A.M Thoughts

I'm so lost!!! and it's stressing me out. I'm only 18 tho so is it really that deep

I know so many people but do I want them around me

I'm figuring myself out, I crave a sense of freedom (if I can call it that). I develop interests in things that would make me feel like I'm alive for example skating, pole dancing, ice skating, surfing, etc. I like to feel the wind, I like to be aware of my body (if that makes sense).

I hate feeling bold! It’s a temporary feeling, so it lasts from 3 days to a week. After it’s over and I’m back to my regular self I have to deal with the “bold me” problems, such as ….. planned links or dates , talking to random men/boys 19+, responses to my weird posts, and Dms from random ppl on my Twitter lol.

I'm supposed to be doing my history project but instead I'm looking for spas' to do my facial!!!

Talking to a dude and I already imagined me going to his house and watching his favorite tv shows/movies and criticizing them for jokes and giggles . (I'm such a romantic lol) . It's only time till I get bored and move on- sorry T.

I watched episode 2 of Euphoria it was good. Do I wanna ball my eyes out? yes and smoke a Lil weed idk.

Haven't been on here for awhile, I actually been tired these few days.

It's almost 3:00 and I didn't do the dishes , my mom wakes up at 4 to drink coffee and watch the news ( grown up stuff) I'm debating if I should do it now or trick her and tell her that she told me I could do it after school tmmrw lol. I mean I washed out her coffee pot and cup what do she need the pots and silverware for ?

During theses sleepless times I always have a burst of energy to go on youtube and watch videos on how to become a influencer, or a model, or a freaking truck driver . I've never wanted to become a truck driver in my life! but the random thought of being successful pass through my head and I think I'm going to do it in the small time span of 2 am - 4am. I never do

This is my 5th time going back on that dating app after deleting my profile lol. I just wanna talk to strangers and ghost them after I feel better about life .

Found a new aesthetic and I'm so happy it's called "old money aesthetic" . when I think about it it always been my aesthetic ever since I was in elementary I just never knew bc first that was literally years ago and it's literally so many new aesthetics so I was just trying stuff but the whole classy boujee lifestyle fits me .

I hate feeling bored. I get the urge to do random stuff until I don't feel bored anymore(I'm literally selling my friends feet pics to old white men , with her consent ofc ) but this bored feeling lasts for weeks and it's really aggravating and it's driving me insane.

How come no one send me messages anymore ? yeah I only get one every once in awhile but I miss the attention.

Ugh I wish someone would just send me tons of money so I can buy my dream wardrobe. *wink wink*

omg angel numbers ..... do I still believe in this ? lol