans, throwing her head back as she fucks him faster, a breathless laugh falling from her lips, “I can’t wait to cum on this cock.”
“I’m gonna cum if you keep talking,” He strains out, his cock glistening with her arousal with every lift of her hips. The sight is so lewd he has to look away, and he throws his head back against the seat.
“Hm, baby, that’s the whole point,” She smirks at him, fingers dancing up to the side of his neck before she wraps her hand around his throat. It’s just enough pressure that has him seeing stars once more, and his mouth falls open in a choked moan, his balls tightening.
“You’ve taken such great care of me this week, Hyunnie,” She purrs, leaning her body down to kiss the side of his mouth, “Let me take care of you now.”
Fuck yes. Use him, destroy him, fuck him.
He doesn’t reply, he can’t reply. Because now she’s bouncing up and down on his cock like it’s the only thing she knows how to do, moaning his name, fucking him faster. She’s drenching his thighs, drenching his cock, grip tightening on his neck with each delicious lift of her hips. Her pussy is so wet, her ass slapping against his balls with each bounce on his cock. He wants so badly to lean his head up and watch her fall apart on his cock, but his head is still spinning and his balls feel so heavy he genuinely thinks he’ll explode if he does.
“Mhm, so good,” She moans, the pressure in his balls only growing heavier, “So good. I love your cock, Hyunnie. Missed this so much. Missed you… so much.”
“Oh fuck,” He chokes out, because did she just say she missed him?
“Missed the way you felt inside me. How quickly you lose control around me. How pretty you look when you cum from my pussy,” She pants out, fucking him harder, “Did you fuck anyone else after me? Make anyone else your dirty little secret?”
Her grip tightens around his neck, and it’s enough to send a jolt of electricity up his dick, reminding him she just asked him a question and she wants him to answer. “Fuck. Y-yes. No.” Really, he doesn’t even know what he’s saying, at this point.
“Yes? No?” She breathes out, grinding on his cock, “Which is it?”
“Y-yes. I did, but wasn’t satisfied,” He barely gets the words out, too distracted by how she’s grinding her clit against his pelvis, her tits spilling out of the dress. He feels his mouth water at the sight, “W-wasn’t rough enough. Wasn’t you. Always thought about you.”
“Mhm,” She hums, slightly loosening her grip on his throat, “Did they make you cum?”
“Yes,” He squeezes his eyes shut, sweat forming in his hairline and dripping down his forehead, “T-they did, but it was never enough.”
God, this is mortifying for him to even be admitting this, but it only turns him on even more. He must be sick in the head.
“Of course it wasn’t,” She picks up her pace again, lifting herself back up to fuck into him. The feeling has him trembling everywhere, the squelching sound her pussy is making with every lift of her hips driving him crazy, and he whines her name out, pleading.
She leans her body down, ghosting her lips against his ear, and he shivers, “Don’t worry, baby. I’m here now, and I’ll make sure you cum so hard from my pussy you won’t even remember their names.”
“Oh, please,” He whines out loudly, not even caring how pathetic he sounds, because holy shit!
“Are you gonna cum for me, Hyunnie?”
He responds in Korean, in a mix of whimpers and whines, babbling his head off, begging, feeling like he’s about to black the fuck out.
“Hmmm, yeah. I’m gonna cum all over your big cock.”
And fuck, she is.
Her hips stutter as she calls out his name, and the feeling of her pussy clenching around him is enough to send him completely over the edge. She loosens her grip on his neck and he gasps out for air, legs tensing up once she lifts off of his cock, replacing her pussy with her hand as she quickly jacks him off.
“Cum, baby. Cum on me.”
“Oh fuck,” He cries out, his legs shaking as his body quite literally convulses, “Ohfuckohfuckohfuck.”
Hyunjin feels like he’s floating. He’s got to be floating, stuck in a complete bubble of bliss. His body feels numb, and his heart feels whole, and the ringing in his ears only grows louder with each second that passes.
He doesn’t know how long he’s been out, until he suddenly regains full consciousness, a pair of warm lips peppering kisses all over his neck. Did he just black out? Fuck, that’s embarrassing.
“I missed you,” She mumbles into his skin, her fingers caressing his hair. There’s those words again—I missed you. Except this time, when she says it, he’s sobered up a bit to where he can actually form a coherent reply.
“You did?” He hates the vulnerability in his voice when he asks that.
“I did,” She stuffs her face into the side of his neck, his arms pulling her closer on top of him, “Not just this, but… you. I just missed you.”
Hyunjin swallows thickly, his mouth going dry. The car is still moving, their bodies bumping together with every movement it makes. He can feel every breath she releases into his neck, can feel how rapid her heartbeat is, and it brings him a sense of calm he’s always yearned to have.
“I’m really glad you reached out,” She admits softly, placing a quick kiss on his skin. He can feel his pulse drumming in his ears. “I’ve never… I’ve never stopped thinking about you. About the night we had together. I was always hoping we’d find each other again, and we did. But I’m just…”
Her voice catches in her throat, and he glances down at her, shifting a little on the seat. “Hey,” He whispers softly, placing his fingers on her chin, forcing her to look up at him, “It’s okay. I get it. I feel the same way, jagiya. You’ve got no idea.”
She’s looking at him with an unreadable expression, and something strange settles in his chest. She’s gazing at him so intensely that he hates he can’t figure out what she’s actually thinking. Is she regretting everything? Is she freaking out? He genuinely has no idea, and it’s driving him insane. He’s about to pry further, when she suddenly interrupts him.
“I’m just… giddy. And still slightly tipsy,” She giggles softly, bringing his face down towards hers, lightly brushing her lips against his, “And I can’t believe we just fucked in the backseat of your driver’s car.”
“This wasn’t where I wanted it to happen again, but I don’t regret it. At all.”
And it’s true. Naturally, he wanted to fuck her in the privacy of his hotel bed where she’d be comfortable and he could take his time with her, not the in backseat of his drivers car where there was limited time and space. But shit happens, and Hyunjin simply can’t help it when Y/N’s being so sexy and needy for him. His dick can’t help it, either, apparently.
“I don’t care where it is, as long as it’s with you. This was perfect. You’re perfect, Hyunjin.”
And there she goes again with her words that make his entire body feel all mushy.
The words are at the top of his tongue. She’s kissing his neck, kissing the side of his face, running her hands through his long hair, and the words are begging to come out.
Come to Seoul with me.
He wants to say it so bad, but something is stopping him. Maybe it’s the underlying fear of rejection, of saying that and losing her completely. She says she likes him, calls him perfect, kisses him and touches him like he’s hers. And in his head, he is. But what if she doesn’t see it that way? What if this is just a spur in the moment thing for her?
She shifts against him, brushing her knee against his softening cock. The movement causes him to let out a quiet groan, previous thoughts now forgotten, his grip tightening on her waist. “Oh, did you like that?” She smirks down at him, biting her lip softly. He feels his dick twitch at the sound of her voice, and she glances down, a soft giggle falling from her lips, “Hm, looks like your dick does.”
She does it again, and to his horror, his dick comes alive once again. What the fuck? He’s already came twice in the span of a little over an hour.
“Anything you do makes me hard, jagiya.” He admits painfully, feeling heat creeping up on the back of his neck. There’s no point in lying—it’s true. And from the pleased expression she’s currently sporting, he knows she already knows that.
She’s kissing him again, tilting his head as she slips her tongue inside his mouth. He opens for her instantly, groaning into her mouth, his hands wandering all down her back and to her ass where he grabs both cheeks in his hands.
“God, I love this ass,” He pants out, moaning at the feeling of it jiggling perfectly in his hands, “Wanna watch it bounce for me when I fuck you.”
And fuck, he does. He still thinks about how her ass looked when he fucked her into the mattress in her dorm four years ago. He hates that he had to think about that whenever he’d fuck someone else in the same position just to get off. Hyunjin thinks all women are beautiful, but it’s something about the curves on Y/N’s body that really reels him in and drives him to complete insanity.
He gives it a quick smack, and she’s bucking her hips forward, rubbing against his cock so deliciously. She gasps into his mouth, tightening her grip on the back of his head, “H-how much longer until we get back to the hotel?”
Hyunjin grins, pleased that she’s just as desperate and riled up as he is. He’s leaning over to knock on the partition that’s separating them to ask, when the car comes to an abrupt stop, his grip tightening around her waist so she doesn’t roll off of him.
“Looks like we’re there now,” He chuckles, giving her a quick kiss before helping her sit up. It’s just then that he realizes his dick is still out, leaking pre-cum, hard as fuck, and he sighs in annoyance before quickly tucking his dick back into his dress pants. There’s cum on his shirt—his cum on his shirt—and he’s pretty sure there’s some on the seats as well, but whatever. He’s paying Renaldo extra anyway.
“Fix your dress, jagiya,” He mumbles, leaning up to slide the straps of her dress back up her shoulders, “Don’t want anyone seeing you like that.”
Her face flushes, and she’s clumsily stuffing her breasts back into the dress from when they spilled out earlier. Hyunjin watches her fix herself with shaky hands and blown-out pupils, and he bites his bottom lip, really trying to control himself right now.
A harsh knock on the window causes Y/N to jump slightly, and once he’s satisfied with her appearance and that she’s not showing too much skin, he clears his throat, running a hand through his hair.
“Yes?”
“Decent?” Renaldo’s voice is heard from outside the car, directly behind Y/N’s body.
“Yes. All good.” He replies loudly, smirking at Y/N once he sees how embarrassed she now looks. She’s desperately trying to fix her hair, patting down her dress, wiping underneath her eyes, and he leans forward, grabbing ahold of the back of her neck, bringing her face close to his.
“You look perfect, jagiya,” He whispers hoarsely, “Thoroughly fucked and absolutely perfect. Everyone here is going to know you’re mine. And you are, aren’t you?”
She nods, lips parting ever so slightly, and he hums, grip only tightening on the back of her neck once the door opens behind her. “Good girl. Now, get out of the car so I can take you to my room and fuck you properly.”
He lets go of her, and she scrambles to get out of the car, almost tripping over her heels and face planting on the ground. Thankfully, Renaldo catches her, being careful as to not let his gaze linger too long on her, much to Hyunjin’s relief. He must’ve gotten the hint earlier.
Hyunjin steps out once she’s fully balanced, his hand instantly grabbing onto the back of her neck once again. She’s swaying a little, clutching her purse so tightly that her knuckles are turning white, gazing at him with a look that screams fuck me. He glances over at Renaldo who’s staring at him with a bored expression, one eyebrow raised. Hyunjin knows he looks like a complete mess with cum stained on his shirt and the crotch of his pants, zipper un-zipped and belt hanging down his waist. Thankfully, it’s dark as shit out here, and they’re at a private entrance where it’d be difficult for any paparazzi to find them.
He grins at Renaldo, reaching into his pocket to grab a wad of euros, counting a stack out before handing it to him. “Thanks, man. I appreciate it.” Hyunjin pats him on his back once he grabs the money from him, turning back towards Y/N, hurriedly leading her into the back doors.
“H-Hyunjin. Can you slow down?” She breathes out quietly, almost tripping on the rug once he shoves her forward.
He doesn’t reply, tapping his foot impatiently on the floor as they wait on the elevator doors to open. “These heels are hard to walk in. Do you want me to fall?”
“Do you want me to shove my cock down your throat? Because that’s what’s going to happen if you don’t stop complaining.”
She whimpers beside him, very obviously rubbing her thighs together. He feels his cock grow even thicker in his pants at how needy she is for him right now. He knows for a fact that she’s wet, dripping down that poor excuse of a thong she’s wearing, and he’s tempted to get on knees and find out, until the brief ping of the elevator catches his attention.
The door opens and he’s shoving her inside. She stumbles, catching herself on the wall behind her, and he’s quickly hitting his floor button and shutting the elevator back before turning towards her. Her hair is messed up, makeup running down her face so beautifully, gazing at him with an expression that has his stomach turning.
“What the hell, Hyunjin—“
He’s cutting her off quickly, practically pouncing on her before she can even finish her sentence, mouth roughly moving against hers. She moans in his mouth, hands coming up to grip at his hair, tugging and pulling him even closer. His hands are back on her ass, urging her to rock into him. He’s panting into her mouth once she lets go of the back of his head to quickly slip her hands inside his pants.
He breaks the kiss, glancing down, “What are you—“
She’s down on her knees with his dick in her mouth before he can even blink, slurping and sucking and bobbing her head up and down. “F-fuck,” He curses lowly, planting his hands on the wall in front of him to steady himself, slowly rocking his hips forward as she takes him completely down her throat.
She gags around him, her throat constricting around his dick, and he’s throwing his head back with a loud groan, feeling like he’s about black out once again.
“Fuck, jagiya. You couldn’t wait just a few more minutes? You just had to have my cock down your throat, didn’t you? Such a slut for it, aren’t you?”
She nods, taking him even deeper, and he growls out another curse before he’s snapping his hips forward, fucking her mouth just like he’s about to fuck her pussy. “Mhm, sound so pretty when you choke on my cock, jagiya,” He pants out, snapping his hips even faster. His balls start to feel heavy, and as much as it pains him, he has to stop so he doesn’t cum all in her mouth.
“Fuck,” He hisses once he abruptly slides his dick out of her mouth, a long string of spit falling beautifully from her lips. The elevator door opens right as he messily tucks his dick back into his pants. He grabs her shoulders, helping her stand on wobbly legs before he rushes them both out of the elevator and down the hall to his room.
His hands and mouth are all over her once they finally make it inside his hotel room. He kicks the door shut as he guides her backwards, giving her ass one more squeeze before shoving her onto the mattress. She falls back with a loud gasp, and Hyunjin’s on his knees and bunching up her dress without another thought, roughly sliding her hips off the bed.
“H-Hyunjin,” She calls his name out breathlessly, legs opening wide for him as he settles in-between her. He lowers his head to her pussy, groaning in annoyance when he sees her soaked thong.
“Fuck this shit,” He growls before ripping it in half, tossing it behind him carelessly. Finally.
“Hyunjin! Seriously—“
Her words turn into a loud moan once his mouth sucks hard around her clit, fucking her open with three of his fingers. She’s so wet already that she easily takes it, squirming and fucking her hips on his mouth, moaning out his name so sweetly.
She clenches around his fingers, and he slides them out, licking a long stripe up her pussy before biting against her swollen clit. “F-fuck, Hyunjin!”
He stands up suddenly, hands quickly working to un-button his shirt as he gazes down at her. “Take your dress off,” He commands lowly, throwing the fabric somewhere behind him as he kicks his pants and underwear off his legs. She gapes up at him, rubbing her thighs together.
He grabs his dick in his hands, giving it a few strokes, “Take your fucking dress off, jagiya. Now.”
She sits up, quickly sliding the straps down her shoulders before attempting to slide the entire dress down her body. She’s struggling, he can tell, and he fucks himself faster as he watches her.
“I swear to God, if I make myself cum before I can even fuck you…” He trails off in annoyance, and she whimpers, finally getting the dress down to her knees.
Hyunjin doesn’t even wait for her to completely get it off before he’s grabbing her hips, quickly flipping her onto her stomach. The shriek she starts to let out gets caught in her throat once he drags her to the edge of the bed, planting her feet on the floor behind her.
“Spread,” He says lowly, and she obeys instantly, spreading her legs as wide as they’ll go. He groans once she arches her back, spreading her pussy for him, and he places his hands on her ass, roughly kneading it in his hands.
“You want my cock, jagiya? Want me to fuck this pretty pussy?”
“Mhm, yes, fuck,” She moans into the mattress, wiggling her hips towards him, “Want it… so bad. Please, fuck me, Hyunnie! Please, please, please!”
The brief thought of a condom passes through his mind as he watches her arousal coat the head of his dick. But it’s just that—brief. Logically, he knows it’s safer to pop a condom on. He’s always wore one whenever he slept with someone, having learned his lesson the first time it happened when he got in huge trouble with his manager four years ago. He’s always used a condom, except for when it came to her.
And right now, with her pussy dripping down her thighs, he just can’t be bothered with it. He didn’t use one earlier, anyway, so does it really matter?
Of course it does. But he tells himself it doesn’t.
He’s fucking into her without another thought, bottoming out completely. She moans loudly, hands clawing at the silk bedsheets beneath her, and Hyunjin’s mouth opens with a silent curse. She’s so tight and wet around him, she’s always so tight and wet around him.
“You’re insatiable,” He breathes out, bringing his hips back just to snap back into her with more force than before. Her body jolts at the action, a choked gasp falling from her lips. He watches her ass bounce off his cock with each thrust forward, so plump and so perfect.
“I can’t get enough of you, jagiya,” He grunts, fucking her harder, faster, skin slapping against skin, “Fuck, you’re perfect for me. Everything about you… is so perfect for me.”
He spreads her cheeks apart as he snaps his hips forward, eyes focused on his dick fucking into her, seemingly mesmerized. In and out, in and out, in and out. “Your pussy is swallowing my dick, jagiya. You’re being such a good girl for me, laying here and taking what I give you. Does it feel good? Does it feel good to be fucked by me?”
“Mhm, yes, yes, yes! So good, so good!” She’s crying into the mattress, her sobs muffled by the way she’s stuffing her face into one of the pillows on his bed. He grabs ahold of her hair with one hand, twisting and tugging until her back is arched into him and she’s peering up at him through her pretty lashes.
“Let’s try this again, where I can hear you properly,” He leans his face down, skimming his lips across hers, “Tell me again. Does it feel good to be fucked by me?”
He slows down his pace, waiting patiently for his answer. Her eyes are wide, tears falling down her cheeks, and she looks so beautiful. “Y-yes! It f-feels so good! You fuck me… so good! So good! M-make me cum, please!”
He lets go of her head and she’s falling back into the mattress with a choked gasp. He readjusts himself, one hand keeping her back arched, the other gripping her ass, and then he’s fucking into her relentlessly.
“O-oh, Hyunjin, baby, yes, yes, fuck!”
“Only I can make you cum like this, right?” He breathes harshly. Sweat is pooling down his entire body, drops falling onto her skin, only making it ten times more erotic.
“Yes! Yes! Only you, Hyunjin! Only you!”
She’s babbling the same words over and over again as he fucks her rougher, the sound ringing through his ears as a sweet siren. He loves his name from her mouth, loves how sweet and innocent it sounds even when he’s fucking her dumb into his hotel bed.
“Oh god, I’m going to cum!” She cries out, clenching around him so hard that his eyes cross and he sees stars, “Fuck! I’m coming, I’m coming!”
He lets out a string of curses, throwing his head back, eyes screwed shut as she drenches his entire cock like the good girl she is. She’s moaning and crying and thrashing and coming, and it’s all for him.
“Fuck,” He whines out before sliding out of her quickly. He doesn’t even need to jack himself off, his cum shooting onto her perfect ass as soon as he slips out of her. He watches it paint her skin all over her lower back and in-between her asscheeks—the most beautiful sight he’s ever seen.
He collapses onto her, holding himself up with his arms so he doesn’t crush her. His body feels weak, his limbs feel numb, and he’s panting into her damp skin on the back of her neck, planting a quick kiss there before burying his face in there. Even after almost three hours of fucking, she still manages to smell so sweet.
She squirms under him, and he rolls off of her, falling onto his back with his legs sprawled off the bed. She’s curling into him instantly, and he welcomes her easily, pulling her body closer to his.
They don’t say anything for a moment. Hyunjin’s glancing up at the ceiling, trying to steady his breathing. He’s focusing on the rapid heartbeat in Y/N’s chest, the steady thump, thump, thump, that only reminds him that she’s real and she’s with him.
Hyunjin had spent years convincing himself that what happened between them had been just one, impossible coincidence—a memory that lingered because neither of them ever got the chance to find out what came after. But now, there was an after.
It was croissants and espresso every morning for breakfast. Long drives and meaningful conversations. Arguments over who paid for what. Coffee and touches in hidden cafés. The sketch he drew of her still folded carefully inside her purse. She hadn’t become less extraordinary after getting to know her even more, she’d become more. So much more.
Hyunjin had met many beautiful people in his life. He’d met kind people, people that piqued his interest, people he’d dated briefly before fame complicated everything. But none of them had made him feel like home.
Come with me to Seoul.
He opens his mouth to say the words again, but nothing comes out. His mouth feels dry, and he tries to swallow down the lump in his throat.
It’s too soon, isn’t it? They’d only had a handful of days together. Surely a few couple days don’t even come close to comparing to a whole life she’s built in New York. He couldn’t ask her to abandon that because he’d suddenly remembered what it was like to want someone so deeply and finally be able to have them.
It’d be selfish of him to ask—so selfish. Yet, he can’t stop thinking about what she’d say if he did.
“I’m clean, by the way.”
Her voice startles him, and he turns his head towards her, “What?”
“You didn’t use a condom,” She says sleepily, her hands rubbing circles on his waist, causing a shiver to run up his spine, “I’m clean. And I have an IUD. Just letting you know.”
“Oh,” He replies dumbly. I guess he should be relieved at that fact. “Me too.”
His eyes widen slightly, “I mean, I’m clean, too. But I don’t have an IUD… obviously.”
She giggles into his skin, curling more into his body, and once again, he feels his mind battling the push and pull of wanting her or leaving it be. But then she’s leaning her head up to kiss him gently, moving her lips against his so softly, and suddenly it doesn’t even feel like an internal battle anymore.
“We should probably shower,” She mumbles into his mouth, fingertips rubbing softly against the side of his face.
“Probably.”
He grabs onto the back of her hands, holding her against him, nuzzling into her touch. Her eyes are closed, a smile tugging on her lips, and she looks beautiful.
She looks like his.
“Stay with me.”
The words come out in a soft whisper before he can stop himself. His breath hitches in his throat once she opens her eyes, the soft flutter of her lashes causing his heart to clench tightly in his chest.
“Okay.” She whispers back.
Hyunjin simply nods, trying to ignore the flutter of hope in his chest. Because if he admits he started imagining a life that stretched far beyond Florence, he wasn’t sure he would be able to stop.
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Heyy queen!! How are you!! Started my new job the 21st. It’s going great!! I actually love my job unlike my last one. I was thinking last night when I got off, like “damn, wish I could still be there.”
ANYWAYS I hope you’re doing great beautiful!!
oh, that’s so great! that’s how i felt when i switched from inpatient night shift to outpatient day shift, and i can’t tell you how much that has changed my life. it really does make a difference! a healthy work environment is always priority, and i love that you found that!
i’m so happy for you! i hope you continue to love it!
— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 9.3k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; wine consumption (ofc) ; fluffy fluff (hyunjin’s so down bad. i love him) ; korean & italian dialogue ; jealous!y/n ; sexual tension ; smut consisting of: oral (f!receiving), fingering, squirting, possessive!hyun, sexual acts in a public area, both y/n & hyunjin are slightly intoxicated, lots of dirty talk & inner thoughts (from you know who)
NOTE. this has me giggling & kicking my mfing feeeeet 🤭 we love an obsessed man!!!! we love obsessed hyun!!!! also, please don’t hate me for the ending… i promise i will make it worth it <33
ᝰ NINE | SERIES M.LIST
Po ushi vlubitsya (Russian) — an idiom that literally translates to “fall in love up to your ears”
Three days somehow felt both impossibly short and infinitely longer than four years.
If someone had asked Hyunjin a week ago what reuniting with Y/N would’ve looked like, he would’ve probably imagined long silences, awkwardness, questions neither of them wanted to answer. Instead, they’d fallen into each other’s lives as though they had simply pressed pause four years ago instead of disappearing across continents.
The morning after the beach, they’d wandered through Florence together, much to his surprise.
She had insisted on doing some sight-seeing but still wanted to spend time with him, so she told him he could tag along with her. Hyunjin was a little hesitant about it, not wanting to make her uncomfortable or feel pressured into doing something she didn’t want to do, but he eventually said yes, which resulted in her coming back over to his hotel so she could put on some better clothes that could hide her better.
She had stood in front of the mirror, adjusting the brim of her bucket hat—his bucket hat—for the third time while Hyunjin watched from the couch, trying not to smile.
“Do I look stupid?”
He’d looked up from tying his shoes, stifling a laugh once she turned to face him fully. The sunglasses she had on were big, the hat covering almost her entire face, and she looked so fucking cute that he could just eat her, again.
Okay, bad joke. But he’d been thinking about his mouth on her pussy ever since they went back to his hotel room to wash the sand out of their asses after the beach and he made her cum twice with his tongue.
“No, you look cute.”
“You’re full of shit,” She said, tilting her head back so she could see him, “I look absolutely ridiculous.”
“You look like you’re on vacation.”
“I look like I’m hiding from the CIA.”
Hyunjin laughed, standing up to his full height, pushing the sleeves of his loose shirt up to his elbows, “I mean… that’s not entirely inaccurate.”
She shot him a look that had him biting back another smile. “You’re laughing because you don’t have to worry about being photographed with you.”
The smile had slipped from his face so quick at her comment, and he’d crossed the room before he’d really even thought about it. “Hey,” He said softly, his hands settled gently on her upper arms. She looked up at him the best way she could, and he’d taken her sunglasses off so he could see her better, “If you get uncomfortable today, we leave. I mean it.”
Y/N blinked, opening her mouth like she wanted to say something, but he interrupted her. “I don’t care where we are, or if we’ve only been somewhere for five minutes,” He held her eyes, his thumbs brushing lightly against her arms, “If you tell me you’re uncomfortable, we’re done. No questions.”
She had stared at him for a bit before she eventually smiled, and he had to pretend like it didn’t affect him.
“So bossy, Hyunjin.”
“You like me that way, though.”
She had laughed, and just like that, the nervousness eased from her shoulders. Not completely, but it was enough for them to spend the day wandering hidden streets instead of crowded piazzas.
They avoided the busiest parts of Florence, choosing quiet bookstores tucked into narrow alleys, tiny artisan shops where no one gave them a second glance, gardens overlooking the city where they could sit without worrying about cameras. Whenever someone walked by a little too slowly or glanced in Hyunjin’s direction for a second too long, he felt Y/N tense beside him. And every single time, he’d quietly shift closer, possessively, protectively.
And every single time, she’d relax again.
That night, they’d eaten dinner in his hotel room again. He ordered more room service and another expensive bottle of red wine that she kept swearing she didn’t need, but she drank, anyway. One glass in, and they were cuddling on his couch, talking about dreams they’d had before either of them knew what adulthood would actually feel like. Two glasses in, they were giggling and sneaking in kisses at the most random times. Three glasses in, and she was coming on his fingers and sucking his cock like it was her favorite thing in the fucking world.
He’d asked her to stay, fully prepared to take the couch so she could sleep comfortably on his bed. He told himself he only asked because it was nearing 1am and he didn’t feel comfortable with her leaving so late and slightly intoxicated, but he knew that was a lie. She had hesitated, and he hated how disappointed he felt when she politely, yet solemnly declined.
He had one of his personal drivers drop her off since he wasn’t allowed to, forcing them to walk her to her room and make sure she got inside safely. He didn’t sleep until she had messaged him off Instagram.
y/n: made it :)
hyunjin: Good.
hyunjin: You know, you wouldn’t of had to worry about texting me if you would’ve just stayed with me
y/n: careful, hyunjin. i might start to think that you’re becoming obsessed with me
The next day had somehow been even better.
They went to a private pasta-making class at a countryside villa just outside Florence, something Hyunjin had wanted to do while he was here, but got even better once he invited Y/N to come with him. The elderly chef had spoken almost no English, Y/N spoke almost no Italian, and Hyunjin spoke even less, which somehow resulted in one of the funniest afternoons he’d had in years.
Flour ended up literally anywhere and everywhere you could think of, all over the counter, the floor, and even in Y/N’s hair. Okay, he might have had something to do with that one, but she had it coming.
“I have people trusting me with medical decisions and I still can’t make a simple dish of pasta,” She’d gestured toward the ruined dough with the most endearing pout on her lips.
“I’m sure you’ll recover,” Hyunjin smirked in reply, taking a sip of his glass of wine Marco poured for them, “Maybe stick to boxed pasta in the meantime, though.”
Y/N had glared at him before flicking some flour in his face, and Hyunjin took it with that same smirk on his face like a pleased idiot. He’d let her dump the whole bag on him if she really wanted to.
A bit later, Y/N had excused herself to the bathroom to clean up a little, leaving Hyunjin and Marco in the center of all the flour and uncooked pasta. Hyunjin was in the middle of untying his apron when his voice startled him.
“Wife?”
Hyunjin blinked, “…Sorry?”
Marco pointed toward the hallway where Y/N had disappeared to, “The bella.” He then pointed back to Hyunjin, “Wife?”
Hyunjin had stared at him for a long second, his ears immediately warming once he had caught on to what he was trying to ask. “N-no,” He stuttered out, the answer coming out embarrassingly fast.
Marco looked confused, “No?”
“No. Not my wife.” He rubbed the back of his neck, laughing awkwardly.
Marco had nodded once, like he was in deep thought, and Hyunjin could just feel how red his face was. Did they really act like a married couple? Is this what people thought when they saw them together?
“Ah!” Marco snapped his fingers, his face brightening, “Girlfriend?”
Hyunjin snapped his gaze towards the hallway nervously, relieved to find that it was still empty. Because for some reason, this conversation had made him feel sixteen years old instead of twenty-something.
He had opened his mouth to reply, fully intending to awkwardly say no, but nothing came out. His mind had betrayed him instantly, because the image appeared in his head without permission.
Y/N sitting across from him at breakfast. Y/N laughing at him while flour covered half of her face. Y/N reaching for his hand without thinking too much of it. Y/N tucked safely beside him in the car.
It had only been a few days, but the idea no longer felt impossible. It was just pleasant. Dangerously pleasant.
Marco had watched him expectantly, waiting, that same wide and friendly grin on his face. And before common sense could intervene, he gave the tiniest shrug imaginable, biting back a grin.
“Ah!” He had clapped both of his flour-covered hands together, “Sì! È proprio bellissima, ragazzo mio!” (Yes! She really is beautiful, my boy).
Later, they drove further into the countryside for a private wine tasting. It was crisp and refreshing, and Hyunjin may or may not have been feeling extra sedimental from the slight buzz it gave him.
They’d walked between the vines afterward, talking about nothing important. Or maybe everything important, Hyunjin couldn’t decide. The only thing he was sure of was that never got tired of listening to her.
He liked the way her mind worked. He liked how observant she was, how thoughtful she was—how she’d stop walking whenever she found something beautiful to admire. She seemed to notice everything. He had wondered briefly if she noticed what was happening to him.
Hyunjin liked making her laugh. He liked the way she’d unconsciously reach for his hand in the backseat of the car, or scoot closer to him whenever they were beside each other. He liked how smart she was, how independent and stable she appeared in her life. And most importantly, he liked how she made him feel like he was just a normal guy from Seoul.
Even now, sitting at a tiny café tucked away in the less busy streets of Florence people watching with tiny porcelain cups of espresso in their hands, it felt normal, natural, as though she’d always belonged beside him.
There were only six smalls tables outside, all shaded beneath cream umbrellas. An elderly man sat alone with a newspaper, two university students were arguing over something in rapid Italian, and Y/N was sitting across from him looking so beautiful that he can’t look away.
She was dressed in an oversized linen button down over a simple sundress, his sunglasses perched on her nose, her hair tucked loosely beneath a scarf he bought for her at one of the shops nearby. Anyone walking by would probably assume they were just another couple on holiday, but if someone looks carefully enough, they might recognize him. He had dressed himself in a way where it was almost impossible, but the risk was still there. It was always still there.
“Hey,” Hyunjin murmurs softly, reaching his hand out to lay on top of hers across the table, “You okay?”
He’s been noticing that’s she’s a little on edge, watching people a second longer than necessary, and Hyunjin doesn’t blame her. He should have been doing the same thing, but he wasn’t.
She glances down at their hands before looking back at him, “Yeah, I’m fine.”
“You sure?”
“I’m sure,” She smiles at him, his thumb brushing softly against her knuckles, “I think I’m always going to look around, you know?”
“I know. And that’s okay.”
She smiles at him, squeezing his hand once before grabbing ahold of her espresso cup to take another sip. He instantly misses her touch, and for a second, he debates on reaching back out towards her, but ends up slouching back onto his seat instead. He can’t come across too clingy, which is very hard for him to do, considering the type of lover he is.
Wait, did he just say lover?
Fuck, he’s so down bad.
“He’s going to fall.”
Fall? Fall in love?
He’s confused at first until he realizes she’s not actually talking to him but simply stating her inner thoughts aloud. She’s watching as a little boy chases pigeons across the piazza, his mother calling after him in exasperated Italian.
“I think he’s indestructible.”
She laughs quietly, “I think his mom disagrees with you.”
He’s looking back at her now, and just like everyday this week, he completely forgot about the rest of the world.
She hasn’t noticed him staring yet, which is rare. Usually she catches him within seconds and will tease him about it until the only way he can shut her up is with his mouth or his cock, but today, she seems distracted. Her chin is resting lightly in her palm, the scarf she has wrapped around her head loosening with every brush of wind. There were a few curls that peeked through everytime the breeze drifts through the street, and she’d tuck them back behind her ear every time. Two minutes later, they’d fall right back into place.
It happens so often he finds himself just waiting for it.
A tiny smile tugs at the corner of his mouth. She didn’t even realize she was doing it. But he did, because of course, he always does.
The afternoon sun slips between two buildings, catching the side of her face for just a moment. It makes her look golden, warm, the light outlining the curve of her cheek before disappearing again.
He feels his fingers twitch instinctively and he recognizes the feeling immediately. It’s the same feeling that always came before he painted. His eyes are drawn to her lips, on the way they’re moving as she talks to him, and he’s reaching into his pants pocket to grab ahold of the pen he always carries around with him without interrupting the conversation. One of the café napkins sits on the table in front of him, and he pulls it towards him, slouching back more comfortably into the chair.
“Not this again,” She groans, and Hyunjin fights back a grin.
“Hm?”
“I’m not even going to ask if you’re listening to me because I know you aren’t.”
Hyunjin cocks a brow, not even looking up from his napkin, “You said Kat almost convinced herself that she could move to Italy. And then you said she would probably last about two days before she manages to accidentally insult someone’s grandmother.”
She’s quiet, and he smirks, letting his gaze rest on her for a second before flickering his eyes back down, “Have some faith in me, jagiya. I might just surprise you.”
She huffs, picking up her espresso cup and leaning back into the chair behind her. Her scarf falls at the movement, exposing the entire side of her face and her neck, and his eyes are instantly drawn to the large hickey he gave her on her neck. It faded a bit, but it was still there, still noticeable, still serving as a constant reminder that she’s his and no one else’s.
She moves the scarf back around her neck, and Hyunjin’s eyes darken ever so slightly at the action. “Don’t,” He mumbles out lowly, pausing his movements on the napkin. She freezes, hands gripping the scarf tightly. If he could see her eyes right now, he’d be almost certain that she’d be staring at him with that same doe-like gaze that always seemed to bring him straight down to his knees.
“Don’t hide it. Move the scarf back. I want to see my mark on you.”
She hesitates, and he cocks an eyebrow, daring her not to. She must see the blaze of fire in his eyes, because not even three seconds later, shes taking the scarf off completely, placing it in her bag.
“Mal jal deutne,” (You listen so well), He hums in approval, tapping his pen with his fingers, “Good girl.”
“Hyunjin,” She says his name breathlessly, shifting in her seat, “We’re in public.”
“And?” He replies back quickly, the corner of his lips tugging into a smirk, “I know the reason you want me to shut up is only because your pussy is drenching your cute little panties right now. Scared you’ll make a mess on the seat, jagiya?”
“Hyunjin,” She says his name again, and he thinks it’s definitely meant to be as a warning, but it comes out breathless and whiny and everything he wants to hear instead.
“Don’t worry, jagiya. If you make a mess on the seat, you know I’ll clean it up for you. I know how much you love my mouth on your pussy.”
“Hyunjin,” She gasps, shifting again in her seat, and he suppresses a moan from how heavenly his name sounds coming from her mouth.
“Or I could do it right now,” He slouches back in his seat, discreetly adjusting the semi that’s now forming in his pants, “I could easily slip underneath this table and clean up your mess. You want that, jagiya? Want me to get on my knees for you on this dirty ground and eat your pussy? Nobody would know, because you’d be such a good girl and stay quiet for me, wouldn’t you?”
“Hyunjin, please,” She whimpers out softly, like she doesn’t know what she’s actually begging for, and it drives him fucking insane.
She’s squirming in the chair, slouching back, legs opening and closing like she doesn’t know what to do with them. And Hyunjin’s mind is suddenly painting the prettiest image of what she’d look like coming all over his mouth.
He’s thinking of how eager she’d be, spreading her legs for him with zero hesitation. She’d grip at his hair, pull him right where she wants him, moan his name so prettily. He’d lap up every last bit of her, not stopping until she’s shaking and begging and drenching his entire fucking face.
I’d be so easy to just drop down and do just that. There’s not many people around, and it’s loud enough out here that any sounds they’d make would be muffled enough to not draw attention towards them. All he had to do was drop down and lift her dress up and bury himself inside her thighs.
But he can’t—he shouldn’t. Being outside like this is already too much of a risk in itself. His company may have loosened up on many things in their lives, but being caught eating pussy outside a tiny café in the middle of Florence might just cost him his entire career. He tells himself he’s holding off solely for that reason, but deep down, he really knows it’s because he’d probably lose his fucking mind if someone had managed to snap a picture of her pussy for the entire world to see. That possessive side of him simply wouldn’t allow that.
Hyunjin doesn’t like to share. Especially when it comes to Y/N.
He hums lightly, his gaze focusing on his mark he left on her briefly before he resumes his scribbling on the napkin in front of him. He sees her shifting again from his peripheral vision and bites back a grin, knowing he’s gotten her all riled up only for him to shut it down. What can he say? He’s a masochist, apparently.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name again, this time a little more desperate. He bites his bottom lip.
“Yes, jagiya?”
He can feel her glare burning holes into his skin, and it only makes his cock even heavier in his pants. It’s unfortunate he can’t do anything about that right now.
“Do you need something?” He asks once she remains quiet.
She huffs in response, crossing her arms in front of her chest. This time, he can’t hold his grin in, and he’s grinning with his tongue as he glances at her, “Don’t worry. You’ll get your chance at dinner later.”
“Dinner?”
“Yes, dinner,” He replies, tracing the outline of her lips on the napkin. He leans more into the chair, “I want to take you somewhere tonight. If you’ll let me.”
He peers up at her briefly, hating that he can’t see what she’s actually thinking because of the sunglasses she still has on. She’s not saying anything, and he feels his palms start to sweat. Fuck, he knew he shouldn’t have already booked a reservation.
“Where?”
The softness of that word has him looking back at her, and something pulls at his chest. “There’s a restaurant about an hour from Florence along the river. The same place I wanted to take you a few days ago,” He moves on to her eyes, his pen working quick against the napkin, “It’s beautiful,” Like you, “I really think you’d like it.”
“How beautiful?”
He hesitates, because he knows what she’s getting at. She seems to notice, because of course she does, letting out a quiet sigh as she leans across the table to face him, “Hyunjin.”
“Very beautiful. I had great recommendations.”
“That means it’s expensive,” She slouches back into her chair. She sighs again, “Hyunjin, I don’t want you to spend a ridiculous amount of money on me. You’ve already paid for enough things this week.”
“Yes, because I wanted to. Also, you paid for our coffee today.”
“Yeah, after I practically tackled you to the ground so you’d let me.”
Ah, yes. How could he forget that?
“Yeah, that was hot.”
“Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin sighs, flicking his wrist once more before placing his pen on the table. Without saying another word, he folds the napkin once, then slides it across the table until it gently bumps against her hand.
She looks down, “What’s this?”
He shrugs, reaching for his espresso, “Open it.”
Her fingers tremble as she opens it, and then she stops. He watches as she softly bites her lip, her cheeks heating to a beautiful shade of red, and he bites the inside of his cheek to prevent himself from doing something stupid like lean over and smash his lips against hers. Her head tilts down towards the drawing, then back towards him, then back down, then back at him.
“You…” Her voice comes out breathless, beautiful, “You drew me?”
Hyunjin places his cup up to his lips, smiling over the rim, “I did.”
She looks back down, “I didn’t even notice.”
“Yeah, I know.”
“You’re so talented, Hyunjin. Seriously,” She smiles, her fingertips carefully tracing the edge of the napkin, “It’s beautiful.”
“No,” He shakes his head gently, causing her to glance up at him, “You’re beautiful, Y/N.”
She glances up at him, almost shy now, before folding the napkin with infinitely more care than he’d used. She tucks it safely inside her bag, into the zippered compartment, like it was something precious. Seeing that made something warm settle quietly in his chest.
“You deserve beautiful things, Y/N,” He quietly says, his fingers twitching, the urge to grab onto her hands itching at his skin, “I like doing nice things for people, and I like doing nice things for you. I like making an evening feel special, I like dressing up, I like beautiful places and good wine and good food. But most of all, I like you.”
The slight confession sits heavy in the air around them. He didn’t mean to actually say that, but it was out now, so there’s no point in trying to take it back. Not that he would, anyway—those words are probably the most genuine words he’s ever uttered in his life.
He does like her, far more than he probably should. He does want to spoil her, to kiss her freely, to touch and claim her without the entire world knowing. He wants it more than he’s ever wanted anything in his entire life.
But what he wants most is to love someone, to be loved by someone who understands him. Who sees him for who he is, and not as the brand that he carries around on his shoulders. Who isn’t afraid to put him in his place and remind him that he doesn’t sit on this high horse that everyone seems to make him out to be.
Hyunjin knows he falls fast, he always has. He wears his heart on his sleeve, willing to give it to anyone who wants it. And even knowing that millions of people do want it, the fact that one of them could possibly be her triggers something deep in his chest.
“You’re not going to let this go, are you?”
Hyunjin blinks once before focusing his attention back towards her and away from his inner thoughts. She’s smiling at him, shaking her head fondly, her curls flowing wildly in the wind. She’s not perfect, by all means, but that’s exactly the reason he likes her so much.
“No,” He mumbles, reaching out to tuck her hair behind her ear, letting his fingertips graze a little longer on the side of her face. Beautiful. “No, I’m not.”
“And you’ve already decided,” She leans more into his touch.
“I have,” He replies lowly, cupping her face with his hand, lightly tracing the softness of her cheeks, “I’ve already booked the reservation, actually.”
“Of course you have,” She grins at him, and he has no choice but to grin back. How could he not? “Let me guess, you bought me a nice dress to wear too, didn’t you?”
Hyunjin knows she meant it as a joke, but the grin on his face only grows. Of course he bought her a nice dress. Why wouldn’t he?
“Hyunjin,” She says his name sternly, teasing completely gone, “Hyunjin, please tell me you didn’t actually buy me a dress.”
He shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly. He knows she’s pissed, but it’ll all be worth it once he sees her looking so pretty in elegant fabric that he’ll just rip off later.
She sighs dramatically, nervously glancing around before leaning away from his touch and back into her seat. He’s disappointed, for a second, but puts his hand down anyway. The sound of laughter behind them serves as a blunt reminder that they’re still in public, where anyone can see them at anytime.
She doesn’t say anything for a few moments, and he wonders briefly if she’s actually upset with him. He knows she doesn’t like him spending money on her, but doesn’t she realize that’s his love language? He likes nice things, so it’s only fair she has them, too.
He opens his mouth to apologize, to tell her just that, but she’s interrupting him before he gets the chance to.
“Don’t.” She points a finger at him, that same teasing glint back in her eyes. He closes his mouth, a soft smirk pulling at his lips.
“I’ll wear the dress you bought me, but only because I’ll feel bad if I don’t,” She lowers her finger, crossing her arms across her chest, pouting slightly, “But, you can’t buy me anything else on this trip. Fancy wine included. Okay?”
He rolls his eyes fondly, nodding his head slightly. Sure, he’d try his best not to if that’s what she really wanted, but he just wants her to have whatever she wants—wants her to live in the moment with him and not have to worry about anything else. Can you blame him for that?
“And, about dinner…” She trails off, holding his gaze for a few quiet seconds before smiling in a way that makes him feel like he’d won something far more valuable than an argument, “Yes. Take me to dinner, Hyunjin.”
For reasons he couldn’t quite explain, hearing those words makes his heart beat just a little bit faster than it has all afternoon.
By the time his driver pulled alongside the river, the sky had turned a deep blue that only existed for a few fleeting minutes after sunset.
The water reflects the lights from the old stone buildings lining the opposite bank, each ripple breaking the reflections into streaks of amber. A violinist somewhere farther down the promenade plays softly enough that the melody blended with the sound of the river itself.
Hyunjin steps out first. He practically bolts out of his seat, speed-walking to Y/N’s side of the car to open it before his driver even has the chance. Y/N is his date. He’ll be damned if he’s not the one helping her out of the car.
He gives Renaldo, his driver for today, a sheepish grin once he makes eye contact with him, an attempt to tell him that he’s sorry for getting out of the car while it was still moving and possibly drawing attention to himself, but also that he’s not really sorry. However, the grin is quickly wiped from his face once the door fully opens and Y/N looks up at him.
For a second, his brain simply stops. Even though he’s already seen her, she still manages to make him forget how to breathe.
The dress fits her perfectly, exactly the way he had imagined. It’s rich and deep beneath the evening lights, and when she actually takes his hand and stands up, he feels like he might just pass out. His eyes travel down her body, unable to stop it, and he swallows thickly at the sight. The fabric hugs her figure perfectly, tight in all the right places, falling gracefully to her ankles. The slit along one side of her leg reveals just enough skin whenever she moves, and he sucks in a deep breath at how smooth and plush her thigh looks, begging for him to bite and suck at it.
But what he notices most, is how happy she looks.
She’s looking at him with a fond expression, a little shy, her eyes bright and glazed over with adoration. It makes something warm settle in his chest knowing she’s looking at him that way—looking at him the same exact way he always looks at her. Hyunjin’s never felt this way about anyone before. He’s never met someone who captivated him as quickly and as deeply as she has. What he feels for her travels far along the horizon in front of them.
He just really hopes she feels the same way.
“Why do you keep staring at me?”
Hyunjin blinks once, twice, feeling the back of his neck grow hot. “I…” A laugh escapes him, but he can’t even be embarrassed because she has to know why at this point, “I can’t form words right now. Ask me in two minutes.”
Y/N rolls her eyes fondly, a soft giggle escaping her mouth as she holds up one side of her dress, squeezing his hand tighter, “You’re an idiot.”
“And you’re beautiful.”
She smiles at him, and it does nothing to settle the giddiness he feels in his body right now.
“I’ll admit,” She looks down towards her body briefly before glancing back at him, “This was a good choice. You have good taste.”
“That might be the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me,” He places his free hand over his heart, clutching it dramatically.
“Oh, don’t let it get to your head. You’re an ambassador for Versace for a reason.”
“Oh,” Hyunjin grins cheekily, “I thought you didn’t keep up with me anymore, jagiya.”
She shoves him lightly, tip of her ears reddening slightly, “Oh, shut up. You know I’m still in the loop of most things.”
“Mhm, sure,” He grins wider once she avoids eye contact. He loves when she gets shy around him.
“You’ve been insufferable all day.” She mumbles once he starts to lead her towards the front doors.
“I’ve been charming.” He replies, guiding her up the stone stairs, being careful not to step on her dress or cause her to trip.
“You’ve been expensive.”
He holds the door open for her once they make it to the top, grinning cheekily, “I’ve been classy.”
“You’ve been boujee.”
“Can’t disagree with that one,” He snorts in amusement, slapping her ass lightly. She lets out a quiet yelp, jumping slightly, definitely not expecting him to do that, but obviously not hating it, either.
“Now, get inside and walk in front of me so I can watch your ass jiggle in this dress.”
She gapes at him for a moment, obviously not expecting that to come out of his mouth. Honestly, he didn’t mean to say that, it just came out. Okay, maybe he did mean to say that, but it’s true, so what can you expect? He’s just a man.
“As I said… insufferable,” She hisses at him quietly, letting go of his hand to walk around him. She stops in front of him, glancing back at him as she runs a hand against the curve of her ass, a teasing glint in her eyes, “Make sure to get a really good look at it now, Hyunnie, because you won’t be seeing it later.”
“Fucking tease,” He mumbles to himself, eyes zeroed in on how her ass moves in the dress. She’s swaying her hips more than usual, giving him his own personal show, and he fucking loves it.
He’s frozen in place for a second until she turns around to call him over, a knowing smirk tugging at her lips. The host is watching him expectantly, definitely catching him ogling her ass, but he can’t bring himself to care about that.
He smirks back at her, eyes staying on her as he walks forward, his hand coming up to rest on her lower back as he pulls her towards him. He gets a whiff of her sweet perfume, and he finds himself nuzzling his head into the side of her neck before planting a soft kiss there.
“Mr. Hwang,” The host smiles politely at them, and he smiles against her skin as she squirms a little in his grasp, slapping his arm lightly in what he assumes is to get his attention. He huffs, standing back up straight, keeping his hand on her back.
The host flickers his eyes from Hyunjin to Y/N and back to Hyunjin before widening his grin, “Buonasera! (Good evening). If you are ready, I can escort you to your table.”
“We’re ready,” Y/N answers with a polite smile before he could open his mouth. She squeezes his arm, “Grazie.”
“Prego, mia signora. (You’re welcome, my lady). Please, follow me.”
Hyunjin shuffles his feet as he follows them, his hand trailing down towards the curve of her ass. He hums, fingers dancing up and down against the soft fabric before he grips it in his hand. She lets out a quiet shriek at the feeling, and he suppresses a moan from how she feels in his hand.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name quietly as a warning, but he only grips it harder, giving it a light smack before letting go completely.
“Here is your table,” The host gestures towards the table right by the river, “Please, take a moment to look through the menu and your waitress will be here shortly. Would you like to start off with any wine?”
“Yes, we’d love to,” Hyunjin replies before Y/N can, ignoring the glare she sends him and pulling her chair out for her, “We’ll take a bottle of Chianti, please.”
“Perfect,” He nods politely, “I’ll get that out right away. Please, make yourselves comfortable, and we will be with you shortly.”
Hyunjin bows politely, offering him a thank you as Y/N sits down in her chair with a small huff. He grins, amused, walking over to his side of the table and sitting down. She’s still glaring at him, and she looks so fucking cute.
Sigh. He’s so down bad.
“I thought we agreed no more fancy wine.”
“It’s dinner, jagiya,” Hyunjin replies, pouring them both some water, “We have to have wine at dinner. Adds to the aesthetic, you know?”
Y/N sighs, shaking her head in amusement, glancing down to look at the menu. She frowns, and Hyunjin already knows what’s about to come out of her mouth.
“This is expensive,” She mumbles, glancing back at him.
“It’s fine,” He tries to brush it off, directing his attention to the waitress who’s now pouring wine in each of their glasses. She introduces herself, and Hyunjin nods politely, thanking her quietly.
Y/N watches her walk away, and then she’s looking back at him. “Hyunjin,” She starts, exasperated, and he quickly interrupts her.
“It’s fine, jagiya,” He stresses the words out, taking a sip of his wine. She’s watching him intently, and he can tell she’s uncomfortable. He sighs, placing the glass back down, “I want to do this for you. It’s a miracle you even agreed to come here with me in the first place. I like you, I want to spoil you some, so, please, let me.”
She bites her lip softly, and he’s drawn to the action. Her lips are a deep red, glossy, looking so inviting, and he really, really wants to kiss her right now. There’s nobody around, anyway, so what’s stopping him?
“I like you, too,” She says quietly, shyly, and he’s leaning over the table to place his lips on hers before he can think anything of it.
The words make him feel fuzzy inside, and he’s moving his lips against hers so gently, so passionately. She kisses him back almost instantly, and he smiles into her mouth, pulling back slowly, licking his lips as he glances down at her.
“Mhm, you taste so good, jagiya,” He mumbles, watching her neck turn the same exact shade as her pretty blush. He pecks her lips one more time just because he wants to before leaning back into his seat, straightening up like nothing even happened.
It feels good to kiss her so freely like this, without having to worry about where they are or who will see. He had booked the entire restaurant to himself in order to ensure privacy for this reason specifically. He wanted her to feel comfortable and he wanted her to enjoy herself, because she deserves it.
She deserves everything. If only she’d let him give her that.
“I was expecting this place to be crowded,” She glances around a bit, most likely taking everything in. The view was beautiful, he really can’t blame her. That’s one of the reasons he chose this place.
He hums in agreement, watching her look around in slight awe. Suddenly, she slows to a stop, flickering her eyes back at him.
The dining room was empty, every table is perfectly set up, candles are flickering against crisp white linen, fresh roses decorated on every table. A grand piano was playing softly in one corner, though the pianist was hidden from their view.
There wasn’t another guest anywhere in sight. He already knows what she’s about to ask.
She looks around once, twice, then slowly back towards him. “Where is everyone?”
He rubs the back of his neck. He knew she’d catch on. She always does.
“Sooo…”
She raises a brow, waiting. He bites his lip cheekily, shrugging his shoulders, “I booked the entire place for us. No big deal.”
Her mouth slowly opens, “You booked… the entire restaurant?”
“It seemed like the easiest solution.”
“Easiest?”
He sighs slouching back into his seat a little, fingers tracing the stem of his wine glass, “I just wanted you to be able to relax, Y/N. I know you’re still worried every time we go somewhere in public, so I wanted to make things better for you. For us.”
Her eyes drift back towards the river, to the candlelight, to the empty terrace waiting for them, and then back to him. “This is one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me,” She says quietly, reaching out to grab ahold of his hand, “Thank you, Hyunjin. Seriously, thank you. For everything.”
She smiles at him, and it’s genuine and lovely and everything that makes him feel all mushy inside. And as she smiles at him from across the table, still holding his hand, he realizes that no amount of privacy, expensive dinners, or reserved restaurants had ever been what he actually wanted.
He only wanted this—an evening where she chose to sit across from him, and nowhere else.
The waitress comes back to re-introduce herself, to ask them if they need anything, and Hyunjin orders Bruschetta for them to share. Y/N doesn’t argue, doesn’t try to tell him they don’t need it, doesn’t remove her hand from his. She simply lets him, her shoulders relaxing significantly.
It wasn’t until the waitress walks away that Y/N lifts her glass of wine up with her free hand, smiling at him, “To Florence.”
“To second chances,” He replies lightly, their glasses clinking against each other ever so softly.
For a while, they simply enjoy the evening. They enjoy fresh pasta, sea bass, wine—lots of wine. Hyunjin drinks enough to where his head starts to spin ever so lightly and his face starts to feel hot.
Fuck, he’s drunk. And judging by how giggly and touchy Y/N is currently being, she is, too.
“I still can’t believe Chan and Kat managed to keep this entire thing from us,” Y/N giggles, her foot slowly traveling up and down his right leg. It’s driving him crazy, and he’s been trying to ignore it for the past thirty minutes.
“I can,” Hyunjin replies, feeling his throat go warm once he takes another sip of his wine, “Chan lies by omission. He just conveniently forgets information. Like, always.”
“Kat, too!” She exclaims loudly, leaning in towards him as she slams her hands on the table, “She is almost as insufferable as you! Her and Chan are literally the same person. Two peas in a pod.”
Hyunjin hums, “I guarantee they planned this.” And thank fuck they did.
“Yeah, they probably had a spreadsheet. Color-coordinated and everything. With timelines.”
Her words are slightly slurred, and it’s so fucking endearing. She’s so fucking endearing. “That seems excessive.”
“It is, but it’s Kat,” She runs her foot up his leg once more, and if she does it one more time, he might end up climbing over this table and force her to stop.
Hyunjin takes another sip of his wine to distract himself from the heat currently traveling up his entire body. He always feels like his body is on fire every time he’s around Y/N, but right now, it’s ten times worse.
“She keeps looking at you.”
Hyunjin blinks, confused, placing his wine glass down on the table, “Who?”
“The waitress,” Y/N nods to her left, and Hyunjin glances over to see her quickly put her head down, obviously being caught staring. He watches her for a second before she ends up glancing back up at him, only for her to quickly away once she was caught.
“Ariana?”
“Oh, I didn’t realize you were on a first name basis with our waitress,” Y/N grumbles in front of him, a slight frown on her lips as she focuses her attention on their waitress who’s still looking at him. One look at her, and he already knows she’s jealous.
The fact that she’s currently glaring down the waitress with her arms across her chest has him grinning mischievously. Honestly, he wasn’t expecting her to get jealous, considering the lifestyle he currently lives in, so this was a pleasant surprise. And he’d be lying if he said he hates it.
He wants her obsessed with him the same way he’s obsessed with her.
Hyunjin hums, leaning back into his chair, spreading his legs a little as he politely gestures for Ariana to come over to their table. Y/N notices instantly, snapping her head over towards him, the glare previously directed at Ariana now directed at him.
“Ariana,” He says her name politely, his grin widening once he feels Y/N kick his leg underneath the table.
Her face flushes into a deep red, stuttering out a, “Y-yes, sir?”
“Could you do something for me?” He asks gently, the side of his face blazing with Y/N’s hot gaze.
Ariana nods enthusiastically, and Hyunjin can tell that she’s doing her best to remain calm and professional. She’s shaking a little, and Hyunjin feels bad, but he has to do this so he can finally get what he wants.
He gestures for her to come closer, and she does slowly, in a mix of blushes and shakes and rapid breaths. He feels another kick to his leg, and it only adds to that flame inside him that’s only growing bigger by the minute.
“Can you give us a little bit of privacy, please? Maybe about thirty minutes or so? I’d greatly appreciate it.” He asks quietly, soft enough to where Y/N couldn’t hear him, innocent enough to where she wouldn’t suspect anything.
“O-oh, of course!” Ariana stutters out a reply, smiling down at him politely, “I will come check on you then. Enjoy!”
Hyunjin smiles out a thank you, watching as she walks away from them. He can still feel Y/N glaring at him, boring holes into the side of his face. She huffs in annoyance, probably to get his attention, but he doesn’t turn around. Not yet.
She grumbles something, no doubt cursing him out, and he bites back a grin. It wasn’t until Ariana had walked through the doors and was completely out of sight that he turns around to face her. She looks pissed off.
Perfect.
“Something wrong, jagiya?”
Y/N scoffs, angrily snatching up her wine glass and taking a nice, long sip, all while still shooting daggers into his skull.
Hyunjin leans up, resting his elbows on the table in front of them, humming lightly as he toys with the bottom of his lip with his fingertips, “Do you want to know what I told her?”
“No,” She replies quickly, obviously lying, and he smirks once she shifts a little in her seat, “I don’t care. Just seems a little rude to flirt with someone else when you’re on a date with me.”
Date. The word has his heart racing, and that giddiness he was feeling earlier only intensifies. He definitely sees this as a date, and he’s fucking ecstatic that she sees it the same.
Hyunjin cocks his head to the side, studying her intently, holding her gaze, “Wasn’t flirting. Was just asking her if she’d give us some privacy for a bit.”
“Privacy?” Her eyes narrow in on him, slightly confused, “F-for what?”
He leans in closer towards her, close enough that he can feel the warmness of her soft breaths against his lips. The candle is flickering below him, casting a perfect glow on her, adding more warmth to his body that’s already up in flames. She visibly gulps, her eyes glancing down towards his lips once, twice, before meeting his gaze. She’s nervous, he can tell, but there’s also something else there. Something that tends to darken his soul and consume every single inch of his skin.
He picks up his fork, twirling it in the air a couple times before dropping it to the floor. It lands with a soft clink.
“Oops,” He shrugs his shoulders, a shit-eating grin on his face, “Guess I better pick that up.”
Before she can even say anything, he’s pushing his seat back and standing up, his eyes darkening as she gaps up at him. “H-hyunjin… what…”
A strangled noise leaves her mouth once he drops down to his knees to climb underneath the table, lifting the white linen up to start crawling towards her. She shrieks quietly, her legs squeezing together so tightly as she attempts to scoot her chair back. He places his hands on her thighs, halting her movements, giving them a soft slap.
“I told you you’d get your chance at dinner. It’s dinner,” He smirks, rubbing the soft, plush skin of her thighs, “Now spread those legs for me, jagiya. Let me see how wet you are for me.”
She instantly obeys, spreading them wide, even going as far as to scoot to the edge of her seat. Hyunjin groans at how eager she is for him, bunching her dress up as high as it will go, the red lace of her thong barely covering her pussy, an obvious wet patch sitting right in the center.
“Hyunjin,” She gasps his name quietly, and he hums, fingers tracing up and down her clothed core as he licks his lips. Fuck, she’s perfect for him. So perfect.
“Yes, jagiya?”
“Please,” She squirms a bit more, her hands coming underneath the tablecloth to grip at his hair. She gives it a harsh tug, and he moans at the slight sting.
“Please, what?”
He leans in closer, licking a long stripe up her clothed core, groaning at the slight taste that grazes his tongue. She shivers above him, her body jerking, and he spreads her legs even further apart. Her panties cling to her pussy, barely covering her from him, wet and begging for him to get a proper taste.
She whimpers out his name, pulling his face closer to her pussy, tugging his hair harder, and Hyunjin groans lowly. He pulls his head back as she slightly loosens her grip, and then he’s grabbing ahold of the band of her panties, jerking it upwards, cursing at the sight of her pussy lips peeking out of the fabric.
“You know I like when you use your words, jagiya. You should know this by now.” He says lowly, the sound of her gasping and moaning ringing in his ears. He pulls a little tighter, and she’s squirming everywhere, hands gripping tightly at his hair.
She chokes out his name, and he hums, leaning in closer towards her, “I’ll say this again. Please what? What do you want from me, jagiya?”
“Y-you,” She gasps out, begging, pleading, “Please, Hyunjin. Please make me cum.”
He could have her beg a little more, have her moaning and crying and crumbling until he finally gives in, but he thinks he might die if he doesn’t taste her within the next five seconds.
He slides her panties to the side quickly, leaning in, eagerly licking up her pussy. She whines softly, lying her ankles on his back to push him forward, hands tugging his hair so hard that he’d be surprised if she didn’t pull some of his hair out. The taste of her on his tongue and the grip she has on his head causes his eyes to roll in the back of his head, a throaty groan falling from his lips. He could cum like this.
“Fuck, you taste so good,” He mumbles to himself, eyes mesmerized by how wet and pink she looks. Her pussy is glistening, so pretty and warm and perfect, and he’s leaning back in without a second thought, fucking his tongue into her.
“Hyunjin… fuck…” She whines softly, pulling his head even harder against her. He moans into her, lapping up and down and all around her pussy before flicking his tongue against her clit. She gasps, hips jerking off the chair, and he holds her hip down with one hand, his other trailing down to slip two fingers inside of her.
They slide in with ease, because of course they do. She’s drenching his face, drenching his fingers, moaning and withering above him like a good fucking girl. His good fucking girl.
“O-oh, Hyunjin, f-fuck… feels so good,” She moans out so sweetly, riding his face like she owns him. And she does. Fuck, she does. “Your mouth is so good. Always so good. Makes me cum so fast.”
His cock is rock hard in his pants. He feels like he’s going to bust if she doesn’t stop talking.
“Hyunjin, Hyunjin, yes, yes,” She chants the words over and over again, and fuck, he’s getting so close. Embarrassingly close to coming in his fucking pants.
He takes his left hand off of her hip to palm at his hard cock through his pants, desperate to relieve some of the pressure. It feels good, but it’s not enough, and he almost wants to just take his cock out so he can stroke it properly and cum all over her pussy.
Fuck. Now he’s thinking of his load coating her wet pussy and how pretty she’d look taking it. Maybe he’d fuck it into her, or maybe he’d lean down and lick it right the fuck up, tasting both of them on his tongue.
The thought has his pulse racing and his fingers thrusting faster inside her as he grabs his cock through his pants. He adds a third finger, maintaining a quick and steady pace as he flicks his tongue repeatedly over her swollen clit.
“Yes, yes, yes, right there, please, don’t stop,” She chokes out a sob, pulling and tugging and grinding even harder against him. He hums against her, sucking and licking and fucking her harder, and he sees stars once she calls out his name in a mix of pleas and whines and everything he loves to hear as she drenches his entire face.
He pulls his mouth back with a soft gasp, eyes instantly drawn to where she’s currently squirting all over his chin. He watches in awe, sticking his tongue out, moaning at the taste of her, wanting nothing more than to lick up every last drop of what she’s giving him.
“Yeah, jagiya, just like that,” He smirks, his fingers still thrusting inside of her as he works her through it, “Mhm, yeah. You’re coming so hard for me. Making such a mess all over me. Fuck, you’re gonna make me cum.”
One last tug against his cock and he’s doing just that. The mix of her taste and the sounds she’s making and how swollen and puffy her clit is—it’s enough to send him completely over the edge, and he’s shooting his load all in his pants and underwear, groaning loudly as he throws his head back, mouth gaped open in pure bliss.
He curses lowly, his fingers slipping out of her with a lewd sound that only heightens to his orgasm. He’s coming and coming and coming, the only thing on his mind being Y/N, Y/N, Y/N.
She whimpers his name out above him, her legs tense as she tries to close them, but he isn’t having any of that. He leans his mouth back in, lapping up every bit of her, marveling at the taste of her. Fuck, he can’t stop. He doesn’t want to stop. But he’s pretty sure he’s close to his thirty minutes of privacy being up, so he has to.
He groans in annoyance, resting his forehead against her inner thigh as he takes in a deep breath, trying to compose himself. He stays there for a few seconds before lifting his head up, trying to ignore the way her pussy is just begging for him to stuff it full with his cock. Now is not the time nor place for that, as much as it drives him crazy not to.
He pecks a quick kiss to her center before gently pulling her dress back down and crawling back out from underneath the table. He feels a little light-headed once he stands up to his full height, his knees and back throbbing a little from the uncomfortable position, but it was worth it. So fucking worth it.
“Are you okay?” He manages to pant out, seeing the dazed expression she has. Her eyes are glistening with tears, mascara running down her face, her chest rapidly rising and falling with each breath. He can feel his cock thickening in his pants once again but he can’t even be ashamed by that.
She glances down, probably noticing the giant wet patch and slight bulge that’s only growing by the second. No, she definitely notices, considering the way she’s practically undressing him with her eyes, and he finds himself reaching down to grab at his cock, wincing slightly as he very poorly adjusts himself in front of her.
Her eyes darken, and he’s about to ask the question again, when her voice stops him.
“Take me home, Hyunjin.”
He tries to blink through the slight haze he’s still in, a little confused at what she means by that. “Huh?”
She leans in, licking her lips as she trails her eyes all over him. She looks like she wants to devour him, and he’s more than happy to let her do whatever the fuck she wants with him.
“I said, take me home. If you don’t want me to fuck you with Ariana watching, then take. Me. Home.”
— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin, strangers-to-lovers au
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 9.3k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; wine consumption (ofc) ; fluffy fluff (hyunjin’s so down bad. i love him) ; korean & italian dialogue ; jealous!y/n ; sexual tension ; smut consisting of: oral (f!receiving), fingering, squirting, possessive!hyun, sexual acts in a public area, both y/n & hyunjin are slightly intoxicated, lots of dirty talk & inner thoughts (from you know who)
ᝰ NINE | SERIES M.LIST
Po ushi vlubitsya (Russian) — an idiom that literally translates to “fall in love up to your ears”
Three days somehow felt both impossibly short and infinitely longer than four years.
If someone had asked Hyunjin a week ago what reuniting with Y/N would’ve looked like, he would’ve probably imagined long silences, awkwardness, questions neither of them wanted to answer. Instead, they’d fallen into each other’s lives as though they had simply pressed pause four years ago instead of disappearing across continents.
The morning after the beach, they’d wandered through Florence together, much to his surprise.
She had insisted on doing some sight-seeing but still wanted to spend time with him, so she told him he could tag along with her. Hyunjin was a little hesitant about it, not wanting to make her uncomfortable or feel pressured into doing something she didn’t want to do, but he eventually said yes, which resulted in her coming back over to his hotel so she could put on some better clothes that could hide her better.
She had stood in front of the mirror, adjusting the brim of her bucket hat—his bucket hat—for the third time while Hyunjin watched from the couch, trying not to smile.
“Do I look stupid?”
He’d looked up from tying his shoes, stifling a laugh once she turned to face him fully. The sunglasses she had on were big, the hat covering almost her entire face, and she looked so fucking cute that he could just eat her, again.
Okay, bad joke. But he’d been thinking about his mouth on her pussy ever since they went back to his hotel room to wash the sand out of their asses after the beach and he made her cum twice with his tongue.
“No, you look cute.”
“You’re full of shit,” She said, tilting her head back so she could see him, “I look absolutely ridiculous.”
“You look like you’re on vacation.”
“I look like I’m hiding from the CIA.”
Hyunjin laughed, standing up to his full height, pushing the sleeves of his loose shirt up to his elbows, “I mean… that’s not entirely inaccurate.”
She shot him a look that had him biting back another smile. “You’re laughing because you don’t have to worry about being photographed with you.”
The smile had slipped from his face so quick at her comment, and he’d crossed the room before he’d really even thought about it. “Hey,” He said softly, his hands settled gently on her upper arms. She looked up at him the best way she could, and he’d taken her sunglasses off so he could see her better, “If you get uncomfortable today, we leave. I mean it.”
Y/N blinked, opening her mouth like she wanted to say something, but he interrupted her. “I don’t care where we are, or if we’ve only been somewhere for five minutes,” He held her eyes, his thumbs brushing lightly against her arms, “If you tell me you’re uncomfortable, we’re done. No questions.”
She had stared at him for a bit before she eventually smiled, and he had to pretend like it didn’t affect him.
“So bossy, Hyunjin.”
“You like me that way, though.”
She had laughed, and just like that, the nervousness eased from her shoulders. Not completely, but it was enough for them to spend the day wandering hidden streets instead of crowded piazzas.
They avoided the busiest parts of Florence, choosing quiet bookstores tucked into narrow alleys, tiny artisan shops where no one gave them a second glance, gardens overlooking the city where they could sit without worrying about cameras. Whenever someone walked by a little too slowly or glanced in Hyunjin’s direction for a second too long, he felt Y/N tense beside him. And every single time, he’d quietly shift closer, possessively, protectively.
And every single time, she’d relax again.
That night, they’d eaten dinner in his hotel room again. He ordered more room service and another expensive bottle of red wine that she kept swearing she didn’t need, but she drank, anyway. One glass in, and they were cuddling on his couch, talking about dreams they’d had before either of them knew what adulthood would actually feel like. Two glasses in, they were giggling and sneaking in kisses at the most random times. Three glasses in, and she was coming on his fingers and sucking his cock like it was her favorite thing in the fucking world.
He’d asked her to stay, fully prepared to take the couch so she could sleep comfortably on his bed. He told himself he only asked because it was nearing 1am and he didn’t feel comfortable with her leaving so late and slightly intoxicated, but he knew that was a lie. She had hesitated, and he hated how disappointed he felt when she politely, yet solemnly declined.
He had one of his personal drivers drop her off since he wasn’t allowed to, forcing them to walk her to her room and make sure she got inside safely. He didn’t sleep until she had messaged him off Instagram.
y/n: made it :)
hyunjin: Good.
hyunjin: You know, you wouldn’t of had to worry about texting me if you would’ve just stayed with me
y/n: careful, hyunjin. i might start to think that you’re becoming obsessed with me
The next day had somehow been even better.
They went to a private pasta-making class at a countryside villa just outside Florence, something Hyunjin had wanted to do while he was here, but got even better once he invited Y/N to come with him. The elderly chef had spoken almost no English, Y/N spoke almost no Italian, and Hyunjin spoke even less, which somehow resulted in one of the funniest afternoons he’d had in years.
Flour ended up literally anywhere and everywhere you could think of, all over the counter, the floor, and even in Y/N’s hair. Okay, he might have had something to do with that one, but she had it coming.
“I have people trusting me with medical decisions and I still can’t make a simple dish of pasta,” She’d gestured toward the ruined dough with the most endearing pout on her lips.
“I’m sure you’ll recover,” Hyunjin smirked in reply, taking a sip of his glass of wine Marco poured for them, “Maybe stick to boxed pasta in the meantime, though.”
Y/N had glared at him before flicking some flour in his face, and Hyunjin took it with that same smirk on his face like a pleased idiot. He’d let her dump the whole bag on him if she really wanted to.
A bit later, Y/N had excused herself to the bathroom to clean up a little, leaving Hyunjin and Marco in the center of all the flour and uncooked pasta. Hyunjin was in the middle of untying his apron when his voice startled him.
“Wife?”
Hyunjin blinked, “…Sorry?”
Marco pointed toward the hallway where Y/N had disappeared to, “The bella.” He then pointed back to Hyunjin, “Wife?”
Hyunjin had stared at him for a long second, his ears immediately warming once he had caught on to what he was trying to ask. “N-no,” He stuttered out, the answer coming out embarrassingly fast.
Marco looked confused, “No?”
“No. Not my wife.” He rubbed the back of his neck, laughing awkwardly.
Marco had nodded once, like he was in deep thought, and Hyunjin could just feel how red his face was. Did they really act like a married couple? Is this what people thought when they saw them together?
“Ah!” Marco snapped his fingers, his face brightening, “Girlfriend?”
Hyunjin snapped his gaze towards the hallway nervously, relieved to find that it was still empty. Because for some reason, this conversation had made him feel sixteen years old instead of twenty-something.
He had opened his mouth to reply, fully intending to awkwardly say no, but nothing came out. His mind had betrayed him instantly, because the image appeared in his head without permission.
Y/N sitting across from him at breakfast. Y/N laughing at him while flour covered half of her face. Y/N reaching for his hand without thinking too much of it. Y/N tucked safely beside him in the car.
It had only been a few days, but the idea no longer felt impossible. It was just pleasant. Dangerously pleasant.
Marco had watched him expectantly, waiting, that same wide and friendly grin on his face. And before common sense could intervene, he gave the tiniest shrug imaginable, biting back a grin.
“Ah!” He had clapped both of his flour-covered hands together, “Sì! È proprio bellissima, ragazzo mio!” (Yes! She really is beautiful, my boy).
Later, they drove further into the countryside for a private wine tasting. It was crisp and refreshing, and Hyunjin may or may not have been feeling extra sedimental from the slight buzz it gave him.
They’d walked between the vines afterward, talking about nothing important. Or maybe everything important, Hyunjin couldn’t decide. The only thing he was sure of was that never got tired of listening to her.
He liked the way her mind worked. He liked how observant she was, how thoughtful she was—how she’d stop walking whenever she found something beautiful to admire. She seemed to notice everything. He had wondered briefly if she noticed what was happening to him.
Hyunjin liked making her laugh. He liked the way she’d unconsciously reach for his hand in the backseat of the car, or scoot closer to him whenever they were beside each other. He liked how smart she was, how independent and stable she appeared in her life. And most importantly, he liked how she made him feel like he was just a normal guy from Seoul.
Even now, sitting at a tiny café tucked away in the less busy streets of Florence people watching with tiny porcelain cups of espresso in their hands, it felt normal, natural, as though she’d always belonged beside him.
There were only six smalls tables outside, all shaded beneath cream umbrellas. An elderly man sat alone with a newspaper, two university students were arguing over something in rapid Italian, and Y/N was sitting across from him looking so beautiful that he can’t look away.
She was dressed in an oversized linen button down over a simple sundress, his sunglasses perched on her nose, her hair tucked loosely beneath a scarf he bought for her at one of the shops nearby. Anyone walking by would probably assume they were just another couple on holiday, but if someone looks carefully enough, they might recognize him. He had dressed himself in a way where it was almost impossible, but the risk was still there. It was always still there.
“Hey,” Hyunjin murmurs softly, reaching his hand out to lay on top of hers across the table, “You okay?”
He’s been noticing that’s she’s a little on edge, watching people a second longer than necessary, and Hyunjin doesn’t blame her. He should have been doing the same thing, but he wasn’t.
She glances down at their hands before looking back at him, “Yeah, I’m fine.”
“You sure?”
“I’m sure,” She smiles at him, his thumb brushing softly against her knuckles, “I think I’m always going to look around, you know?”
“I know. And that’s okay.”
She smiles at him, squeezing his hand once before grabbing ahold of her espresso cup to take another sip. He instantly misses her touch, and for a second, he debates on reaching back out towards her, but ends up slouching back onto his seat instead. He can’t come across too clingy, which is very hard for him to do, considering the type of lover he is.
Wait, did he just say lover?
Fuck, he’s so down bad.
“He’s going to fall.”
Fall? Fall in love?
He’s confused at first until he realizes she’s not actually talking to him but simply stating her inner thoughts aloud. She’s watching as a little boy chases pigeons across the piazza, his mother calling after him in exasperated Italian.
“I think he’s indestructible.”
She laughs quietly, “I think his mom disagrees with you.”
He’s looking back at her now, and just like everyday this week, he completely forgot about the rest of the world.
She hasn’t noticed him staring yet, which is rare. Usually she catches him within seconds and will tease him about it until the only way he can shut her up is with his mouth or his cock, but today, she seems distracted. Her chin is resting lightly in her palm, the scarf she has wrapped around her head loosening with every brush of wind. There were a few curls that peeked through everytime the breeze drifts through the street, and she’d tuck them back behind her ear every time. Two minutes later, they’d fall right back into place.
It happens so often he finds himself just waiting for it.
A tiny smile tugs at the corner of his mouth. She didn’t even realize she was doing it. But he did, because of course, he always does.
The afternoon sun slips between two buildings, catching the side of her face for just a moment. It makes her look golden, warm, the light outlining the curve of her cheek before disappearing again.
He feels his fingers twitch instinctively and he recognizes the feeling immediately. It’s the same feeling that always came before he painted. His eyes are drawn to her lips, on the way they’re moving as she talks to him, and he’s reaching into his pants pocket to grab ahold of the pen he always carries around with him without interrupting the conversation. One of the café napkins sits on the table in front of him, and he pulls it towards him, slouching back more comfortably into the chair.
“Not this again,” She groans, and Hyunjin fights back a grin.
“Hm?”
“I’m not even going to ask if you’re listening to me because I know you aren’t.”
Hyunjin cocks a brow, not even looking up from his napkin, “You said Kat almost convinced herself that she could move to Italy. And then you said she would probably last about two days before she manages to accidentally insult someone’s grandmother.”
She’s quiet, and he smirks, letting his gaze rest on her for a second before flickering his eyes back down, “Have some faith in me, jagiya. I might just surprise you.”
She huffs, picking up her espresso cup and leaning back into the chair behind her. Her scarf falls at the movement, exposing the entire side of her face and her neck, and his eyes are instantly drawn to the large hickey he gave her on her neck. It faded a bit, but it was still there, still noticeable, still serving as a constant reminder that she’s his and no one else’s.
She moves the scarf back around her neck, and Hyunjin’s eyes darken ever so slightly at the action. “Don’t,” He mumbles out lowly, pausing his movements on the napkin. She freezes, hands gripping the scarf tightly. If he could see her eyes right now, he’d be almost certain that she’d be staring at him with that same doe-like gaze that always seemed to bring him straight down to his knees.
“Don’t hide it. Move the scarf back. I want to see my mark on you.”
She hesitates, and he cocks an eyebrow, daring her not to. She must see the blaze of fire in his eyes, because not even three seconds later, shes taking the scarf off completely, placing it in her bag.
“Mal jal deutne,” (You listen so well), He hums in approval, tapping his pen with his fingers, “Good girl.”
“Hyunjin,” She says his name breathlessly, shifting in her seat, “We’re in public.”
“And?” He replies back quickly, the corner of his lips tugging into a smirk, “I know the reason you want me to shut up is only because your pussy is drenching your cute little panties right now. Scared you’ll make a mess on the seat, jagiya?”
“Hyunjin,” She says his name again, and he thinks it’s definitely meant to be as a warning, but it comes out breathless and whiny and everything he wants to hear instead.
“Don’t worry, jagiya. If you make a mess on the seat, you know I’ll clean it up for you. I know how much you love my mouth on your pussy.”
“Hyunjin,” She gasps, shifting again in her seat, and he suppresses a moan from how heavenly his name sounds coming from her mouth.
“Or I could do it right now,” He slouches back in his seat, discreetly adjusting the semi that’s now forming in his pants, “I could easily slip underneath this table and clean up your mess. You want that, jagiya? Want me to get on my knees for you on this dirty ground and eat your pussy? Nobody would know, because you’d be such a good girl and stay quiet for me, wouldn’t you?”
“Hyunjin, please,” She whimpers out softly, like she doesn’t know what she’s actually begging for, and it drives him fucking insane.
She’s squirming in the chair, slouching back, legs opening and closing like she doesn’t know what to do with them. And Hyunjin’s mind is suddenly painting the prettiest image of what she’d look like coming all over his mouth.
He’s thinking of how eager she’d be, spreading her legs for him with zero hesitation. She’d grip at his hair, pull him right where she wants him, moan his name so prettily. He’d lap up every last bit of her, not stopping until she’s shaking and begging and drenching his entire fucking face.
I’d be so easy to just drop down and do just that. There’s not many people around, and it’s loud enough out here that any sounds they’d make would be muffled enough to not draw attention towards them. All he had to do was drop down and lift her dress up and bury himself inside her thighs.
But he can’t—he shouldn’t. Being outside like this is already too much of a risk in itself. His company may have loosened up on many things in their lives, but being caught eating pussy outside a tiny café in the middle of Florence might just cost him his entire career. He tells himself he’s holding off solely for that reason, but deep down, he really knows it’s because he’d probably lose his fucking mind if someone had managed to snap a picture of her pussy for the entire world to see. That possessive side of him simply wouldn’t allow that.
Hyunjin doesn’t like to share. Especially when it comes to Y/N.
He hums lightly, his gaze focusing on his mark he left on her briefly before he resumes his scribbling on the napkin in front of him. He sees her shifting again from his peripheral vision and bites back a grin, knowing he’s gotten her all riled up only for him to shut it down. What can he say? He’s a masochist, apparently.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name again, this time a little more desperate. He bites his bottom lip.
“Yes, jagiya?”
He can feel her glare burning holes into his skin, and it only makes his cock even heavier in his pants. It’s unfortunate he can’t do anything about that right now.
“Do you need something?” He asks once she remains quiet.
She huffs in response, crossing her arms in front of her chest. This time, he can’t hold his grin in, and he’s grinning with his tongue as he glances at her, “Don’t worry. You’ll get your chance at dinner later.”
“Dinner?”
“Yes, dinner,” He replies, tracing the outline of her lips on the napkin. He leans more into the chair, “I want to take you somewhere tonight. If you’ll let me.”
He peers up at her briefly, hating that he can’t see what she’s actually thinking because of the sunglasses she still has on. She’s not saying anything, and he feels his palms start to sweat. Fuck, he knew he shouldn’t have already booked a reservation.
“Where?”
The softness of that word has him looking back at her, and something pulls at his chest. “There’s a restaurant about an hour from Florence along the river. The same place I wanted to take you a few days ago,” He moves on to her eyes, his pen working quick against the napkin, “It’s beautiful,” Like you, “I really think you’d like it.”
“How beautiful?”
He hesitates, because he knows what she’s getting at. She seems to notice, because of course she does, letting out a quiet sigh as she leans across the table to face him, “Hyunjin.”
“Very beautiful. I had great recommendations.”
“That means it’s expensive,” She slouches back into her chair. She sighs again, “Hyunjin, I don’t want you to spend a ridiculous amount of money on me. You’ve already paid for enough things this week.”
“Yes, because I wanted to. Also, you paid for our coffee today.”
“Yeah, after I practically tackled you to the ground so you’d let me.”
Ah, yes. How could he forget that?
“Yeah, that was hot.”
“Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin sighs, flicking his wrist once more before placing his pen on the table. Without saying another word, he folds the napkin once, then slides it across the table until it gently bumps against her hand.
She looks down, “What’s this?”
He shrugs, reaching for his espresso, “Open it.”
Her fingers tremble as she opens it, and then she stops. He watches as she softly bites her lip, her cheeks heating to a beautiful shade of red, and he bites the inside of his cheek to prevent himself from doing something stupid like lean over and smash his lips against hers. Her head tilts down towards the drawing, then back towards him, then back down, then back at him.
“You…” Her voice comes out breathless, beautiful, “You drew me?”
Hyunjin places his cup up to his lips, smiling over the rim, “I did.”
She looks back down, “I didn’t even notice.”
“Yeah, I know.”
“You’re so talented, Hyunjin. Seriously,” She smiles, her fingertips carefully tracing the edge of the napkin, “It’s beautiful.”
“No,” He shakes his head gently, causing her to glance up at him, “You’re beautiful, Y/N.”
She glances up at him, almost shy now, before folding the napkin with infinitely more care than he’d used. She tucks it safely inside her bag, into the zippered compartment, like it was something precious. Seeing that made something warm settle quietly in his chest.
“You deserve beautiful things, Y/N,” He quietly says, his fingers twitching, the urge to grab onto her hands itching at his skin, “I like doing nice things for people, and I like doing nice things for you. I like making an evening feel special, I like dressing up, I like beautiful places and good wine and good food. But most of all, I like you.”
The slight confession sits heavy in the air around them. He didn’t mean to actually say that, but it was out now, so there’s no point in trying to take it back. Not that he would, anyway—those words are probably the most genuine words he’s ever uttered in his life.
He does like her, far more than he probably should. He does want to spoil her, to kiss her freely, to touch and claim her without the entire world knowing. He wants it more than he’s ever wanted anything in his entire life.
But what he wants most is to love someone, to be loved by someone who understands him. Who sees him for who he is, and not as the brand that he carries around on his shoulders. Who isn’t afraid to put him in his place and remind him that he doesn’t sit on this high horse that everyone seems to make him out to be.
Hyunjin knows he falls fast, he always has. He wears his heart on his sleeve, willing to give it to anyone who wants it. And even knowing that millions of people do want it, the fact that one of them could possibly be her triggers something deep in his chest.
“You’re not going to let this go, are you?”
Hyunjin blinks once before focusing his attention back towards her and away from his inner thoughts. She’s smiling at him, shaking her head fondly, her curls flowing wildly in the wind. She’s not perfect, by all means, but that’s exactly the reason he likes her so much.
“No,” He mumbles, reaching out to tuck her hair behind her ear, letting his fingertips graze a little longer on the side of her face. Beautiful. “No, I’m not.”
“And you’ve already decided,” She leans more into his touch.
“I have,” He replies lowly, cupping her face with his hand, lightly tracing the softness of her cheeks, “I’ve already booked the reservation, actually.”
“Of course you have,” She grins at him, and he has no choice but to grin back. How could he not? “Let me guess, you bought me a nice dress to wear too, didn’t you?”
Hyunjin knows she meant it as a joke, but the grin on his face only grows. Of course he bought her a nice dress. Why wouldn’t he?
“Hyunjin,” She says his name sternly, teasing completely gone, “Hyunjin, please tell me you didn’t actually buy me a dress.”
He shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly. He knows she’s pissed, but it’ll all be worth it once he sees her looking so pretty in elegant fabric that he’ll just rip off later.
She sighs dramatically, nervously glancing around before leaning away from his touch and back into her seat. He’s disappointed, for a second, but puts his hand down anyway. The sound of laughter behind them serves as a blunt reminder that they’re still in public, where anyone can see them at anytime.
She doesn’t say anything for a few moments, and he wonders briefly if she’s actually upset with him. He knows she doesn’t like him spending money on her, but doesn’t she realize that’s his love language? He likes nice things, so it’s only fair she has them, too.
He opens his mouth to apologize, to tell her just that, but she’s interrupting him before he gets the chance to.
“Don’t.” She points a finger at him, that same teasing glint back in her eyes. He closes his mouth, a soft smirk pulling at his lips.
“I’ll wear the dress you bought me, but only because I’ll feel bad if I don’t,” She lowers her finger, crossing her arms across her chest, pouting slightly, “But, you can’t buy me anything else on this trip. Fancy wine included. Okay?”
He rolls his eyes fondly, nodding his head slightly. Sure, he’d try his best not to if that’s what she really wanted, but he just wants her to have whatever she wants—wants her to live in the moment with him and not have to worry about anything else. Can you blame him for that?
“And, about dinner…” She trails off, holding his gaze for a few quiet seconds before smiling in a way that makes him feel like he’d won something far more valuable than an argument, “Yes. Take me to dinner, Hyunjin.”
For reasons he couldn’t quite explain, hearing those words makes his heart beat just a little bit faster than it has all afternoon.
By the time his driver pulled alongside the river, the sky had turned a deep blue that only existed for a few fleeting minutes after sunset.
The water reflects the lights from the old stone buildings lining the opposite bank, each ripple breaking the reflections into streaks of amber. A violinist somewhere farther down the promenade plays softly enough that the melody blended with the sound of the river itself.
Hyunjin steps out first. He practically bolts out of his seat, speed-walking to Y/N’s side of the car to open it before his driver even has the chance. Y/N is his date. He’ll be damned if he’s not the one helping her out of the car.
He gives Renaldo, his driver for today, a sheepish grin once he makes eye contact with him, an attempt to tell him that he’s sorry for getting out of the car while it was still moving and possibly drawing attention to himself, but also that he’s not really sorry. However, the grin is quickly wiped from his face once the door fully opens and Y/N looks up at him.
For a second, his brain simply stops. Even though he’s already seen her, she still manages to make him forget how to breathe.
The dress fits her perfectly, exactly the way he had imagined. It’s rich and deep beneath the evening lights, and when she actually takes his hand and stands up, he feels like he might just pass out. His eyes travel down her body, unable to stop it, and he swallows thickly at the sight. The fabric hugs her figure perfectly, tight in all the right places, falling gracefully to her ankles. The slit along one side of her leg reveals just enough skin whenever she moves, and he sucks in a deep breath at how smooth and plush her thigh looks, begging for him to bite and suck at it.
But what he notices most, is how happy she looks.
She’s looking at him with a fond expression, a little shy, her eyes bright and glazed over with adoration. It makes something warm settle in his chest knowing she’s looking at him that way—looking at him the same exact way he always looks at her. Hyunjin’s never felt this way about anyone before. He’s never met someone who captivated him as quickly and as deeply as she has. What he feels for her travels far along the horizon in front of them.
He just really hopes she feels the same way.
“Why do you keep staring at me?”
Hyunjin blinks once, twice, feeling the back of his neck grow hot. “I…” A laugh escapes him, but he can’t even be embarrassed because she has to know why at this point, “I can’t form words right now. Ask me in two minutes.”
Y/N rolls her eyes fondly, a soft giggle escaping her mouth as she holds up one side of her dress, squeezing his hand tighter, “You’re an idiot.”
“And you’re beautiful.”
She smiles at him, and it does nothing to settle the giddiness he feels in his body right now.
“I’ll admit,” She looks down towards her body briefly before glancing back at him, “This was a good choice. You have good taste.”
“That might be the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me,” He places his free hand over his heart, clutching it dramatically.
“Oh, don’t let it get to your head. You’re an ambassador for Versace for a reason.”
“Oh,” Hyunjin grins cheekily, “I thought you didn’t keep up with me anymore, jagiya.”
She shoves him lightly, tip of her ears reddening slightly, “Oh, shut up. You know I’m still in the loop of most things.”
“Mhm, sure,” He grins wider once she avoids eye contact. He loves when she gets shy around him.
“You’ve been insufferable all day.” She mumbles once he starts to lead her towards the front doors.
“I’ve been charming.” He replies, guiding her up the stone stairs, being careful not to step on her dress or cause her to trip.
“You’ve been expensive.”
He holds the door open for her once they make it to the top, grinning cheekily, “I’ve been classy.”
“You’ve been boujee.”
“Can’t disagree with that one,” He snorts in amusement, slapping her ass lightly. She lets out a quiet yelp, jumping slightly, definitely not expecting him to do that, but obviously not hating it, either.
“Now, get inside and walk in front of me so I can watch your ass jiggle in this dress.”
She gapes at him for a moment, obviously not expecting that to come out of his mouth. Honestly, he didn’t mean to say that, it just came out. Okay, maybe he did mean to say that, but it’s true, so what can you expect? He’s just a man.
“As I said… insufferable,” She hisses at him quietly, letting go of his hand to walk around him. She stops in front of him, glancing back at him as she runs a hand against the curve of her ass, a teasing glint in her eyes, “Make sure to get a really good look at it now, Hyunnie, because you won’t be seeing it later.”
“Fucking tease,” He mumbles to himself, eyes zeroed in on how her ass moves in the dress. She’s swaying her hips more than usual, giving him his own personal show, and he fucking loves it.
He’s frozen in place for a second until she turns around to call him over, a knowing smirk tugging at her lips. The host is watching him expectantly, definitely catching him ogling her ass, but he can’t bring himself to care about that.
He smirks back at her, eyes staying on her as he walks forward, his hand coming up to rest on her lower back as he pulls her towards him. He gets a whiff of her sweet perfume, and he finds himself nuzzling his head into the side of her neck before planting a soft kiss there.
“Mr. Hwang,” The host smiles politely at them, and he smiles against her skin as she squirms a little in his grasp, slapping his arm lightly in what he assumes is to get his attention. He huffs, standing back up straight, keeping his hand on her back.
The host flickers his eyes from Hyunjin to Y/N and back to Hyunjin before widening his grin, “Buonasera! (Good evening). If you are ready, I can escort you to your table.”
“We’re ready,” Y/N answers with a polite smile before he could open his mouth. She squeezes his arm, “Grazie.”
“Prego, mia signora. (You’re welcome, my lady). Please, follow me.”
Hyunjin shuffles his feet as he follows them, his hand trailing down towards the curve of her ass. He hums, fingers dancing up and down against the soft fabric before he grips it in his hand. She lets out a quiet shriek at the feeling, and he suppresses a moan from how she feels in his hand.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name quietly as a warning, but he only grips it harder, giving it a light smack before letting go completely.
“Here is your table,” The host gestures towards the table right by the river, “Please, take a moment to look through the menu and your waitress will be here shortly. Would you like to start off with any wine?”
“Yes, we’d love to,” Hyunjin replies before Y/N can, ignoring the glare she sends him and pulling her chair out for her, “We’ll take a bottle of Chianti, please.”
“Perfect,” He nods politely, “I’ll get that out right away. Please, make yourselves comfortable, and we will be with you shortly.”
Hyunjin bows politely, offering him a thank you as Y/N sits down in her chair with a small huff. He grins, amused, walking over to his side of the table and sitting down. She’s still glaring at him, and she looks so fucking cute.
Sigh. He’s so down bad.
“I thought we agreed no more fancy wine.”
“It’s dinner, jagiya,” Hyunjin replies, pouring them both some water, “We have to have wine at dinner. Adds to the aesthetic, you know?”
Y/N sighs, shaking her head in amusement, glancing down to look at the menu. She frowns, and Hyunjin already knows what’s about to come out of her mouth.
“This is expensive,” She mumbles, glancing back at him.
“It’s fine,” He tries to brush it off, directing his attention to the waitress who’s now pouring wine in each of their glasses. She introduces herself, and Hyunjin nods politely, thanking her quietly.
Y/N watches her walk away, and then she’s looking back at him. “Hyunjin,” She starts, exasperated, and he quickly interrupts her.
“It’s fine, jagiya,” He stresses the words out, taking a sip of his wine. She’s watching him intently, and he can tell she’s uncomfortable. He sighs, placing the glass back down, “I want to do this for you. It’s a miracle you even agreed to come here with me in the first place. I like you, I want to spoil you some, so, please, let me.”
She bites her lip softly, and he’s drawn to the action. Her lips are a deep red, glossy, looking so inviting, and he really, really wants to kiss her right now. There’s nobody around, anyway, so what’s stopping him?
“I like you, too,” She says quietly, shyly, and he’s leaning over the table to place his lips on hers before he can think anything of it.
The words make him feel fuzzy inside, and he’s moving his lips against hers so gently, so passionately. She kisses him back almost instantly, and he smiles into her mouth, pulling back slowly, licking his lips as he glances down at her.
“Mhm, you taste so good, jagiya,” He mumbles, watching her neck turn the same exact shade as her pretty blush. He pecks her lips one more time just because he wants to before leaning back into his seat, straightening up like nothing even happened.
It feels good to kiss her so freely like this, without having to worry about where they are or who will see. He had booked the entire restaurant to himself in order to ensure privacy for this reason specifically. He wanted her to feel comfortable and he wanted her to enjoy herself, because she deserves it.
She deserves everything. If only she’d let him give her that.
“I was expecting this place to be crowded,” She glances around a bit, most likely taking everything in. The view was beautiful, he really can’t blame her. That’s one of the reasons he chose this place.
He hums in agreement, watching her look around in slight awe. Suddenly, she slows to a stop, flickering her eyes back at him.
The dining room was empty, every table is perfectly set up, candles are flickering against crisp white linen, fresh roses decorated on every table. A grand piano was playing softly in one corner, though the pianist was hidden from their view.
There wasn’t another guest anywhere in sight. He already knows what she’s about to ask.
She looks around once, twice, then slowly back towards him. “Where is everyone?”
He rubs the back of his neck. He knew she’d catch on. She always does.
“Sooo…”
She raises a brow, waiting. He bites his lip cheekily, shrugging his shoulders, “I booked the entire place for us. No big deal.”
Her mouth slowly opens, “You booked… the entire restaurant?”
“It seemed like the easiest solution.”
“Easiest?”
He sighs slouching back into his seat a little, fingers tracing the stem of his wine glass, “I just wanted you to be able to relax, Y/N. I know you’re still worried every time we go somewhere in public, so I wanted to make things better for you. For us.”
Her eyes drift back towards the river, to the candlelight, to the empty terrace waiting for them, and then back to him. “This is one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me,” She says quietly, reaching out to grab ahold of his hand, “Thank you, Hyunjin. Seriously, thank you. For everything.”
She smiles at him, and it’s genuine and lovely and everything that makes him feel all mushy inside. And as she smiles at him from across the table, still holding his hand, he realizes that no amount of privacy, expensive dinners, or reserved restaurants had ever been what he actually wanted.
He only wanted this—an evening where she chose to sit across from him, and nowhere else.
The waitress comes back to re-introduce herself, to ask them if they need anything, and Hyunjin orders Bruschetta for them to share. Y/N doesn’t argue, doesn’t try to tell him they don’t need it, doesn’t remove her hand from his. She simply lets him, her shoulders relaxing significantly.
It wasn’t until the waitress walks away that Y/N lifts her glass of wine up with her free hand, smiling at him, “To Florence.”
“To second chances,” He replies lightly, their glasses clinking against each other ever so softly.
For a while, they simply enjoy the evening. They enjoy fresh pasta, sea bass, wine—lots of wine. Hyunjin drinks enough to where his head starts to spin ever so lightly and his face starts to feel hot.
Fuck, he’s drunk. And judging by how giggly and touchy Y/N is currently being, she is, too.
“I still can’t believe Chan and Kat managed to keep this entire thing from us,” Y/N giggles, her foot slowly traveling up and down his right leg. It’s driving him crazy, and he’s been trying to ignore it for the past thirty minutes.
“I can,” Hyunjin replies, feeling his throat go warm once he takes another sip of his wine, “Chan lies by omission. He just conveniently forgets information. Like, always.”
“Kat, too!” She exclaims loudly, leaning in towards him as she slams her hands on the table, “She is almost as insufferable as you! Her and Chan are literally the same person. Two peas in a pod.”
Hyunjin hums, “I guarantee they planned this.” And thank fuck they did.
“Yeah, they probably had a spreadsheet. Color-coordinated and everything. With timelines.”
Her words are slightly slurred, and it’s so fucking endearing. She’s so fucking endearing. “That seems excessive.”
“It is, but it’s Kat,” She runs her foot up his leg once more, and if she does it one more time, he might end up climbing over this table and force her to stop.
Hyunjin takes another sip of his wine to distract himself from the heat currently traveling up his entire body. He always feels like his body is on fire every time he’s around Y/N, but right now, it’s ten times worse.
“She keeps looking at you.”
Hyunjin blinks, confused, placing his wine glass down on the table, “Who?”
“The waitress,” Y/N nods to her left, and Hyunjin glances over to see her quickly put her head down, obviously being caught staring. He watches her for a second before she ends up glancing back up at him, only for her to quickly away once she was caught.
“Ariana?”
“Oh, I didn’t realize you were on a first name basis with our waitress,” Y/N grumbles in front of him, a slight frown on her lips as she focuses her attention on their waitress who’s still looking at him. One look at her, and he already knows she’s jealous.
The fact that she’s currently glaring down the waitress with her arms across her chest has him grinning mischievously. Honestly, he wasn’t expecting her to get jealous, considering the lifestyle he currently lives in, so this was a pleasant surprise. And he’d be lying if he said he hates it.
He wants her obsessed with him the same way he’s obsessed with her.
Hyunjin hums, leaning back into his chair, spreading his legs a little as he politely gestures for Ariana to come over to their table. Y/N notices instantly, snapping her head over towards him, the glare previously directed at Ariana now directed at him.
“Ariana,” He says her name politely, his grin widening once he feels Y/N kick his leg underneath the table.
Her face flushes into a deep red, stuttering out a, “Y-yes, sir?”
“Could you do something for me?” He asks gently, the side of his face blazing with Y/N’s hot gaze.
Ariana nods enthusiastically, and Hyunjin can tell that she’s doing her best to remain calm and professional. She’s shaking a little, and Hyunjin feels bad, but he has to do this so he can finally get what he wants.
He gestures for her to come closer, and she does slowly, in a mix of blushes and shakes and rapid breaths. He feels another kick to his leg, and it only adds to that flame inside him that’s only growing bigger by the minute.
“Can you give us a little bit of privacy, please? Maybe about thirty minutes or so? I’d greatly appreciate it.” He asks quietly, soft enough to where Y/N couldn’t hear him, innocent enough to where she wouldn’t suspect anything.
“O-oh, of course!” Ariana stutters out a reply, smiling down at him politely, “I will come check on you then. Enjoy!”
Hyunjin smiles out a thank you, watching as she walks away from them. He can still feel Y/N glaring at him, boring holes into the side of his face. She huffs in annoyance, probably to get his attention, but he doesn’t turn around. Not yet.
She grumbles something, no doubt cursing him out, and he bites back a grin. It wasn’t until Ariana had walked through the doors and was completely out of sight that he turns around to face her. She looks pissed off.
Perfect.
“Something wrong, jagiya?”
Y/N scoffs, angrily snatching up her wine glass and taking a nice, long sip, all while still shooting daggers into his skull.
Hyunjin leans up, resting his elbows on the table in front of them, humming lightly as he toys with the bottom of his lip with his fingertips, “Do you want to know what I told her?”
“No,” She replies quickly, obviously lying, and he smirks once she shifts a little in her seat, “I don’t care. Just seems a little rude to flirt with someone else when you’re on a date with me.”
Date. The word has his heart racing, and that giddiness he was feeling earlier only intensifies. He definitely sees this as a date, and he’s fucking ecstatic that she sees it the same.
Hyunjin cocks his head to the side, studying her intently, holding her gaze, “Wasn’t flirting. Was just asking her if she’d give us some privacy for a bit.”
“Privacy?” Her eyes narrow in on him, slightly confused, “F-for what?”
He leans in closer towards her, close enough that he can feel the warmness of her soft breaths against his lips. The candle is flickering below him, casting a perfect glow on her, adding more warmth to his body that’s already up in flames. She visibly gulps, her eyes glancing down towards his lips once, twice, before meeting his gaze. She’s nervous, he can tell, but there’s also something else there. Something that tends to darken his soul and consume every single inch of his skin.
He picks up his fork, twirling it in the air a couple times before dropping it to the floor. It lands with a soft clink.
“Oops,” He shrugs his shoulders, a shit-eating grin on his face, “Guess I better pick that up.”
Before she can even say anything, he’s pushing his seat back and standing up, his eyes darkening as she gaps up at him. “H-hyunjin… what…”
A strangled noise leaves her mouth once he drops down to his knees to climb underneath the table, lifting the white linen up to start crawling towards her. She shrieks quietly, her legs squeezing together so tightly as she attempts to scoot her chair back. He places his hands on her thighs, halting her movements, giving them a soft slap.
“I told you you’d get your chance at dinner. It’s dinner,” He smirks, rubbing the soft, plush skin of her thighs, “Now spread those legs for me, jagiya. Let me see how wet you are for me.”
She instantly obeys, spreading them wide, even going as far as to scoot to the edge of her seat. Hyunjin groans at how eager she is for him, bunching her dress up as high as it will go, the red lace of her thong barely covering her pussy, an obvious wet patch sitting right in the center.
“Hyunjin,” She gasps his name quietly, and he hums, fingers tracing up and down her clothed core as he licks his lips. Fuck, she’s perfect for him. So perfect.
“Yes, jagiya?”
“Please,” She squirms a bit more, her hands coming underneath the tablecloth to grip at his hair. She gives it a harsh tug, and he moans at the slight sting.
“Please, what?”
He leans in closer, licking a long stripe up her clothed core, groaning at the slight taste that grazes his tongue. She shivers above him, her body jerking, and he spreads her legs even further apart. Her panties cling to her pussy, barely covering her from him, wet and begging for him to get a proper taste.
She whimpers out his name, pulling his face closer to her pussy, tugging his hair harder, and Hyunjin groans lowly. He pulls his head back as she slightly loosens her grip, and then he’s grabbing ahold of the band of her panties, jerking it upwards, cursing at the sight of her pussy lips peeking out of the fabric.
“You know I like when you use your words, jagiya. You should know this by now.” He says lowly, the sound of her gasping and moaning ringing in his ears. He pulls a little tighter, and she’s squirming everywhere, hands gripping tightly at his hair.
She chokes out his name, and he hums, leaning in closer towards her, “I’ll say this again. Please what? What do you want from me, jagiya?”
“Y-you,” She gasps out, begging, pleading, “Please, Hyunjin. Please make me cum.”
He could have her beg a little more, have her moaning and crying and crumbling until he finally gives in, but he thinks he might die if he doesn’t taste her within the next five seconds.
He slides her panties to the side quickly, leaning in, eagerly licking up her pussy. She whines softly, lying her ankles on his back to push him forward, hands tugging his hair so hard that he’d be surprised if she didn’t pull some of his hair out. The taste of her on his tongue and the grip she has on his head causes his eyes to roll in the back of his head, a throaty groan falling from his lips. He could cum like this.
“Fuck, you taste so good,” He mumbles to himself, eyes mesmerized by how wet and pink she looks. Her pussy is glistening, so pretty and warm and perfect, and he’s leaning back in without a second thought, fucking his tongue into her.
“Hyunjin… fuck…” She whines softly, pulling his head even harder against her. He moans into her, lapping up and down and all around her pussy before flicking his tongue against her clit. She gasps, hips jerking off the chair, and he holds her hip down with one hand, his other trailing down to slip two fingers inside of her.
They slide in with ease, because of course they do. She’s drenching his face, drenching his fingers, moaning and withering above him like a good fucking girl. His good fucking girl.
“O-oh, Hyunjin, f-fuck… feels so good,” She moans out so sweetly, riding his face like she owns him. And she does. Fuck, she does. “Your mouth is so good. Always so good. Makes me cum so fast.”
His cock is rock hard in his pants. He feels like he’s going to bust if she doesn’t stop talking.
“Hyunjin, Hyunjin, yes, yes,” She chants the words over and over again, and fuck, he’s getting so close. Embarrassingly close to coming in his fucking pants.
He takes his left hand off of her hip to palm at his hard cock through his pants, desperate to relieve some of the pressure. It feels good, but it’s not enough, and he almost wants to just take his cock out so he can stroke it properly and cum all over her pussy.
Fuck. Now he’s thinking of his load coating her wet pussy and how pretty she’d look taking it. Maybe he’d fuck it into her, or maybe he’d lean down and lick it right the fuck up, tasting both of them on his tongue.
The thought has his pulse racing and his fingers thrusting faster inside her as he grabs his cock through his pants. He adds a third finger, maintaining a quick and steady pace as he flicks his tongue repeatedly over her swollen clit.
“Yes, yes, yes, right there, please, don’t stop,” She chokes out a sob, pulling and tugging and grinding even harder against him. He hums against her, sucking and licking and fucking her harder, and he sees stars once she calls out his name in a mix of pleas and whines and everything he loves to hear as she drenches his entire face.
He pulls his mouth back with a soft gasp, eyes instantly drawn to where she’s currently squirting all over his chin. He watches in awe, sticking his tongue out, moaning at the taste of her, wanting nothing more than to lick up every last drop of what she’s giving him.
“Yeah, jagiya, just like that,” He smirks, his fingers still thrusting inside of her as he works her through it, “Mhm, yeah. You’re coming so hard for me. Making such a mess all over me. Fuck, you’re gonna make me cum.”
One last tug against his cock and he’s doing just that. The mix of her taste and the sounds she’s making and how swollen and puffy her clit is—it’s enough to send him completely over the edge, and he’s shooting his load all in his pants and underwear, groaning loudly as he throws his head back, mouth gaped open in pure bliss.
He curses lowly, his fingers slipping out of her with a lewd sound that only heightens to his orgasm. He’s coming and coming and coming, the only thing on his mind being Y/N, Y/N, Y/N.
She whimpers his name out above him, her legs tense as she tries to close them, but he isn’t having any of that. He leans his mouth back in, lapping up every bit of her, marveling at the taste of her. Fuck, he can’t stop. He doesn’t want to stop. But he’s pretty sure he’s close to his thirty minutes of privacy being up, so he has to.
He groans in annoyance, resting his forehead against her inner thigh as he takes in a deep breath, trying to compose himself. He stays there for a few seconds before lifting his head up, trying to ignore the way her pussy is just begging for him to stuff it full with his cock. Now is not the time nor place for that, as much as it drives him crazy not to.
He pecks a quick kiss to her center before gently pulling her dress back down and crawling back out from underneath the table. He feels a little light-headed once he stands up to his full height, his knees and back throbbing a little from the uncomfortable position, but it was worth it. So fucking worth it.
“Are you okay?” He manages to pant out, seeing the dazed expression she has. Her eyes are glistening with tears, mascara running down her face, her chest rapidly rising and falling with each breath. He can feel his cock thickening in his pants once again but he can’t even be ashamed by that.
She glances down, probably noticing the giant wet patch and slight bulge that’s only growing by the second. No, she definitely notices, considering the way she’s practically undressing him with her eyes, and he finds himself reaching down to grab at his cock, wincing slightly as he very poorly adjusts himself in front of her.
Her eyes darken, and he’s about to ask the question again, when her voice stops him.
“Take me home, Hyunjin.”
He tries to blink through the slight haze he’s still in, a little confused at what she means by that. “Huh?”
She leans in, licking her lips as she trails her eyes all over him. She looks like she wants to devour him, and he’s more than happy to let her do whatever the fuck she wants with him.
“I said, take me home. If you don’t want me to fuck you with Ariana watching, then take. Me. Home.”
“Yes, dinner,” He replies, tracing the outline of her lips on the napkin. He leans more into the chair, “I want to take you somewhere tonight. If you’ll let me.”
He peers up at her briefly, hating that he can’t see what she’s actually thinking because of the sunglasses she still has on. She’s not saying anything, and he feels his palms start to sweat. Fuck, he knew he shouldn’t have already booked a reservation.
“Where?”
The softness of that word has him looking back at her, and something pulls at his chest. “There’s a restaurant about an hour from Florence along the river. The same place I wanted to take you a few days ago,” He moves on to her eyes, his pen working quick against the napkin, “It’s beautiful,” Like you, “I really think you’d like it.”
“How beautiful?”
He hesitates, because he knows what she’s getting at. She seems to notice, because of course she does, letting out a quiet sigh as she leans across the table to face him, “Hyunjin.”
“Very beautiful. I had great recommendations.”
“That means it’s expensive,” She slouches back into her chair. She sighs again, “Hyunjin, I don’t want you to spend a ridiculous amount of money on me. You’ve already paid for enough things this week.”
“Yes, because I wanted to. Also, you paid for our coffee today.”
“Yeah, after I practically tackled you to the ground so you’d let me.”
Ah, yes. How could he forget that?
“Yeah, that was hot.”
“Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin sighs, flicking his wrist once more before placing his pen on the table. Without saying another word, he folds the napkin once, then slides it across the table until it gently bumps against her hand.
She looks down, “What’s this?”
He shrugs, reaching for his espresso, “Open it.”
Her fingers tremble as she opens it, and then she stops. He watches as she softly bites her lip, her cheeks heating to a beautiful shade of red, and he bites the inside of his cheek to prevent himself from doing something stupid like lean over and smash his lips against hers. Her head tilts down towards the drawing, then back towards him, then back down, then back at him.
“You…” Her voice comes out breathless, beautiful, “You drew me?”
Hyunjin places his cup up to his lips, smiling over the rim, “I did.”
She looks back down, “I didn’t even notice.”
“Yeah, I know.”
“You’re so talented, Hyunjin. Seriously,” She smiles, her fingertips carefully tracing the edge of the napkin, “It’s beautiful.”
“No,” He shakes his head gently, causing her to glance up at him, “You’re beautiful, Y/N.”
She glances up at him, almost shy now, before folding the napkin with infinitely more care than he’d used. She tucks it safely inside her bag, into the zippered compartment, like it was something precious. Seeing that made something warm settle quietly in his chest.
“You deserve beautiful things, Y/N,” He quietly says, his fingers twitching, the urge to grab onto her hands itching at his skin, “I like doing nice things for people, and I like doing nice things for you. I like making an evening feel special, I like dressing up, I like beautiful places and good wine and good food. But most of all, I like you.”
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i’m going to LA tomorrow for a wedding this weekend and won’t be back until early next week, so i won’t have time to write during that time. i’m hoping to have chapter eight out by next weekend, though!
— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin, strangers-to-lovers au
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 8.6k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; mentions of depression & anxiety ; mentions of toxicity of idol life ; possessive!hyunjin ; sexual tension ; smut consisting of: dry humping, fingering, f!masturbation, oral (m!receiving), deep-throating, sexual acts in a public area, lots of dirty talk
NOTE. my reactions while writing this chapter 🥰😅😏😩🥵🤭😮💨💦🫣
EIGHT | SERIES M.LIST
Hanaemi 花笑み (Japanese) — “the flowering smile” or “the smile of flowers” in old Japanese. It is a smile that is as beautiful as blooming flowers
Hyunjin thinks he could spend the rest of his life chasing days like this. That thought arrives unexpectedly.
It’s not dramatic, necessarily, but more so of the kind of thought that sneaks up on you when you’re sitting on a private beach somewhere along the Italian coast watching sunlight dance across the water while the woman you’ve spent four years trying to forget laughs beside you.
The beach itself is hidden away from the main coastline. One of his friends owns property nearby and arranged access to a section that’s practically impossible for tourists to reach. There’s no public entrance, no paparazzi, no strangers—it’s just them.
And it feels so good.
Hyunjin has come to know exactly when Y/N starts getting nervous, because he’s spent most of the past twenty-four hours paying attention to her. He noticed it when him and his driver picked her up earlier this morning in a completely blacked out SUV, glancing around in slight paranoia as she all but rushed to climb into the backseat. He noticed it when she sat down beside him, her eyes flickering everywhere but at him at first. And he noticed it when they got out of the car, together, as she pulled her sun hat down to cover her face, making sure to keep her distance as they headed towards the sand.
He would be lying if he said it didn’t make him feel like shit, but he gets it. He had spent most of his idol life doing the same thing, and still finds himself doing that now, especially when he’s back home in Seoul. Being seen with him causes for a recipe of disaster, and it’s a lot, so he gets it.
She shouldn’t have to think about things like that. Nobody should, but especially not her.
But just like he can tell when she’s nervous, he can also tell when she’s comfortable. And really, he’s just relieved that he can make her feel that way.
They talked the entire ride here. The entire two hours. There was no awkward pauses, no uncomfortable silences, no painfully searching for topics of conversation. It was easy, it was effortless, and it was natural in a way that almost surprises him.
They talked about New York, about her work, about Italy, about how Chan and Kat somehow remain incapable of minding their own business. She told him about horror stories in the ER, (her words, not his), and he told her about the time Felix almost burned the dorm down a week after they debuted.
Stories turned into memories, which then turned into little details about the last four years. And sometime during the drive, Hyunjin realized something that caught him completely off guard.
He didn’t feel any kind of pressure around her, not the pressure that constantly seems to weigh heavy on his chest he ends up carrying everywhere else. Here, with her, there’s no performance, no expectation, no version of himself he has to maintain.
The realization is so rare it almost hurts.
They’ve been lying on the beach for about two hours now, stretched out on towels in the warm sand. The early afternoon sun is warming everything around them, the ocean stretching endlessly ahead. He glances over towards where Y/N is lying, peering at her through his sunglasses, and Hyunjin realizes very quickly that he has a slight problem, because she won’t stop being so beautiful.
As soon as she walked out the front doors of her hotel this morning, he knew he was a goner. She was wearing a flowy white dress that hug her body so perfectly and fell off her shoulders so elegantly that it instantly had him questioning his existence. He could see the straps from the bikini on her shoulders and could make out the outline of her body underneath it, and once she sat down beside him in the backseat, he had to say a quick prayer that he wouldn’t get a hard-on just from her presence alone.
The image has been haunting him for what felt like hours. The way the fabric moved in the breeze once they stepped back out of the car, the sunlight catching in her hair, the easy smile she’d gave him when she kicked her sandals off in the sand and slipped her dress over her head—it all was making him feel crazy. At one point, he’d genuinely forgotten how to speak, which she found hilarious, unfortunately.
Now, she’s lying beside him in a bikini that hides little to the imagination and his situation has become worse. Significantly worse.
She’s talking about something, he thinks. Her mouth is moving, her hands lightly tracing circles on her bare stomach, her gaze focused on the sky in the front of them, and Hyunjin is drawn into every single movement she’s currently making. Except everything she’s saying right now is currently going through one ear and right out the other, along with his sanity.
Honestly, he’s trying. He really is. But the problem is that her bikini is barely hiding anything on her body. It’s tight and revealing in all the right places and Hyunjin can’t seem to focus on anything else but how slick and plush her skin looks from her sweat and the tanning oil she rubbed on herself earlier and how he really wants to lean over and bite at the belly button ring that’s shining in the sun. She didn’t have that before, and he thinks it might be one of the hottest things he’s seen on a woman yet. Or maybe it’s because it’s on her.
Really, he should be ashamed of himself. He’s a twenty-six year old man, yet he’s acting like he’s a teenager.
He closes his eyes briefly, willing himself to get it the fuck together. Really, it’s all fine. As long as she doesn’t turn to lay on her stomach or stand up and stick her ass in his face, he’ll be good. He can deal with this.
It’s almost like she just knows what he’s thinking, as she ends up shifting her body on the towel beneath her, slowly turning her body around so she can lay on her stomach.
A strangled noise escapes his mouth before he can help it, and she’s turning her head to glance over at him, a slightly confused expression on her face, “Are you okay?”
“Yes,” He strains out, eyes zeroed in on how plump her ass looks. The bikini bottoms she’s wearing barely cover it, and he’s thankful his sunglasses are hiding his eyes, “Sorry.”
Her lips quirk as she pulls her own sunglasses down on the bridge of her nose, tilting her head down to stare at him, “Are you sure? You look uncomfortable.”
She’s teasing him, he knows it. And it’s not making things better.
He huffs out a short laugh, turning to lay on his stomach so he can attempt to hide his growing erection, “I’m not uncomfortable. I’m perfectly fine.”
Her smile grows, and lets out a little hum before pushing her sunglasses back up, “Whatever you say.”
Her words have his face heating up, and he shifts a little on the towel, discreetly trying to adjust himself in his swim trunks. God, this is embarrassing. Why is he so fucking embarrassing?
“You stopped listening to me earlier, you know?”
Hyunjin blinks, trying to reset his brain. She’s still staring at him, amused, knowing, and he knows theres no way he can deny it.
“Damn it.”
Her grin widens, “I knew it. Knew you weren’t listening to me for the past ten minutes.”
“For the record, I was listening. Somewhat.”
“You absolutely were not.”
“I got most of it.”
“You got none of it.”
Hyunjin sighs dramatically, accepting his defeat, and she laughs loudly, head tilting back. The sound carries across the empty stretch of the beach, bright and warm and dangerous, because he loves hearing it, more than he probably should.
“You were staring. It’s okay to admit it.”
Hyunjin drops his head back onto the towel, “Maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“Yeah, maybe.”
She shakes her head in amusement, “You’re impossible, you know that?”
The breeze lifts her hair, the sunlight catches her smile, and unfortunately, he’s distracted again. She notices immediately.
“See? There you go again.”
“What?” He replies, acting like he doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
“That.”
She’s smiling differently now, and his stomach flips. It’s the same smile she gave him in his hotel room, the same one that suggested she knew exactly what effect she was having on him.
Dangerous woman.
“So what were you looking at? I feel like I have a right to know.” She rests her face on the palm of her hands, propping up on her elbows as she stares at him.
“I’m not answering that.”
Her eyebrows raise, “You absolutely have to answer that.”
“I really don’t.” He faintly smirks, responding to her in the same teasing tone she was using with him.
“But you do,” She shifts closer slightly, and it’s enough to have his breath hitching in his throat. He watches her carefully, one of her hands reaching out to lightly graze her fingertips against his arm, and he feels the spark instantly, “Hyunjin.”
He shifts again on the towel beneath him, clearing his throat lightly, discreetly moving his arm closer to her so that she’d touch him more, “What?”
“What were you looking at?”
He stares at her for a second, trying to decide if he should tell the truth or not. But unfortunately, he’s never been particularly good at lying to her.
“I was looking at you,” He admits lowly, tilting his head to look at her better. Her fingers are still grazing against his arm, a small hum falling from her lips as she starts to rub small circles on his skin.
“That’s not very specific,” She grins.
Hyunjin lets out a laugh and runs a hand through his hair before propping his face back up, turning to face her. The sunlight is warm against his skin, the ocean rolling quietly behind them, and he realizes he’s exhausted from trying to pretend like he wasn’t staring at her all day.
He shifts his body to lay on his side, propping his head up on his arm, “You really want me to be specific, Y/N?”
She mirrors his position, and he’s eagerly dropping his gaze down, watching at her breasts bounce ever so slightly from the movement. He has to force himself to not lean over, rip that flimsy fabric off, and take her nipples into his mouth.
“I really wanna know, Hyunjin.”
He bites his lip softly, eyes still drawn towards her perky breasts, before he lifts his gaze back to her face. And then everything he’s been trying not to say all day starts coming out.
“I’ve been staring at you because every time I look over here, you somehow look prettier than you did five minutes ago.”
Her grin softens, and he suddenly becomes overwhelmed with her. Everything about her.
“The sunlight keeps hitting your hair, making it look lighter than normal. Now that I think about it, I can make out a few blonde streaks, and I think it makes you look so pretty,” A small smile tugs at his mouth, and he fights the urge to reach out and rub his fingers through her hair, “The wind keeps messing it up. There’s a bunch of curls just flying in the wind, and it looks messy, and you keep trying to fix it, but I like it this way. I like seeing you like this in front of me.”
Y/N’s still watching him, still listening, and his pulse picks up. Because now that’s he’s started talking, it’s becoming impossible for him to stop.
“You look at me like you’re trying not to smile, like you know exactly what you’re doing to me.”
The breeze shifts around them, carrying saltwater through the air. Y/N’s hair falls against her face, messy and tangled, but she doesn’t move it away. Hyunjin smiles when he notices that. He’d sketch her right now if he could.
Beautiful. She’s so beautiful.
“Every time I catch you staring at me back, you get embarrassed for about three seconds before pretending you weren’t staring.”
Y/N groans, “I do not!”
“Yes, you do.”
“I don’t!”
“Y/N.”
The use of her name makes her immediately look away, which proves his point completely. A smug grins spreads across his face, “See what I mean?”
She covers part of her face with one hand, looking completely mortified and dangerously cute. So dangerously cute that it has him wanting to hold her face in his own hands as he devours her on this hot sand.
“I’ve been trying very hard not to think about how beautiful you look lying beside me all day.” He says lowly, carefully.
Y/N’s hand slowly drops from her face, and she turns to look at him. Her sunglasses are still on, and he wishes she’d take them off so he could see her pretty eyes shining for him. Not even a second passes before he’s reaching over, slowly taking them off before placing them in the sand beside them. He’s hears her breath hitch in her throat, and he’s lightly tracing the side of her face before he can think anything of it.
“Much better,” He mumbles out, tucking a stray piece of her hair behind her ear. Her eyes are wide, a little glazed over, but at least she’s looking at him now, “I want to see you looking at me. Always want you looking at me.”
The confession causes her lips to part, her chest rapidly rising and falling with each breath. His eyes flicker over to her lips before he can stop himself, and slowly, he begins to move his hand across her cheek before stopping at her mouth. She parts her lips even more, giving room for his thumb to lightly slip inside. He traces her bottom teeth with his thumb before slipping it inside her mouth fully. A low groan vibrates from his chest once she sucks on it eagerly, twirling and sucking her tongue all around his thumb, just like she’d do with his cock. His cock that is now painfully straining against his swim trunks.
“I’ve been thinking about this mouth, too,” He breathes out lowly, pushing his thumb in deeper. She takes it with a low moan, and the sound goes straight to his dick, “Been thinking about how it would look wrapped around my cock. Think you could take me in your mouth, jagiya?”
She nods her head, eager, eyes watering slightly once she softly gags as he pushes his thumb further into the back of her throat. He hums lowly, tilting his head to the side, “If you’re choking on my thumb now, I can’t even imagine how you’d take my cock in the back of your throat. But if that’s what you want, I’ll give it to you. You know I’ll give you anything you want from me.”
She moans again just as he pulls his thumb back to stick in two of his fingers. She takes them with no hesitation and stars in her eyes, and the sight has him leaking into his shorts.
“Yeah,” He grins once she gags around his fingers, spit dripping down her chin, eyes still wide open and on the brink of tears, “You’d take it so well. You’d be a good girl for me, wouldn’t you? Such a good girl for me.”
He pulls his fingers out, and she lets out a choked gasp, spit dripping all down her face. She’s looking at him differently now, in a way that has him wanting to drop every last ounce of self restraint and take her right here right now without caring who saw them. The place was deserted right now, anyway, and he doubts anyone would even see him, but just the thought of claiming her in front of other people has him feeling fucking feral.
It wasn’t until she called his name, her voice a little breathless and raspy, that he had seemed to knock out of the trance he was in. He shakes his head, turning to lay on his back, desperately trying to recover. If he keeps talking, he’s going to end up doing something he shouldn’t.
And judging by the way she’s looking at him right now, she might just let him, which is somehow worse.
“That’s why I wasn’t listening,” He speaks lowly, casually, trying to act like the boner he’s sporting in his shorts isn’t phasing him one bit, “Hopefully that answers your question. Now, let’s talk about something else.”
A laugh escapes her, breathless and beautiful, and it does nothing to lessen the tent in his shorts, “What… why?”
“Because I enjoy having self-control, and you’re making that extremely difficult for me right now.”
She doesn’t say anything else, and he doesn’t turn to look at her. He doesn’t need to look at her to know what she’s probably thinking, no, definitely thinking. And he’s thinking it, too.
He clears his throat lightly, running a hand through his hair. The same hand that’s still covered in her spit. He can still feel her on his fingers. “Do you like the ER?”
Hyunjin can tell Y/N’s a little taken aback with the sudden conversation change, but after another second, she seems to fully compose herself, blinking a few times as she processes his words, “Yeah. I do. Most of the time, anyway.”
He smiles, closing his eyes, still facing the sun, “That’s an honest answer.”
“Yeah, well, I think people expect me to say I love every second of it. But some days are just awful,” He feels her shift beside him, “I lose people. I think it was worse when I worked mainly in the trauma bay, and it has gotten better now that I’m floating in the unit, but I still lose people. And no matter how many times it happens, how much I try to save them, it never gets easier.”
He turns to look at her, her fingers fiddling with the strings on her bikini bottoms mindlessly as she gazes towards the water in front of them. Something pulls tight at his chest as he listens to her, watches her. He wants to know every piece of her, every part of her life, every version of herself he missed over the last four years. Even the darker ones.
“I think that’s a good thing,” He speaks after a few moments.
She looks over at him, “What is?”
“That it doesn’t get easier,” He places his hand beside him, aimlessly drawing patterns in the sand there, “I think the day it stops affecting you is probably the day you should quit.”
A smile breaks out onto her face, slowly, softly. And suddenly, he understands why people spend entire lives chasing them.
“Yeah. That’s exactly what Kat says.”
The conversation eventually shifts towards him, as he knew it would. She never directly mentions the hiatus, but he hears it, anyway. He hears it in every question, in every moment of concern.
Are you happier now? Do you still enjoy performing? Do you ever get tired?
The answers come easier than expected. Maybe because it’s her and she’s actually listening to him, trying to understand him. It makes him feel vulnerable in a way that he doesn’t entirely hate, especially when she closes the small gap between them to grab ahold of his of hand.
So, he tells her things.
He tells her about the multiple panic attacks he’s had over the years and the crippling anxiety he’s carried with him for what felt like ages before it finally started to get taken seriously. He tells her about how the members had fought and begged for their manager to get him some help and allow him to talk to a professional. He tells her about his recent diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder and the medication he has to take and the shit-ton of therapy sessions he has to attend regularly. He tells her about periods where getting out of bed felt impossible and learning how success doesn’t magically fix loneliness.
The words settle heavy between them, in a way that’s almost unsettling. He can feel the shift in the air, the tension between them, and he suddenly feels embarrassed. Embarrassed, because he’s never admitted this out loud to anyone that wasn’t the members or a healthcare provider. Embarrassed, because with a life as picture perfect as his is, he shouldn’t even be feeling this way. Embarrassed, because it isn’t fair to throw his emotional trauma onto someone who didn’t ask for it to begin with.
“Sorry,” He lets out a short laugh, rubbing his free hand against the side of his face, “I didn’t mean to spring all that onto you.”
“Hyunjin,” She calls his name softly, turning on her side to face him better. She lifts their intertwined hands up towards the side of her face, cuddling it close to her skin as she lays her head down, the other coming up to lightly brush against his hair, “Don’t ever apologize for that. Don’t apologize for talking about your feelings. I want to hear it. I want to hear all of it.”
Her actions and words have his stomach churning in the best way, and he leans into her touch, pulse pounding in his wrist as she smiles at him, “You have such a beautiful soul, Hyunjin. I’m sorry you had to deal with all of that. You don’t deserve any of it. I’m happy you got the help you needed.”
“Yeah,” He whispers, eyes flickering down towards her lips once before focusing back on her eyes. Her eyes that were shining looking at him.
He wishes she’d always look at him this way.
She watches him for a moment, rubbing small circles on his hand. The wind was shifting sand all over them, but neither of them cared. He’d stay here and get buried deep into the sand as long as she still held him this way.
“Did you…” She trails off, eyes flickering all over his face as she struggles with her words, “Did you get in trouble after that night?”
Hyunjin immediately knows what night she’s talking about. One of the best nights of his entire life, where it was just him and her, a messy bed, and lots of things that should’ve been said that couldn’t.
“Yeah,” He turns away from her, glancing up at the sky, swallowing thickly, “I did.”
“Was it bad?” The concern in her voice was evident, and Hyunjin hated that he was making her feel this way.
“He basically told me that if my pretty face wasn’t making the company money, they would’ve gotten rid of me.”
The waves roll softly against the shore, a seagull cries somewhere overhead, and Hyunjin starts to feel himself slipping into a place he doesn’t visit often anymore. Or at least a place he tries not to.
Because the truth is, that conversation never fully left him. Years had passed, his manager had changed his attitude once they became more global, the company had loosened up on them religiously, but sometimes, usually late at night when his anxiety was at its worst, he still heard those words.
Replaceable. Pretty face. Money.
“You know what’s funny?” He laughs softly, but there’s no humor to it, “I had spent years pretending that didn’t bother me. But I think a part of me believed it, anyway.”
His eyes stay fixated on the ocean, “Sometimes I wonder if people would’ve cared about me if I looked different.”
“Hyunjin—“
“No, seriously,” He shakes his head, loosening his grip on her hand without even realizing it. She holds it tighter, “It’s so stupid, but it’s true. I wonder that all the time. More than I should, probably.”
“It’s not stupid, Hyunjin,” She replies quickly, the genuineness in her words causing his heart to clench in his chest, “You shouldn’t… you shouldn’t think that.”
He glances towards her, careful, vulnerable in a way he doesn’t usually allow himself to be, “Can I ask you something?”
“Of course. You can ask me anything.”
He hesitates, for a second. The question feels ridiculous the second it enters his head, but suddenly, he wants to know. Not from fans, not from interviews, not from comments, but from her.
“You told me in the bathroom that I was your bias. Why did you choose me?”
He regrets it as soon as it leaves his mouth, but his insecurities have started to consume him, clawing through his skin, itching for a release. Asking somehow feels more vulnerable than talking about depression, and he wishes he could take it back.
He’s about to apologize, push everything back down like he always does, when her voice stops him.
“You want the honest answer?”
She’s smiling, not at all offended by his sudden question, and he nods hesitantly, not trusting himself to speak.
She shifts on the towel, scooting her body closer to his. She’s completely off the towel now, the warm sand digging into her side. If it was bothering her, she didn’t seem to care, moving their intertwined hands to rest near her chest. He sucks in a breath, and she notices, her smile only growing as she watches him.
“The first thing was your dancing. Obviously,” She admits lightly, her free hand still tracing through his hair, fingertips brushing against the side of his sunglasses, “I remember seeing one of your performances and thinking nobody else moved like you. Then I started paying attention to the group more. And then I heard you rap.”
Hyunjin groans immediately, “Oh no.”
“Nah uh, don’t do that,” She says quickly, narrowing her eyes at him.
“Do what?” His lips quirk.
“That thing where you act surprised that you’re talented.”
Hyunjin laughs at that, and that only seems to make her look even more grumpy than before. “I’m serious! You dance,” She takes her hand away from his face, counting on her fingers, “You rap,” Another finger, “You sing,” Another one.
She holds her fingers up to his face, “See? You’re good at all three.”
Hyunjin opens his mouth to respond, but she cuts him off quickly, “Nope. Don’t even try to deny it. Shove those words right back up your ass, Hyunjin.”
His mouth closes instantly, and she grins triumphantly. She’s so fucking endearing that it has him smiling harder than he ever has on this entire trip so far.
She places her hand back on his face, slowly combing through his hair with her fingers, pushing the loose stands back. The way she was doing it was so careful, so loving, that it made him tremble a little. He melted into her touch, craving more of it, craving more of her, reaching his hands out to softly grab at her waist, pulling her closer to him.
“The thing about you was that you weren’t just good at one thing,” She says once she settles into him, resting her head on his chest, their fingers still intertwined, “You brought something unique, Hyunjin. You made the group better. You’re just as important as everyone else. You matter just as much as everyone else.”
Hyunjin keeps quiet, not really knowing how to respond to that. She says the words with such passion, with such genuineness, that he finds himself actually believing her. It warms his heart in a way that should scare him, but it doesn’t. This, him, her—it just doesn’t.
It feels so right. Everything about this feels so right.
“It wasn’t just talent either, though,” She continues, snuggling deeper into his chest, “You always just seemed so kind.”
“Kind?”
“Yeah,” She giggles softly into his chest, the sound causing his entire body to heat up, “Kind. I watched a lot of interviews, you know? You were always so nice to people. You treated the staff well, always seemed so respectful and elegant with how you carried yourself. And you just cared about people. That’s really what drew me in the most, I’d say.”
Hyunjin blinks, trying to fully process her words. Really, he’s fucking shocked that someone even noticed that much about him, that cared enough to pick up on his character.
She says it so effortlessly, like it should be obvious, but it’s not. Nobody ever says that. People usually talk about his performances, or his sex appeal, or his art, not about how kind he is. She makes it seem like his value was never tied to his face at all, and that realization heals something he didn’t realize was still bruised.
“Do you still keep up with us?” He asks suddenly, “Do you… am I still your bias?”
He feels her body tense up ever so slightly, and the reaction alone gives him his answer. Suddenly, his mouth feels dry, and he feels like an idiot for even asking that to begin with. What is he even looking for, anyway? Validation? Something to make him feel better about himself?
“No,” She says honestly, speaking again before he can back track on his question, “I mean, you guys were a big part in my life once and Stray Kids will always hold a piece of my heart. And of course, you’d always hold a piece of my heart, and I still get all mushy inside and internally freak out a little just being like this with you again. But I haven’t watched a music video or interview or anything in years. Only seen things scrolling on social media every now and then.”
“Oh,” He says lamely, feeling the slightest bit of disappointment at that fact. Okay, not the slightest bit, but very disappointed at that fact, “Can I ask why?”
She didn’t reply right away, choosing instead to roll off of his chest. She wasn’t that far away, and he could still feel her body heat radiating off of her and onto his side, but it was enough to where he could feel the slight breeze from the wind now, and he didn’t like it. He turned to look at her, hands tightening around her waist to prevent her from moving too far away, when her voice made him freeze.
“I guess it hurt too much.”
She wasn’t looking at him. Her gaze was focused on the ocean in front of them, her hands fiddling with the strings on her bikini bottoms, and she looked deep in thought.
“It sounds dramatic, but it’s true,” She laughs softly, looking mildly embarrassed, and Hyunjin hates how quickly the air shifted between them, “I mean, I tried. After that night, I tried to watch music videos and fall back into my fangirl rhythm, but I just couldn’t. I just couldn’t.”
Her face turns towards him, the stars in her eyes beginning to fade, “It’s just… every time I saw you…”
Her sentence falls off. She doesn’t finish it. She doesn’t have to, because he understands, anyway. He understands it perfectly, painfully so.
“I support you guys from a distance, and I’m really happy when good things happen, but I just couldn’t do it anymore.”
“Yeah,” He whispers out, “I get that.”
And he does get it. For four years, he’d assumed he was the only one carrying that night around, not fully being able to let it go. And now, he’s discovering that he was wrong, very wrong.
She smiles, grabbing ahold of his hand to squeeze it, “Come swim with me.”
Hyunjin blinks, “What?”
“Come swim with me,” She stands up, brushing her hands against her skin to knock some of the sand off of her, and Hyunjin feels mesmerized for a second, “I want to swim with you. You wouldn’t let me go alone, would you?”
When he doesn’t reply right away, she reaches her hand out towards him, wiggling her fingers as she grins down at him so prettily. He huffs out a laugh, slowly leaning up to grab her hand to help him stand up beside her. He tries to let go of her hand once he’s on his feet, thinking she might be uncomfortable touching him like that in public, but she only grips it tighter.
“You can hold my hand if you want to,” She says shyly, eyes focused on their intertwined hands.
“I want to,” He replies back quickly, not even caring if it makes him seem desperate. Truth is, he was. He’d let her touch him all day, every day, in whatever way she wants and not even feel ashamed about it.
Not even five minutes later they’re standing waist deep in the water, laughing at how he nearly tripped over a wave and almost face planted into the water. “Yeah, yeah. Hilarious.” He rolls his eyes fondly, unable to stop the smile from leaving his face as he listens to her laughing. She’s so beautiful like this. So fucking beautiful. He’s honestly surprised he isn’t shitting his pants right now from how nervous he is.
“I feel like you’re really clumsy,” She leads them a little further in the water, still holding onto his hand.
“Yeah, that’s what the members like to tell me,” He follows her, a small wave lifting their bodies up quickly before they come back down, “Aish, it’s cold.”
“It’s not that bad—“
Another wave rolls against them, knocking them both underneath the water for a couple seconds. Hyunjin shoots back up, gasping for air, his eyes instantly drawn to where Y/N is currently coughing and choking, pushing her now wet hair out of her eyes.
“Oh my god,” She shivers, “I was not expecting that.”
“Thought you said it wasn’t that bad,” Hyunjin smirks, pushing his wet hair back with his fingers.
She glares at him, “Shut up.”
She lets out a short shriek, the water coming up to the back of their necks, and he tugs her closer towards him, breath hitching in his throat once she wraps her legs around his waist.
“Is this okay?” She asks softly, her eyes trailing all over his face, like she’s trying to gauge his reaction.
“More than okay.” He tightens his grip around her body, pulling her flush against his skin. Even in the slight coolness of the water, he can feel how warm she is, and it’s so fucking addicting.
She trails her hands up from his shoulders to his face, slowly pushing his sunglasses on his head. He squints his eyes, adjusting to the bright light from the sun, his heart thumping loudly against his chest once he realizes how close their faces are to each other.
“There,” She smiles, resting her hands on the back of his neck, “I can see you looking at me now.”
“I really want to kiss you right now.”
The words come out quickly, randomly, and he’s a little embarrassed once he says it. But that feeling is quickly erased once the next words leave her mouth.
“Then kiss me.”
Fuck, he wants to, but he doesn’t know if it’s a good idea. Not right now, at least. He knows himself too well, unfortunately, and fears he might not be able to stop at just one kiss.
Take it slow, He tells himself over and over again. He should take it slow, and stop thinking with his dick. He should be a gentleman, let her take control, go with what she’s comfortable with.
He opens his mouth to voice just that, when her hands suddenly come up to the top of his head, roughly tugging his hair back, exposing his neck to her.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name so sensually that it has his dick instantly thickening in his shorts, unable to stop the low groan from falling out of his mouth. She tightens her legs around his waist, moving her body forward, lightly brushing her lips against his, “Kiss me.”
He’s lunging forward without a second thought, moans falling from both of their mouths as he crashes his lips against hers. Her hands tug harder at his hair, his sunglasses falling into the ocean beside him, but he doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about anything other than this, other than her.
“Fuck, you’re a little tease, you know that? Been driving me crazy all day,” He murmurs through sloppy kisses, groaning loudly into her mouth once she rolls her hips against his dick. He bites at her bottom lip, tasting the saltiness there, and she whimpers softly. “But you know that, don’t you? You know you drive me crazy. Acting so innocent and sweet when I know all you want is to get down on your knees for me.”
She moans loudly, kissing him harder, moving her hips even faster against him. His hands snake around her body to harshly grab onto her ass, urging her to fuck against him as he fucks her mouth with his tongue.
He pulls away and she whines in protest, chasing his lips, tugging his face back towards her. He doesn’t let her, one hand coming up to grab at her neck, the other creeping down to lightly brush against her bikini bottoms. “Isn’t that what you want? To get on your knees and put my cock in your mouth?”
“Mhm, yes,” She mumbles against him, rutting against his dick like she was in fucking heat, “Wanna suck your cock so bad, Hyunnie. Want you to fuck my mouth like you’d fuck my pussy.”
Oh, fuck.
Her words and the fucking nickname have him feeling feral, and he’s slipping his hand underneath her bottoms, instantly sliding his fingers inside her. They go in with ease, and she’s gasping into his mouth as he fucks two fingers inside her.
“Gonna make you cum for me first,” He breathes against her mouth, curling his fingers inside her. She lets out a choked moan, her head falling back, riding his hand just like she’d ride his cock. The thought of her bouncing on his cock and begging for him to make her cum plays through his mind, and he’s increasing the pace of his fingers, leaning his face down to bite and suck on the side of her neck.
“Hyunjin,” She moans his name so loudly, the sound playing through his ears like a mantra, “S-shit, Hyunjin… feels so good… you’re gonna make me cum.”
He bites harder, licking up the drops of water off her neck, the salty taste driving him fucking insane. He slips his fingers out from inside her, rubbing hard and fast against her clit, and she’s arching into him with a loud cry of his name.
“Fuck, Hyunjin! Yes, yes, fuck.”
The waves are still rocking against them, she’s still babbling out incoherent words into the warm air around them, and he rubs against her faster, biting onto her neck harder. And then she’s coming all over his fingers, spazzing out against his body, clinging onto him like she’s about to fall underneath the water.
“Jalhaesseo,” (You did well) Hyunjin says lowly, softly kissing the large bruise he sucked and bit onto her skin before trailing his lips up towards her face. She was panting, eyes closed, and he grabbed ahold of her face, forcing her head to tilt towards his.
“Look at me, jagiya,” He squeezed her cheeks lightly, and she lets out a whine, slowly setting her gaze on him. Her eyes were glazed over and her cheeks were flushed, and she looked so fucking beautiful.
And right now, treading water along the Italian coast, she was his.
“Get out.”
She stares at him for a second, blissed the fuck out, her lips parting, “Wh-what?”
“You want my cock down your throat, don’t you?”
The look on her face has his dick leaking into his shorts. She looks confused and submissive as fuck, and the sight has his brain running with thoughts that he’d never even think of in the first place.
Hyunjin doesn’t normally act like this when it comes to sex. He’s always been attentive, careful, and very vocal in bed, but never has he acted like this. He noticed it when he fucked her for the first time four years ago, and he’s noticing it again now. She brings out a different side of him he always knew existed and tried to tame, yet never fully came out.
And fuck, he loves it. And judging by how she’s still looking at him, eyes wide and panting like a dog, he knows she loves it, too.
“Don’t you?” He’s asking again, voice dropping an octave as he brings her face closer to his. She leans in to kiss him, but he holds her face back, a loud whine falling from her lips, “Y-yes. Please, Hyunnie.”
“Please what?”
Beg. Please beg. Honestly, he wants nothing more.
“Please let me suck your big cock. I’ve wanted to for so long, I’ve thought about it for years. I want it hitting the back of my throat, want to taste you so bad. Use me, please, Hyunnie. Want you so much.”
Hyunjin growls, feeling like he’s about to cum in his shorts, because holy fuck, that was so hot. “Then stop stalling and get out of the fucking water, yeah?” He lightly shoves her away from him. She stumbles a little, and Hyunjin feels bad for about half a second before she basically sprints back onto the sand, her ass jiggling with each hurried step forward. She’s eager, just like he is, and he fucking loves it.
By the time he gets out of the water, she’s already down on her knees in the sand, toying with the loose string of her bottoms, waiting so patiently for him. He suppresses a groan just looking at her, his dick pathetically straining against his shorts, slowly sinking down to sit on the towel that was still laid out on the sand. He leans back on his elbows, manspreading, beckoning her forward with a jerk of his head, “Come here.”
She starts to get up, sitting a few feet away from him, and he stops her with a click of his tongue, “Nah uh. Crawl to me.”
Before he can fully blink, she’s already digging her knees back into the sand, on all fours, crawling over towards him with a look so sensual it has him reaching down with his right hand to rub at his dick to attempt to relieve some pressure.
“Ssibal, jonna hathane,” (Fuck, that’s hot), He whispers more to himself than anything, groaning loudly once she reaches him, placing her hands on his legs, eyes focusing on where he’s currently still rubbing at his cock like a fucking teenager.
“Take my cock out,” He says lowly once he forces himself to stop. She wastes no time in doing just that, hands sliding up towards the waistband of his swim shorts, instantly jerking them down just enough to get his cock out.
He groans lowly once it finally springs free, one of her hands coming up to wrap around the base of his cock, the other sliding up his abdomen. “Wanna make me feel good, jagiya?” He reaches out to push her hair away from her face before gripping it tightly in his hands, jerking her head towards his cock.
She moans softly, grip tightening on his cock, her breath fanning against the tip of it. She licks her lips, and he groans loudly at the warm feeling of her tongue brushing against him at the action. He’d be lying if he said he hasn’t thought about this before. Okay, maybe more than once, when he’s alone in a hotel bed and feeling extra horny. But now that she’s actually here, knees dug into the sand, ass perched high in the air, looking at him like he’s her fucking world, he can’t go back.
Not that he’d ever want to, anyway.
“Answer me,” He jerks her head back, a bit of drool sitting in the corner of her pretty mouth, “Do you want to make me feel good? Want to gag around my cock until I cum all down your throat? Want me to claim you as mine?”
“Yes,” She pants, on the verge of tears, “Want your cock so bad, Hyunnie. I’ll make you feel so good, let you use my mouth however you want. Please let me have it. Please, please, please.”
He jerks her head back down, her lips brushing against him, “Open your mouth, and make me cum.”
She takes him with a loud moan, her tongue gliding against him so perfectly. She’s bobbing her head up and down, hand jerking him where her mouth doesn’t reach, drooling and slobbering all over him like he’s her last meal.
Hyunjin’s had his fair share of blow jobs. They were always messy, quick, and usually resulted in him still feeling unsatisfied afterwards. Maybe half of that was because he didn’t ever feel a romantic connection with those women, but whatever the reason, here—this, with Y/N going at it like they’re filming a porn tape, is everything.
She is everything. And right now, she’s still his.
“Yeah, jagiya. Just like that,” He breathes out, using his hand to guide her on his dick, leaned back on one elbow as he watches her swallow him like a pro, “Mhm, fuck. Your mouth feels so good wrapped around me. Fuck, how many dicks have you sucked?”
Hyunjin doesn’t know why he asks that. But with the way she’s sucking him, shaking her ass in the air, moaning and watching him with that same look as she takes his dick down her throat so effortlessly, there’s no way this is her first time.
The thought of other men sticking their cocks down her throat has him seeing red, and he’s leaning back, using both hands to grip at the back of her head, his abs tightening as he leans up, “Don’t answer that. It doesn’t matter, anyway, because my cock is gonna be the only one you remember after today.”
And then he’s slamming her head down onto him, her nose brushing against his pelvis with each push down. She’s choking, sputtering, moaning with every hard jerk down, and the sound is like heaven in his ears.
“Fucking hell,” He whines out, feeling his balls drawing up tight with each gag around his cock, “Mhm, yeah. Your mouth is perfect, jagiya. So perfect. You look so beautiful choking around my cock. You choke like this on anyone else’s? Hm? Were they big enough to make you cry and gag like I do?”
She’s moaning again, the sound shooting straight up his dick. He closes his eyes briefly, willing himself to get it the fuck together, because he does not want to cum yet. He wants to engrave this image into his mind forever, wants to have her like this every single day for the rest of his life, wants to claim her, mark her, show the world that she’s his and only his.
He opens his eyes again, choking out a moan once he sees her other hand moving fast in between her legs. Another closer look, and he’s realizing that she’s rubbing herself through her bikini bottoms, her fingers working quick and hard against the flimsy fabric.
“Holy fuck,” He groans out, his eyes now completely focused on how she’s fucking herself in front of him, getting herself off from getting him off, “F-fuck. Are you actually touching yourself right now?”
She moans around his dick, moving her hand even faster against her pussy, and Hyunjin feels dizzy, “God, that’s so hot. Fuck. Does sucking me off get you all hot and bothered, jagiya? One orgasm wasn’t enough for you?”
She’s rutting against her hand now, tears streaming down her face as he works her mouth on his cock. “Such a greedy little slut for me, jagiya. You just had to get yourself off right now. Couldn’t even wait until I came down your throat, huh?”
She cries against him, hips moving desperately, her fingers working even faster, swallowing him even harder, and he lets out a growl, feeling his vision start to blur as that warm feeling starts to shoot down his spine. “Fuck, Y/N. I’m gonna cum, I’m gonna cum, cum with me, fuck.”
She spazzes out, gaging around his cock with a loud cry, and his vision is turning white as he throws his head back, holding her head in place as he thrusts into her mouth, shooting his load all down her throat.
“Mhm, yeah, fuck,” He babbles out curses and moans and praises as he slowly thrusts his hips into her, working out his orgasm. His body feels like jelly, his heart feels full, and his dick is spent.
Ho-ly shit.
The sound of her choking out another sob brings him out of his post-orgasmic haze, and he’s jerking her head off his now softening dick, a trail of spit dripping down her chin and onto his thighs. She gasps once her mouth is finally free, and he’s instantly grabbing her arms to pull her up towards him.
“Shit, I’m sorry,” He breathes out, wiping at her mouth with the back of his hand. She looks absolutely wrecked, and he feels a sense of pride swelling in his chest that he was the one who made her look this way, “Are you okay?”
She coughs once, wiping at the tears semi-dried on her cheeks, “I’ve never been better.”
She smiles at him, the stars twinkling brighter in her eyes, and he pulls her to lay on top of him, kissing the top of her head. She snuggles into him, her skin warm, and he feels complete.
Was this a bad idea? Probably. Did he think about the potential consequences of whipping his dick out in public? Nope. But Hyunjin realizes quickly that right here, with her lying on his chest and sand bunched up his ass, he doesn’t care. Not at all.
“Me too,” He whispers softly before capturing her lips in his.
— SUMMARY. In which Y/N wasn’t expecting to hook-up with her bias, and Hyunjin wasn’t expecting to fall in love with her
— GENRE. idol!hyunjin, strangers-to-lovers au
— PAIRING. hwang hyunjin x fem!reader
— WC. 8.6k+
— WARNINGS/OTHER. cursing ; some korean dialogue ; mentions of depression & anxiety ; mentions of toxicity of idol life ; possessive!hyunjin ; sexual tension ; smut consisting of: dry humping, fingering, f!masturbation, oral (m!receiving), deep-throating, sexual acts in a public area, lots of dirty talk
ᝰ EIGHT | SERIES M.LIST
Hanaemi 花笑み (Japanese) — “the flowering smile” or “the smile of flowers” in old Japanese. It is a smile that is as beautiful as blooming flowers
Hyunjin thinks he could spend the rest of his life chasing days like this. That thought arrives unexpectedly.
It’s not dramatic, necessarily, but more so of the kind of thought that sneaks up on you when you’re sitting on a private beach somewhere along the Italian coast watching sunlight dance across the water while the woman you’ve spent four years trying to forget laughs beside you.
The beach itself is hidden away from the main coastline. One of his friends owns property nearby and arranged access to a section that’s practically impossible for tourists to reach. There’s no public entrance, no paparazzi, no strangers—it’s just them.
And it feels so good.
Hyunjin has come to know exactly when Y/N starts getting nervous, because he’s spent most of the past twenty-four hours paying attention to her. He noticed it when him and his driver picked her up earlier this morning in a completely blacked out SUV, glancing around in slight paranoia as she all but rushed to climb into the backseat. He noticed it when she sat down beside him, her eyes flickering everywhere but at him at first. And he noticed it when they got out of the car, together, as she pulled her sun hat down to cover her face, making sure to keep her distance as they headed towards the sand.
He would be lying if he said it didn’t make him feel like shit, but he gets it. He had spent most of his idol life doing the same thing, and still finds himself doing that now, especially when he’s back home in Seoul. Being seen with him causes for a recipe of disaster, and it’s a lot, so he gets it.
She shouldn’t have to think about things like that. Nobody should, but especially not her.
But just like he can tell when she’s nervous, he can also tell when she’s comfortable. And really, he’s just relieved that he can make her feel that way.
They talked the entire ride here. The entire two hours. There was no awkward pauses, no uncomfortable silences, no painfully searching for topics of conversation. It was easy, it was effortless, and it was natural in a way that almost surprises him.
They talked about New York, about her work, about Italy, about how Chan and Kat somehow remain incapable of minding their own business. She told him about horror stories in the ER, (her words, not his), and he told her about the time Felix almost burned the dorm down a week after they debuted.
Stories turned into memories, which then turned into little details about the last four years. And sometime during the drive, Hyunjin realized something that caught him completely off guard.
He didn’t feel any kind of pressure around her, not the pressure that constantly seems to weigh heavy on his chest he ends up carrying everywhere else. Here, with her, there’s no performance, no expectation, no version of himself he has to maintain.
The realization is so rare it almost hurts.
They’ve been lying on the beach for about two hours now, stretched out on towels in the warm sand. The early afternoon sun is warming everything around them, the ocean stretching endlessly ahead. He glances over towards where Y/N is lying, peering at her through his sunglasses, and Hyunjin realizes very quickly that he has a slight problem, because she won’t stop being so beautiful.
As soon as she walked out the front doors of her hotel this morning, he knew he was a goner. She was wearing a flowy white dress that hug her body so perfectly and fell off her shoulders so elegantly that it instantly had him questioning his existence. He could see the straps from the bikini on her shoulders and could make out the outline of her body underneath it, and once she sat down beside him in the backseat, he had to say a quick prayer that he wouldn’t get a hard-on just from her presence alone.
The image has been haunting him for what felt like hours. The way the fabric moved in the breeze once they stepped back out of the car, the sunlight catching in her hair, the easy smile she’d gave him when she kicked her sandals off in the sand and slipped her dress over her head—it all was making him feel crazy. At one point, he’d genuinely forgotten how to speak, which she found hilarious, unfortunately.
Now, she’s lying beside him in a bikini that hides little to the imagination and his situation has become worse. Significantly worse.
She’s talking about something, he thinks. Her mouth is moving, her hands lightly tracing circles on her bare stomach, her gaze focused on the sky in the front of them, and Hyunjin is drawn into every single movement she’s currently making. Except everything she’s saying right now is currently going through one ear and right out the other, along with his sanity.
Honestly, he’s trying. He really is. But the problem is that her bikini is barely hiding anything on her body. It’s tight and revealing in all the right places and Hyunjin can’t seem to focus on anything else but how slick and plush her skin looks from her sweat and the tanning oil she rubbed on herself earlier and how he really wants to lean over and bite at the belly button ring that’s shining in the sun. She didn’t have that before, and he thinks it might be one of the hottest things he’s seen on a woman yet. Or maybe it’s because it’s on her.
Really, he should be ashamed of himself. He’s a twenty-six year old man, yet he’s acting like he’s a teenager.
He closes his eyes briefly, willing himself to get it the fuck together. Really, it’s all fine. As long as she doesn’t turn to lay on her stomach or stand up and stick her ass in his face, he’ll be good. He can deal with this.
It’s almost like she just knows what he’s thinking, as she ends up shifting her body on the towel beneath her, slowly turning her body around so she can lay on her stomach.
A strangled noise escapes his mouth before he can help it, and she’s turning her head to glance over at him, a slightly confused expression on her face, “Are you okay?”
“Yes,” He strains out, eyes zeroed in on how plump her ass looks. The bikini bottoms she’s wearing barely cover it, and he’s thankful his sunglasses are hiding his eyes, “Sorry.”
Her lips quirk as she pulls her own sunglasses down on the bridge of her nose, tilting her head down to stare at him, “Are you sure? You look uncomfortable.”
She’s teasing him, he knows it. And it’s not making things better.
He huffs out a short laugh, turning to lay on his stomach so he can attempt to hide his growing erection, “I’m not uncomfortable. I’m perfectly fine.”
Her smile grows, and lets out a little hum before pushing her sunglasses back up, “Whatever you say.”
Her words have his face heating up, and he shifts a little on the towel, discreetly trying to adjust himself in his swim trunks. God, this is embarrassing. Why is he so fucking embarrassing?
“You stopped listening to me earlier, you know?”
Hyunjin blinks, trying to reset his brain. She’s still staring at him, amused, knowing, and he knows theres no way he can deny it.
“Damn it.”
Her grin widens, “I knew it. Knew you weren’t listening to me for the past ten minutes.”
“For the record, I was listening. Somewhat.”
“You absolutely were not.”
“I got most of it.”
“You got none of it.”
Hyunjin sighs dramatically, accepting his defeat, and she laughs loudly, head tilting back. The sound carries across the empty stretch of the beach, bright and warm and dangerous, because he loves hearing it, more than he probably should.
“You were staring. It’s okay to admit it.”
Hyunjin drops his head back onto the towel, “Maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“Yeah, maybe.”
She shakes her head in amusement, “You’re impossible, you know that?”
The breeze lifts her hair, the sunlight catches her smile, and unfortunately, he’s distracted again. She notices immediately.
“See? There you go again.”
“What?” He replies, acting like he doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
“That.”
She’s smiling differently now, and his stomach flips. It’s the same smile she gave him in his hotel room, the same one that suggested she knew exactly what effect she was having on him.
Dangerous woman.
“So what were you looking at? I feel like I have a right to know.” She rests her face on the palm of her hands, propping up on her elbows as she stares at him.
“I’m not answering that.”
Her eyebrows raise, “You absolutely have to answer that.”
“I really don’t.” He faintly smirks, responding to her in the same teasing tone she was using with him.
“But you do,” She shifts closer slightly, and it’s enough to have his breath hitching in his throat. He watches her carefully, one of her hands reaching out to lightly graze her fingertips against his arm, and he feels the spark instantly, “Hyunjin.”
He shifts again on the towel beneath him, clearing his throat lightly, discreetly moving his arm closer to her so that she’d touch him more, “What?”
“What were you looking at?”
He stares at her for a second, trying to decide if he should tell the truth or not. But unfortunately, he’s never been particularly good at lying to her.
“I was looking at you,” He admits lowly, tilting his head to look at her better. Her fingers are still grazing against his arm, a small hum falling from her lips as she starts to rub small circles on his skin.
“That’s not very specific,” She grins.
Hyunjin lets out a laugh and runs a hand through his hair before propping his face back up, turning to face her. The sunlight is warm against his skin, the ocean rolling quietly behind them, and he realizes he’s exhausted from trying to pretend like he wasn’t staring at her all day.
He shifts his body to lay on his side, propping his head up on his arm, “You really want me to be specific, Y/N?”
She mirrors his position, and he’s eagerly dropping his gaze down, watching at her breasts bounce ever so slightly from the movement. He has to force himself to not lean over, rip that flimsy fabric off, and take her nipples into his mouth.
“I really wanna know, Hyunjin.”
He bites his lip softly, eyes still drawn towards her perky breasts, before he lifts his gaze back to her face. And then everything he’s been trying not to say all day starts coming out.
“I’ve been staring at you because every time I look over here, you somehow look prettier than you did five minutes ago.”
Her grin softens, and he suddenly becomes overwhelmed with her. Everything about her.
“The sunlight keeps hitting your hair, making it look lighter than normal. Now that I think about it, I can make out a few blonde streaks, and I think it makes you look so pretty,” A small smile tugs at his mouth, and he fights the urge to reach out and rub his fingers through her hair, “The wind keeps messing it up. There’s a bunch of curls just flying in the wind, and it looks messy, and you keep trying to fix it, but I like it this way. I like seeing you like this in front of me.”
Y/N’s still watching him, still listening, and his pulse picks up. Because now that’s he’s started talking, it’s becoming impossible for him to stop.
“You look at me like you’re trying not to smile, like you know exactly what you’re doing to me.”
The breeze shifts around them, carrying saltwater through the air. Y/N’s hair falls against her face, messy and tangled, but she doesn’t move it away. Hyunjin smiles when he notices that. He’d sketch her right now if he could.
Beautiful. She’s so beautiful.
“Every time I catch you staring at me back, you get embarrassed for about three seconds before pretending you weren’t staring.”
Y/N groans, “I do not!”
“Yes, you do.”
“I don’t!”
“Y/N.”
The use of her name makes her immediately look away, which proves his point completely. A smug grins spreads across his face, “See what I mean?”
She covers part of her face with one hand, looking completely mortified and dangerously cute. So dangerously cute that it has him wanting to hold her face in his own hands as he devours her on this hot sand.
“I’ve been trying very hard not to think about how beautiful you look lying beside me all day.” He says lowly, carefully.
Y/N’s hand slowly drops from her face, and she turns to look at him. Her sunglasses are still on, and he wishes she’d take them off so he could see her pretty eyes shining for him. Not even a second passes before he’s reaching over, slowly taking them off before placing them in the sand beside them. He’s hears her breath hitch in her throat, and he’s lightly tracing the side of her face before he can think anything of it.
“Much better,” He mumbles out, tucking a stray piece of her hair behind her ear. Her eyes are wide, a little glazed over, but at least she’s looking at him now, “I want to see you looking at me. Always want you looking at me.”
The confession causes her lips to part, her chest rapidly rising and falling with each breath. His eyes flicker over to her lips before he can stop himself, and slowly, he begins to move his hand across her cheek before stopping at her mouth. She parts her lips even more, giving room for his thumb to lightly slip inside. He traces her bottom teeth with his thumb before slipping it inside her mouth fully. A low groan vibrates from his chest once she sucks on it eagerly, twirling and sucking her tongue all around his thumb, just like she’d do with his cock. His cock that is now painfully straining against his swim trunks.
“I’ve been thinking about this mouth, too,” He breathes out lowly, pushing his thumb in deeper. She takes it with a low moan, and the sound goes straight to his dick, “Been thinking about how it would look wrapped around my cock. Think you could take me in your mouth, jagiya?”
She nods her head, eager, eyes watering slightly once she softly gags as he pushes his thumb further into the back of her throat. He hums lowly, tilting his head to the side, “If you’re choking on my thumb now, I can’t even imagine how you’d take my cock in the back of your throat. But if that’s what you want, I’ll give it to you. You know I’ll give you anything you want from me.”
She moans again just as he pulls his thumb back to stick in two of his fingers. She takes them with no hesitation and stars in her eyes, and the sight has him leaking into his shorts.
“Yeah,” He grins once she gags around his fingers, spit dripping down her chin, eyes still wide open and on the brink of tears, “You’d take it so well. You’d be a good girl for me, wouldn’t you? Such a good girl for me.”
He pulls his fingers out, and she lets out a choked gasp, spit dripping all down her face. She’s looking at him differently now, in a way that has him wanting to drop every last ounce of self restraint and take her right here right now without caring who saw them. The place was deserted right now, anyway, and he doubts anyone would even see him, but just the thought of claiming her in front of other people has him feeling fucking feral.
It wasn’t until she called his name, her voice a little breathless and raspy, that he had seemed to knock out of the trance he was in. He shakes his head, turning to lay on his back, desperately trying to recover. If he keeps talking, he’s going to end up doing something he shouldn’t.
And judging by the way she’s looking at him right now, she might just let him, which is somehow worse.
“That’s why I wasn’t listening,” He speaks lowly, casually, trying to act like the boner he’s sporting in his shorts isn’t phasing him one bit, “Hopefully that answers your question. Now, let’s talk about something else.”
A laugh escapes her, breathless and beautiful, and it does nothing to lessen the tent in his shorts, “What… why?”
“Because I enjoy having self-control, and you’re making that extremely difficult for me right now.”
She doesn’t say anything else, and he doesn’t turn to look at her. He doesn’t need to look at her to know what she’s probably thinking, no, definitely thinking. And he’s thinking it, too.
He clears his throat lightly, running a hand through his hair. The same hand that’s still covered in her spit. He can still feel her on his fingers. “Do you like the ER?”
Hyunjin can tell Y/N’s a little taken aback with the sudden conversation change, but after another second, she seems to fully compose herself, blinking a few times as she processes his words, “Yeah. I do. Most of the time, anyway.”
He smiles, closing his eyes, still facing the sun, “That’s an honest answer.”
“Yeah, well, I think people expect me to say I love every second of it. But some days are just awful,” He feels her shift beside him, “I lose people. I think it was worse when I worked mainly in the trauma bay, and it has gotten better now that I’m floating in the unit, but I still lose people. And no matter how many times it happens, how much I try to save them, it never gets easier.”
He turns to look at her, her fingers fiddling with the strings on her bikini bottoms mindlessly as she gazes towards the water in front of them. Something pulls tight at his chest as he listens to her, watches her. He wants to know every piece of her, every part of her life, every version of herself he missed over the last four years. Even the darker ones.
“I think that’s a good thing,” He speaks after a few moments.
She looks over at him, “What is?”
“That it doesn’t get easier,” He places his hand beside him, aimlessly drawing patterns in the sand there, “I think the day it stops affecting you is probably the day you should quit.”
A smile breaks out onto her face, slowly, softly. And suddenly, he understands why people spend entire lives chasing them.
“Yeah. That’s exactly what Kat says.”
The conversation eventually shifts towards him, as he knew it would. She never directly mentions the hiatus, but he hears it, anyway. He hears it in every question, in every moment of concern.
Are you happier now? Do you still enjoy performing? Do you ever get tired?
The answers come easier than expected. Maybe because it’s her and she’s actually listening to him, trying to understand him. It makes him feel vulnerable in a way that he doesn’t entirely hate, especially when she closes the small gap between them to grab ahold of his of hand.
So, he tells her things.
He tells her about the multiple panic attacks he’s had over the years and the crippling anxiety he’s carried with him for what felt like ages before it finally started to get taken seriously. He tells her about how the members had fought and begged for their manager to get him some help and allow him to talk to a professional. He tells her about his recent diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder and the medication he has to take and the shit-ton of therapy sessions he has to attend regularly. He tells her about periods where getting out of bed felt impossible and learning how success doesn’t magically fix loneliness.
The words settle heavy between them, in a way that’s almost unsettling. He can feel the shift in the air, the tension between them, and he suddenly feels embarrassed. Embarrassed, because he’s never admitted this out loud to anyone that wasn’t the members or a healthcare provider. Embarrassed, because with a life as picture perfect as his is, he shouldn’t even be feeling this way. Embarrassed, because it isn’t fair to throw his emotional trauma onto someone who didn’t ask for it to begin with.
“Sorry,” He lets out a short laugh, rubbing his free hand against the side of his face, “I didn’t mean to spring all that onto you.”
“Hyunjin,” She calls his name softly, turning on her side to face him better. She lifts their intertwined hands up towards the side of her face, cuddling it close to her skin as she lays her head down, the other coming up to lightly brush against his hair, “Don’t ever apologize for that. Don’t apologize for talking about your feelings. I want to hear it. I want to hear all of it.”
Her actions and words have his stomach churning in the best way, and he leans into her touch, pulse pounding in his wrist as she smiles at him, “You have such a beautiful soul, Hyunjin. I’m sorry you had to deal with all of that. You don’t deserve any of it. I’m happy you got the help you needed.”
“Yeah,” He whispers, eyes flickering down towards her lips once before focusing back on her eyes. Her eyes that were shining looking at him.
He wishes she’d always look at him this way.
She watches him for a moment, rubbing small circles on his hand. The wind was shifting sand all over them, but neither of them cared. He’d stay here and get buried deep into the sand as long as she still held him this way.
“Did you…” She trails off, eyes flickering all over his face as she struggles with her words, “Did you get in trouble after that night?”
Hyunjin immediately knows what night she’s talking about. One of the best nights of his entire life, where it was just him and her, a messy bed, and lots of things that should’ve been said that couldn’t.
“Yeah,” He turns away from her, glancing up at the sky, swallowing thickly, “I did.”
“Was it bad?” The concern in her voice was evident, and Hyunjin hated that he was making her feel this way.
“He basically told me that if my pretty face wasn’t making the company money, they would’ve gotten rid of me.”
The waves roll softly against the shore, a seagull cries somewhere overhead, and Hyunjin starts to feel himself slipping into a place he doesn’t visit often anymore. Or at least a place he tries not to.
Because the truth is, that conversation never fully left him. Years had passed, his manager had changed his attitude once they became more global, the company had loosened up on them religiously, but sometimes, usually late at night when his anxiety was at its worst, he still heard those words.
Replaceable. Pretty face. Money.
“You know what’s funny?” He laughs softly, but there’s no humor to it, “I had spent years pretending that didn’t bother me. But I think a part of me believed it, anyway.”
His eyes stay fixated on the ocean, “Sometimes I wonder if people would’ve cared about me if I looked different.”
“Hyunjin—“
“No, seriously,” He shakes his head, loosening his grip on her hand without even realizing it. She holds it tighter, “It’s so stupid, but it’s true. I wonder that all the time. More than I should, probably.”
“It’s not stupid, Hyunjin,” She replies quickly, the genuineness in her words causing his heart to clench in his chest, “You shouldn’t… you shouldn’t think that.”
He glances towards her, careful, vulnerable in a way he doesn’t usually allow himself to be, “Can I ask you something?”
“Of course. You can ask me anything.”
He hesitates, for a second. The question feels ridiculous the second it enters his head, but suddenly, he wants to know. Not from fans, not from interviews, not from comments, but from her.
“You told me in the bathroom that I was your bias. Why did you choose me?”
He regrets it as soon as it leaves his mouth, but his insecurities have started to consume him, clawing through his skin, itching for a release. Asking somehow feels more vulnerable than talking about depression, and he wishes he could take it back.
He’s about to apologize, push everything back down like he always does, when her voice stops him.
“You want the honest answer?”
She’s smiling, not at all offended by his sudden question, and he nods hesitantly, not trusting himself to speak.
She shifts on the towel, scooting her body closer to his. She’s completely off the towel now, the warm sand digging into her side. If it was bothering her, she didn’t seem to care, moving their intertwined hands to rest near her chest. He sucks in a breath, and she notices, her smile only growing as she watches him.
“The first thing was your dancing. Obviously,” She admits lightly, her free hand still tracing through his hair, fingertips brushing against the side of his sunglasses, “I remember seeing one of your performances and thinking nobody else moved like you. Then I started paying attention to the group more. And then I heard you rap.”
Hyunjin groans immediately, “Oh no.”
“Nah uh, don’t do that,” She says quickly, narrowing her eyes at him.
“Do what?” His lips quirk.
“That thing where you act surprised that you’re talented.”
Hyunjin laughs at that, and that only seems to make her look even more grumpy than before. “I’m serious! You dance,” She takes her hand away from his face, counting on her fingers, “You rap,” Another finger, “You sing,” Another one.
She holds her fingers up to his face, “See? You’re good at all three.”
Hyunjin opens his mouth to respond, but she cuts him off quickly, “Nope. Don’t even try to deny it. Shove those words right back up your ass, Hyunjin.”
His mouth closes instantly, and she grins triumphantly. She’s so fucking endearing that it has him smiling harder than he ever has on this entire trip so far.
She places her hand back on his face, slowly combing through his hair with her fingers, pushing the loose stands back. The way she was doing it was so careful, so loving, that it made him tremble a little. He melted into her touch, craving more of it, craving more of her, reaching his hands out to softly grab at her waist, pulling her closer to him.
“The thing about you was that you weren’t just good at one thing,” She says once she settles into him, resting her head on his chest, their fingers still intertwined, “You brought something unique, Hyunjin. You made the group better. You’re just as important as everyone else. You matter just as much as everyone else.”
Hyunjin keeps quiet, not really knowing how to respond to that. She says the words with such passion, with such genuineness, that he finds himself actually believing her. It warms his heart in a way that should scare him, but it doesn’t. This, him, her—it just doesn’t.
It feels so right. Everything about this feels so right.
“It wasn’t just talent either, though,” She continues, snuggling deeper into his chest, “You always just seemed so kind.”
“Kind?”
“Yeah,” She giggles softly into his chest, the sound causing his entire body to heat up, “Kind. I watched a lot of interviews, you know? You were always so nice to people. You treated the staff well, always seemed so respectful and elegant with how you carried yourself. And you just cared about people. That’s really what drew me in the most, I’d say.”
Hyunjin blinks, trying to fully process her words. Really, he’s fucking shocked that someone even noticed that much about him, that cared enough to pick up on his character.
She says it so effortlessly, like it should be obvious, but it’s not. Nobody ever says that. People usually talk about his performances, or his sex appeal, or his art, not about how kind he is. She makes it seem like his value was never tied to his face at all, and that realization heals something he didn’t realize was still bruised.
“Do you still keep up with us?” He asks suddenly, “Do you… am I still your bias?”
He feels her body tense up ever so slightly, and the reaction alone gives him his answer. Suddenly, his mouth feels dry, and he feels like an idiot for even asking that to begin with. What is he even looking for, anyway? Validation? Something to make him feel better about himself?
“No,” She says honestly, speaking again before he can back track on his question, “I mean, you guys were a big part in my life once and Stray Kids will always hold a piece of my heart. And of course, you’d always hold a piece of my heart, and I still get all mushy inside and internally freak out a little just being like this with you again. But I haven’t watched a music video or interview or anything in years. Only seen things scrolling on social media every now and then.”
“Oh,” He says lamely, feeling the slightest bit of disappointment at that fact. Okay, not the slightest bit, but very disappointed at that fact, “Can I ask why?”
She didn’t reply right away, choosing instead to roll off of his chest. She wasn’t that far away, and he could still feel her body heat radiating off of her and onto his side, but it was enough to where he could feel the slight breeze from the wind now, and he didn’t like it. He turned to look at her, hands tightening around her waist to prevent her from moving too far away, when her voice made him freeze.
“I guess it hurt too much.”
She wasn’t looking at him. Her gaze was focused on the ocean in front of them, her hands fiddling with the strings on her bikini bottoms, and she looked deep in thought.
“It sounds dramatic, but it’s true,” She laughs softly, looking mildly embarrassed, and Hyunjin hates how quickly the air shifted between them, “I mean, I tried. After that night, I tried to watch music videos and fall back into my fangirl rhythm, but I just couldn’t. I just couldn’t.”
Her face turns towards him, the stars in her eyes beginning to fade, “It’s just… every time I saw you…”
Her sentence falls off. She doesn’t finish it. She doesn’t have to, because he understands, anyway. He understands it perfectly, painfully so.
“I support you guys from a distance, and I’m really happy when good things happen, but I just couldn’t do it anymore.”
“Yeah,” He whispers out, “I get that.”
And he does get it. For four years, he’d assumed he was the only one carrying that night around, not fully being able to let it go. And now, he’s discovering that he was wrong, very wrong.
She smiles, grabbing ahold of his hand to squeeze it, “Come swim with me.”
Hyunjin blinks, “What?”
“Come swim with me,” She stands up, brushing her hands against her skin to knock some of the sand off of her, and Hyunjin feels mesmerized for a second, “I want to swim with you. You wouldn’t let me go alone, would you?”
When he doesn’t reply right away, she reaches her hand out towards him, wiggling her fingers as she grins down at him so prettily. He huffs out a laugh, slowly leaning up to grab her hand to help him stand up beside her. He tries to let go of her hand once he’s on his feet, thinking she might be uncomfortable touching him like that in public, but she only grips it tighter.
“You can hold my hand if you want to,” She says shyly, eyes focused on their intertwined hands.
“I want to,” He replies back quickly, not even caring if it makes him seem desperate. Truth is, he was. He’d let her touch him all day, every day, in whatever way she wants and not even feel ashamed about it.
Not even five minutes later they’re standing waist deep in the water, laughing at how he nearly tripped over a wave and almost face planted into the water. “Yeah, yeah. Hilarious.” He rolls his eyes fondly, unable to stop the smile from leaving his face as he listens to her laughing. She’s so beautiful like this. So fucking beautiful. He’s honestly surprised he isn’t shitting his pants right now from how nervous he is.
“I feel like you’re really clumsy,” She leads them a little further in the water, still holding onto his hand.
“Yeah, that’s what the members like to tell me,” He follows her, a small wave lifting their bodies up quickly before they come back down, “Aish, it’s cold.”
“It’s not that bad—“
Another wave rolls against them, knocking them both underneath the water for a couple seconds. Hyunjin shoots back up, gasping for air, his eyes instantly drawn to where Y/N is currently coughing and choking, pushing her now wet hair out of her eyes.
“Oh my god,” She shivers, “I was not expecting that.”
“Thought you said it wasn’t that bad,” Hyunjin smirks, pushing his wet hair back with his fingers.
She glares at him, “Shut up.”
She lets out a short shriek, the water coming up to the back of their necks, and he tugs her closer towards him, breath hitching in his throat once she wraps her legs around his waist.
“Is this okay?” She asks softly, her eyes trailing all over his face, like she’s trying to gauge his reaction.
“More than okay.” He tightens his grip around her body, pulling her flush against his skin. Even in the slight coolness of the water, he can feel how warm she is, and it’s so fucking addicting.
She trails her hands up from his shoulders to his face, slowly pushing his sunglasses on his head. He squints his eyes, adjusting to the bright light from the sun, his heart thumping loudly against his chest once he realizes how close their faces are to each other.
“There,” She smiles, resting her hands on the back of his neck, “I can see you looking at me now.”
“I really want to kiss you right now.”
The words come out quickly, randomly, and he’s a little embarrassed once he says it. But that feeling is quickly erased once the next words leave her mouth.
“Then kiss me.”
Fuck, he wants to, but he doesn’t know if it’s a good idea. Not right now, at least. He knows himself too well, unfortunately, and fears he might not be able to stop at just one kiss.
Take it slow, He tells himself over and over again. He should take it slow, and stop thinking with his dick. He should be a gentleman, let her take control, go with what she’s comfortable with.
He opens his mouth to voice just that, when her hands suddenly come up to the top of his head, roughly tugging his hair back, exposing his neck to her.
“Hyunjin,” She says his name so sensually that it has his dick instantly thickening in his shorts, unable to stop the low groan from falling out of his mouth. She tightens her legs around his waist, moving her body forward, lightly brushing her lips against his, “Kiss me.”
He’s lunging forward without a second thought, moans falling from both of their mouths as he crashes his lips against hers. Her hands tug harder at his hair, his sunglasses falling into the ocean beside him, but he doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about anything other than this, other than her.
“Fuck, you’re a little tease, you know that? Been driving me crazy all day,” He murmurs through sloppy kisses, groaning loudly into her mouth once she rolls her hips against his dick. He bites at her bottom lip, tasting the saltiness there, and she whimpers softly. “But you know that, don’t you? You know you drive me crazy. Acting so innocent and sweet when I know all you want is to get down on your knees for me.”
She moans loudly, kissing him harder, moving her hips even faster against him. His hands snake around her body to harshly grab onto her ass, urging her to fuck against him as he fucks her mouth with his tongue.
He pulls away and she whines in protest, chasing his lips, tugging his face back towards her. He doesn’t let her, one hand coming up to grab at her neck, the other creeping down to lightly brush against her bikini bottoms. “Isn’t that what you want? To get on your knees and put my cock in your mouth?”
“Mhm, yes,” She mumbles against him, rutting against his dick like she was in fucking heat, “Wanna suck your cock so bad, Hyunnie. Want you to fuck my mouth like you’d fuck my pussy.”
Oh, fuck.
Her words and the fucking nickname have him feeling feral, and he’s slipping his hand underneath her bottoms, instantly sliding his fingers inside her. They go in with ease, and she’s gasping into his mouth as he fucks two fingers inside her.
“Gonna make you cum for me first,” He breathes against her mouth, curling his fingers inside her. She lets out a choked moan, her head falling back, riding his hand just like she’d ride his cock. The thought of her bouncing on his cock and begging for him to make her cum plays through his mind, and he’s increasing the pace of his fingers, leaning his face down to bite and suck on the side of her neck.
“Hyunjin,” She moans his name so loudly, the sound playing through his ears like a mantra, “S-shit, Hyunjin… feels so good… you’re gonna make me cum.”
He bites harder, licking up the drops of water off her neck, the salty taste driving him fucking insane. He slips his fingers out from inside her, rubbing hard and fast against her clit, and she’s arching into him with a loud cry of his name.
“Fuck, Hyunjin! Yes, yes, fuck.”
The waves are still rocking against them, she’s still babbling out incoherent words into the warm air around them, and he rubs against her faster, biting onto her neck harder. And then she’s coming all over his fingers, spazzing out against his body, clinging onto him like she’s about to fall underneath the water.
“Jalhaesseo,” (You did well) Hyunjin says lowly, softly kissing the large bruise he sucked and bit onto her skin before trailing his lips up towards her face. She was panting, eyes closed, and he grabbed ahold of her face, forcing her head to tilt towards his.
“Look at me, jagiya,” He squeezed her cheeks lightly, and she lets out a whine, slowly setting her gaze on him. Her eyes were glazed over and her cheeks were flushed, and she looked so fucking beautiful.
And right now, treading water along the Italian coast, she was his.
“Get out.”
She stares at him for a second, blissed the fuck out, her lips parting, “Wh-what?”
“You want my cock down your throat, don’t you?”
The look on her face has his dick leaking into his shorts. She looks confused and submissive as fuck, and the sight has his brain running with thoughts that he’d never even think of in the first place.
Hyunjin doesn’t normally act like this when it comes to sex. He’s always been attentive, careful, and very vocal in bed, but never has he acted like this. He noticed it when he fucked her for the first time four years ago, and he’s noticing it again now. She brings out a different side of him he always knew existed and tried to tame, yet never fully came out.
And fuck, he loves it. And judging by how she’s still looking at him, eyes wide and panting like a dog, he knows she loves it, too.
“Don’t you?” He’s asking again, voice dropping an octave as he brings her face closer to his. She leans in to kiss him, but he holds her face back, a loud whine falling from her lips, “Y-yes. Please, Hyunnie.”
“Please what?”
Beg. Please beg. Honestly, he wants nothing more.
“Please let me suck your big cock. I’ve wanted to for so long, I’ve thought about it for years. I want it hitting the back of my throat, want to taste you so bad. Use me, please, Hyunnie. Want you so much.”
Hyunjin growls, feeling like he’s about to cum in his shorts, because holy fuck, that was so hot. “Then stop stalling and get out of the fucking water, yeah?” He lightly shoves her away from him. She stumbles a little, and Hyunjin feels bad for about half a second before she basically sprints back onto the sand, her ass jiggling with each hurried step forward. She’s eager, just like he is, and he fucking loves it.
By the time he gets out of the water, she’s already down on her knees in the sand, toying with the loose string of her bottoms, waiting so patiently for him. He suppresses a groan just looking at her, his dick pathetically straining against his shorts, slowly sinking down to sit on the towel that was still laid out on the sand. He leans back on his elbows, manspreading, beckoning her forward with a jerk of his head, “Come here.”
She starts to get up, sitting a few feet away from him, and he stops her with a click of his tongue, “Nah uh. Crawl to me.”
Before he can fully blink, she’s already digging her knees back into the sand, on all fours, crawling over towards him with a look so sensual it has him reaching down with his right hand to rub at his dick to attempt to relieve some pressure.
“Ssibal, jonna hathane,” (Fuck, that’s hot), He whispers more to himself than anything, groaning loudly once she reaches him, placing her hands on his legs, eyes focusing on where he’s currently still rubbing at his cock like a fucking teenager.
“Take my cock out,” He says lowly once he forces himself to stop. She wastes no time in doing just that, hands sliding up towards the waistband of his swim shorts, instantly jerking them down just enough to get his cock out.
He groans lowly once it finally springs free, one of her hands coming up to wrap around the base of his cock, the other sliding up his abdomen. “Wanna make me feel good, jagiya?” He reaches out to push her hair away from her face before gripping it tightly in his hands, jerking her head towards his cock.
She moans softly, grip tightening on his cock, her breath fanning against the tip of it. She licks her lips, and he groans loudly at the warm feeling of her tongue brushing against him at the action. He’d be lying if he said he hasn’t thought about this before. Okay, maybe more than once, when he’s alone in a hotel bed and feeling extra horny. But now that she’s actually here, knees dug into the sand, ass perched high in the air, looking at him like he’s her fucking world, he can’t go back.
Not that he’d ever want to, anyway.
“Answer me,” He jerks her head back, a bit of drool sitting in the corner of her pretty mouth, “Do you want to make me feel good? Want to gag around my cock until I cum all down your throat? Want me to claim you as mine?”
“Yes,” She pants, on the verge of tears, “Want your cock so bad, Hyunnie. I’ll make you feel so good, let you use my mouth however you want. Please let me have it. Please, please, please.”
He jerks her head back down, her lips brushing against him, “Open your mouth, and make me cum.”
She takes him with a loud moan, her tongue gliding against him so perfectly. She’s bobbing her head up and down, hand jerking him where her mouth doesn’t reach, drooling and slobbering all over him like he’s her last meal.
Hyunjin’s had his fair share of blow jobs. They were always messy, quick, and usually resulted in him still feeling unsatisfied afterwards. Maybe half of that was because he didn’t ever feel a romantic connection with those women, but whatever the reason, here—this, with Y/N going at it like they’re filming a porn tape, is everything.
She is everything. And right now, she’s still his.
“Yeah, jagiya. Just like that,” He breathes out, using his hand to guide her on his dick, leaned back on one elbow as he watches her swallow him like a pro, “Mhm, fuck. Your mouth feels so good wrapped around me. Fuck, how many dicks have you sucked?”
Hyunjin doesn’t know why he asks that. But with the way she’s sucking him, shaking her ass in the air, moaning and watching him with that same look as she takes his dick down her throat so effortlessly, there’s no way this is her first time.
The thought of other men sticking their cocks down her throat has him seeing red, and he’s leaning back, using both hands to grip at the back of her head, his abs tightening as he leans up, “Don’t answer that. It doesn’t matter, anyway, because my cock is gonna be the only one you remember after today.”
And then he’s slamming her head down onto him, her nose brushing against his pelvis with each push down. She’s choking, sputtering, moaning with every hard jerk down, and the sound is like heaven in his ears.
“Fucking hell,” He whines out, feeling his balls drawing up tight with each gag around his cock, “Mhm, yeah. Your mouth is perfect, jagiya. So perfect. You look so beautiful choking around my cock. You choke like this on anyone else’s? Hm? Were they big enough to make you cry and gag like I do?”
She’s moaning again, the sound shooting straight up his dick. He closes his eyes briefly, willing himself to get it the fuck together, because he does not want to cum yet. He wants to engrave this image into his mind forever, wants to have her like this every single day for the rest of his life, wants to claim her, mark her, show the world that she’s his and only his.
He opens his eyes again, choking out a moan once he sees her other hand moving fast in between her legs. Another closer look, and he’s realizing that she’s rubbing herself through her bikini bottoms, her fingers working quick and hard against the flimsy fabric.
“Holy fuck,” He groans out, his eyes now completely focused on how she’s fucking herself in front of him, getting herself off from getting him off, “F-fuck. Are you actually touching yourself right now?”
She moans around his dick, moving her hand even faster against her pussy, and Hyunjin feels dizzy, “God, that’s so hot. Fuck. Does sucking me off get you all hot and bothered, jagiya? One orgasm wasn’t enough for you?”
She’s rutting against her hand now, tears streaming down her face as he works her mouth on his cock. “Such a greedy little slut for me, jagiya. You just had to get yourself off right now. Couldn’t even wait until I came down your throat, huh?”
She cries against him, hips moving desperately, her fingers working even faster, swallowing him even harder, and he lets out a growl, feeling his vision start to blur as that warm feeling starts to shoot down his spine. “Fuck, Y/N. I’m gonna cum, I’m gonna cum, cum with me, fuck.”
She spazzes out, gaging around his cock with a loud cry, and his vision is turning white as he throws his head back, holding her head in place as he thrusts into her mouth, shooting his load all down her throat.
“Mhm, yeah, fuck,” He babbles out curses and moans and praises as he slowly thrusts his hips into her, working out his orgasm. His body feels like jelly, his heart feels full, and his dick is spent.
Ho-ly shit.
The sound of her choking out another sob brings him out of his post-orgasmic haze, and he’s jerking her head off his now softening dick, a trail of spit dripping down her chin and onto his thighs. She gasps once her mouth is finally free, and he’s instantly grabbing her arms to pull her up towards him.
“Shit, I’m sorry,” He breathes out, wiping at her mouth with the back of his hand. She looks absolutely wrecked, and he feels a sense of pride swelling in his chest that he was the one who made her look this way, “Are you okay?”
She coughs once, wiping at the tears semi-dried on her cheeks, “I’ve never been better.”
She smiles at him, the stars twinkling brighter in her eyes, and he pulls her to lay on top of him, kissing the top of her head. She snuggles into him, her skin warm, and he feels complete.
Was this a bad idea? Probably. Did he think about the potential consequences of whipping his dick out in public? Nope. But Hyunjin realizes quickly that right here, with her lying on his chest and sand bunched up his ass, he doesn’t care. Not at all.
“Me too,” He whispers softly before capturing her lips in his.
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