I think I’m actually fucking nuts cuz me and my gf went to see the spider verse movie last night but we went with our mutual best friend but her best friend is the girl that I fucking hated last year and had severe like fucking breakdowns because she kept flirting with my gf and my gf was all too accepting of it. But then the friend invited us and said her friends (the one I hate) will be there so I was like idk if I’m gonna go but my gf said “well I’m gonna go either way” so I was like well then I fucking have to go otherwise I’ll feel sick to my stomach waiting at home knowing ur with her and I can’t fucking trust you.
The bitch offered to pick my girlfriend up which irritated me, then asked for my gfs number, then we were gonna sit next to this guy from highschool we hate so my gf was offering to sit between her and the guy (there’s 6 of us , she did not need to offer to sit besides this girl), the girl asked to join our mc server while my gf was in the car w her, my gf asked me if she could which bugged me, then suddenly last night my gf was being randomly like “oh I love and miss you you’re the only one for me I only love you you’re the only one who makes me happy it’s only you” etc etc and i. Like literally none of this means anything . None of it means shit. But I just can’t help but feel fucking mad about it cuz it’s bringing back a lot of feelings where my girlfriend legitimately completely and fully betrayed me and my trust over and over again even after I sobbed begging her to stop hurting me and she swore time and time again she would stop and then she never ever did until winter of 2022. And I’m trying so hard not to be controlling or possessive or jealous so I’m not saying a word and I’m just letting things happen (I’m way too fucking shy and a people pleaser and self aware of being fucking stupid to do anything) but it’s driving me insane because I just feel like I know something is wrong