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hi, i’m ourania. i write about awareness as it is; direct, simple, without steps or methods. nothing is separate, nothing is becoming. there are no blocks, no waiting, no detours. awareness doesn’t decide or declare; it already is all that appears.

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when i told him what happened, he just said, “okay, we’ll just keep a separate file for the old contract.”

that’s it. no lecture. no getting fired. no disaster.

anyway I have a question that you may have of then but I kinda find that I’m having trouble detaching from the ego and like my body ish surrounding while trying for the void state if you respond it would be rly rly extremely appreciated

xxx have a nice day ❤️❤️

you don’t have to detach from your ego, your body, or your surroundings. the one trying to detach is just another appearance in awareness.

if thoughts are there, let them be there. if sensations are there, let them be there. none of them prevent awareness because they’re appearing in it.

what people call the “void” isn’t somewhere you go. it’s simply the recognition of what you already are. awareness doesn’t come and go depending on whether your mind is quiet or your body disappears.

life doesn’t stop happening; it’s that you just know you are the awareness in which it all appears, and desires can arise naturally within that, too.

I’ve been disidentifying with my thoughts for quite some time now and I’ve recently just started doing the same with feelings since I’ve solely been focused on thoughts and I’ve noticed these intense feelings of dread when I would try to disidentify. And I’ve realized that there is no actual person here it’s just thoughts and feelings coming together to form an “ego.” What I really am is the silence behind all the noise. But after noticing all of this, there hasn’t really been any progress with feeling less separate from others or the seeming “3D” world. And it’s not like it’s desperate need it’s just a curiosity of why it hasn’t happened. I’m not sure if it’s because the knowing isn’t a permanent knowing since during the day I let myself be the ego because there’s nothing it can do anyway.

I was also wondering if letting go of subconscious thoughts like “there is a world” “there is a past and a future” would help because I also don’t understand how the world and body keep reappearing if I don’t have a conscious thought like “there is a world” or “I am this body” upon waking up in the morning.

I would really appreciate any insight. Thank you!!

what you're describing is still based on the assumption that awareness has somewhere to get to. it doesn't.

you're waiting to feel less separate, but awareness has never been separate, it doesn't come and go either. only experience appears to.

there isn't a point at which awareness finally becomes established as itself. it already is.

as for the world and the body, they don't appear because a hidden thought is sustaining them. awareness doesn't need to think "there is a world" for the world to appear.

there doesn't have to be. thoughts appear. the body appears. the world appears. they all appear within awareness. you're not being asked to get rid of them or to stop them from appearing.

nothing is incompatible with you because nothing exists outside of you.

the only thing making your desire seem distant is knowing yourself as someone who is waiting for experience to become something other than it appears to be.

you say your dream hasn't changed in two years, but awareness isn't measuring time or appearances.

you already are what you've been searching for. that doesn't mean you stop enjoying your desire. experience simply reflects what awareness is conscious of. happiness has never depended on appearances changing first.

awareness isn’t coming and going. what’s coming and going is the recognition of it.

you say there are moments when you’re aware that you’re awareness and moments when you’re completely identified with the ego. but notice that both experiences are known.

the feeling of being awareness is known. the feeling of being lost in thought is known. the feeling of forgetting is known… well, what knows them? that’s what you are.

you don’t need to maintain awareness or hold onto it. awareness is present whether you’re having a spiritual insight, scrolling on your phone, stressing about work, or feeling completely identified with the ego.

when i say things happen quickly in experience, i’m not talking about awareness causing something in a linear way.

i’m also not saying that nothing ever appears outwardly.

the point is that what we call “outward” is still appearing within experience. there isn’t an awareness over here and a physical world over there.

so when something seems to show up, i’m simply noticing that the appearance of it wasn’t separate from awareness in the first place.

and yes, from the absolute perspective there is no time, distance, or separation. but from within the apparent human experience, things can still seem to arise, move, and resolve.

i don’t think the point is to settle for a vague inner experience instead of living your life.

when we say “it’s already here,” we’re not saying you should replace your lived experience with imagination or convince yourself that suffering doesn’t matter.

we’re pointing to the fact that what you want is not actually separate from you. the desire, the image, the longing, the awareness of it, all of that is already appearing within the same awareness.

that doesn’t mean you stop preferring things. it doesn’t mean you stop caring about your circumstances. it just means the feeling of being fundamentally incomplete until something arrives is questioned.

if you’re suffering, then you’re suffering. nonduality isn’t asking you to pretend otherwise. it’s simply asking you to look at whether the sense of lack is coming from the circumstance itself or from the belief that you are separate from what you’re seeking.

this is why i keep saying everything is already here. there isn’t actually a gap between you and what you desire. the gap is only imagined.

^ this is me! I was talking about your post regarding on this: https://www.tumblr.com/suestrellalunar/789669198058192896/ourania-how-can-i-immediately-manifest-entering

that’s totally okay!

hi, love 🤍

have you noticed that signs tend to appear when a desire feels especially real?

a number repeats. a name shows up. a random conversation sounds like it was written specifically for your situation.

suddenly everything feels connected.

as though the dream is leaving clues. as though reality is responding. as though something beneath the surface is trying to get your attention.

and maybe that’s why signs are so addictive.

they transform uncertainty into certainty. they make the desire feel alive. they make it feel as though something is happening even when nothing visible has changed.

the sign becomes proof. proof that you’re on the right track. proof that movement is occurring. proof that reality is speaking.

so the mind starts collecting them.

remembering them. looking for more of them. connecting them together into a larger story. a story that seems to explain where everything is going.

but there’s something strange about every sign.

the sign is known. the meaning of the sign is known. the excitement is known. the certainty is known. the story built around the sign is known.

every part of the experience appears and disappears, yet that which knows the entire experience never becomes a sign itself.

it doesn’t arrive. it doesn’t repeat. it doesn’t need to get your attention. it was present before the sign appeared. present while the sign appeared. present after the sign disappeared.

so congratulations.

you just spent the last minute reading a post about signs because you thought a sign was going to reveal something important.

and the entire time, your attention was pulled toward numbers, names, coincidences, meanings, and stories.

meanwhile, the one thing that never needed a sign to announce itself was what was aware of the sign in the first place.

We don’t need to do anything to experience this desire in our physical world? For example, I’m desiring to move elsewhere. I understand to have this desire in the first place also means that it’s already been fulfilled, so that brings me peace and knowing this. However, would the physical adjust on its own for this to be an experience felt in the physical (like where I’m actually moving)? I hope this makes sense

the confusion comes from imagining awareness and physical experience as two separate things.

if awareness is all there is, then what you call the "physical world" is not outside of awareness waiting to catch up. it, too, appears within awareness.

when the desire to move arises, the desire itself is already appearing within awareness. the idea of the move, the experience of the move, and the seeming process between them are not separate from awareness.