Yam

Yam , 15

Hᴇ / Sʜᴇ

ADHD , PDD , UDD ,

UPD , OCD

Jɪʀᴀɪ ɢɪʀʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇs ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴀɪɴɪɴɢ

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~ Dream diary (tw)

I had dreams where campers where killing themselves for god.

I remember it so vividly, I felt so helpless watching them jump from the chapel. Two little girls gone like that, fake but real all the same.

I remember sobbing in my dream, shaking as I yelled and begged them not to. Falling cursing god for what he made the two girls do.

Waking up i was sobbing, scared and by myself.

I wish I didn't dream.

~ 28 / 7 / 2026

~ Dream Diary

I took a nap today after therapy. My dream was odd but not uncomfortable like the rest of them had been.

I was looking through my mothers stuff for hair dye and the works, searching and searching. I found everything I needed before the dream shifted to outside.

Outside i was walking with my mom, struggling to get words out. Its a common theme in my dreams where I can't speak very well, or at least I feel like I can't. People end up understanding me pretty well anyways.

I don't remember what I was saying but I remember getting really heated about my grandma. Maybe because I spoke about family in therapy?

Who knows.

~ 7 / 24 / 2026 , 5 : 31 pm

Dream diary ~

I don't really remember my dream very well anymore, but waking up it caused me a lot of distress and discomfort.

I find lately thats been happening more and more when I sleep. My dreams, usually silly or nonsensical, have started to become more and more distressing.

It's a pattern that is worrying to me. This one wasn't as bad as my other ones, but it was bad enough where I woke up extremely distressed and scared.

I'll probably talk about it in therapy today, even if I don't want to.

~ 7 / 24 / 2026 , 10 : 33 am

My grandpa, someone i hold very dear to me despite never getting to meet him, is currently dying from cancer. He isn't going to survive it, we all know he won't. He's too old and has two types of very aggressive cancer.

I know I'll never get to meet him before his death. It's just the truth, me and him will never meet before he dies. I've never dealt with death of a family member who is human, except now I will.

Reminder that I'm a system guys hi hi. Usually thats why I'll go awhile between posts since its mostly only like. Three of us who actually post.

Most of us just go on Tumblr to look at PHM or science stuff.

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