a hopefull romantic writing his truth

I thought once before that "we" couldn't

that "we" shouldn't

that "we" wouldn't work

and then one fateful day

through miles worth of space

a text exchange caused a cosmic change

yeah its true

"if you didn't have a boyfriend I might have a crush on you"

when in moments of wonder filled eyes

I gaze at you and you wonder why

tis because you cause my heart-shaped cup to runnith over

flooding my soul with gaiety this mid October

even by the sight you my brain is transposed to mush

real men really cry

were just scared to show it so

please dont leave me though I know I've screwd it all up again

I'm sorry to have hidden behind "life"

to hide my every emotion

I'm so so sorry for the lies

I hope I still deserve the right to say the 3 words pulsing within

I love you

I know I seem like anxiety's twin

Im sorry

I hope you can forgive me

even though I fear I'm doing all I can do

here I lay upon my bed

I try to sleep

but something's amis within my sleepy head

I roll over and open my eyes

finding blackness

and that's just it I realize

I forgot to turn on my night light to cut through the dark

kind of like you