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𓇼 basics

full name: noah choi. name meaning: rest, overseer of the land. age: twenty six. gender: cis man. pronouns: he/him/his. orientation: bisexual. religion: agonistic, raised catholic.

𓇼 background

ethnicity: korean and white (english, dutch). date of birth: october 6, 1999 at 3:43 pm. place of birth: irvine, california, united states. current residence: capri, italy. education level: one semester of college, high school graduate. occupation: boat mechanic at porto velluto.

𓇼 appearance

height: 5'10". build: athletic. pronounced biceps and legs with thick thighs. stomach is soft and plump, and he prefers it that way. eye color: dark brown. hair color: black. skin: fair. distinguishing features: his face and shoulders are littered in freckles, and his digits are calloused by years of working on boats. he has good posture, although he slouches sometimes, and he walks with certainty. he has a slit in his left eyebrow.

𓇼 relationships

mother: mi-yeong "mia" choi (fifty). father: william graham mansfield (fifty eight). step-father: gregory paul wilson (sixty four).

𓇼 health

allergies: none. mental: complex post traumatic stress disorder (c-ptsd). sees his therapist twice a month. physical: migraines, frequent hand and muscle cramps.

𓇼 personality

positive traits: resourceful, tireless. neutral traits: compunctious, apprehensive. negative traits: insincere, unforthcoming. aesthetics: rain soaked branches tapping against a window, early morning fog, and an ashtray of finished cigarettes. zodiac signs: libra sun, virgo moon, aquarius rising, scorpio mercury, leo venus, and sagittarius mars.

𓇼 biography

trigger warning: mentions of alcoholism, (verbal, physical), and mental health struggles. proceed with caution!

noah choi was born to parents william graham mansfield and mi-yeong "mia" choi on october 6, 1999. his parents had met while his mother was studying abroad; mia had chosen london, england to spend a semester studying psychology, and she met william during a day trip to brighton and hove. soon after, the pair engaged in a tumultuous affair that ended in a hasty, courthouse marriage and a bustling baby boy. mia wanted to stay in irvine, and thus william moved to be closer to her and their son.

despite mia's desire to bring noah into a happy and healthy home, the reality of the situation was grim: william was an alcoholic, and his long nights spent with bottles of liquor resulted in anger and psychosis. mia feared approaching william about his behaviors — she was a stay at home mother, and her lack of experience outside of academia made it difficult for her to find any work. additionally, william was adept at camoflaguing himself: he held a steady career in accounting, and mia risked her and noah's livelihood were she to try and leave. ultimately, mia tried her best to bring up noah amid the chaos.

noah was thirteen when his father vanished, leaving behind phantoms of violence and trembling anxiety in his wake. despite mia's fear of her husband, she found herself missing william and was desperate for companionship; however, noah was secretly relieved. he did not feel particularly close to his father, and william's absence meant noah could now pretend he never existed.

noah often felt like he did not fully exist either: he was a ghost at school and at home, flitting through the hallways with abandon and simply trying his best to make it through each day. noah was an average student in all subjects except math, in which he excelled. he had no personal relationships keeping him afloat, and noah often felt as though companionship was not for him. noah's father was no loving figure, and his mother — who often loudly proclaimed that she “did her best” — was emotionally neglectful herself; his mother emphasized the little material comforts that the family had versus their relationship to each other.

these beliefs were only reinforced upon mia's second marriage to gregory paul wilson, a head chef in his fifties. noah was fifteen when his mother remarried, and while he silently held the opinion that his mother was remarrying far too quickly (and to an even older man), noah didn’t notice any immediate red flags. gregory had two children from his previous marriage, and appeared to be kind and stable; noah believed that gregory would be more stable than his father.

quickly after mia and gregory’s wedding, the mask slipped and gregory allowed himself to feel comfortable in his cruelty, verbally abusing his children, mia, and noah. gregory would try to physically punish mia for perceived transgressions, but noah would defend his mother and allow himself to become the object of gregory’s anger instead.

upon turning eighteen, noah quickly moved out of his childhood home and enrolled in the local university. noah wanted to study math and earn enough money to move out of town forever; however, he struggled with his studies and ended up dropping out after his first semester. rather than move back in with his mother, noah left irvine and began bouncing around from city to city and state to state, picking up odd jobs in order to keep him afloat. noah often found himself living with strangers who had a similar background to him, or — even worse — his biological father.

noah was nowhere near "unreliable," though: he was extremely skilled with machinery, and co-workers commended his ability to diagnose mechanical issues that seemed to have little to no symptomology. noah found himself promoted to managerial and administrative positions; however, his favorite role was always as a mechanic. noah found that repairing things gave him purpose, and perhaps subconsciously made him feel that he could also be "fixed."

when noah was twenty three, he was offered a position as a boat mechanic at porto velluto in capri, italy. his manager had referred him to the role, and encouraged noah to get out and find himself. noah found the idea of moving stressful: he had only ever been to england, and even then it was with his family when he was a child. anxieties notwithstanding, noah decided to take the leap and move to capri — he felt that the only way for him to move forward was for him to leave everything behind.

despite being far removed from his childhood, noah still finds himself overwhelmed with grief and pain. noah has lived in capri for three years, but still finds himself feeling like an outsider. he still makes a good faith effort to put himself out there, but his inner critic often prevents him from fully enjoying things.

perhaps contradictorily so, noah is a hopeless romantic. he likes to believe in the idea of soulmates (platonic and romantic), and he is a big believer in yearning. despite craving closeness, noah has previously run from relationships when that closeness encroaches upon him. it is likely that noah has broken a couple of hearts this way, albeit unbeknownst to him (and without malice).