LIFE AND ITS MYSTERIES STAY ORIGINAL!

Welp another day off but this time not by choice but being told.

Actions have consequences and consequences are by actions.

Learning my lesson but also a harsh truth there are no friends in sales and everyone is just in it for themselves and that’s it.

Sell 132 cars well 15 a month

Travel once with my family once with Mabi

Make more $ saving up

Back to the gym to eating 100% no more slacking I feel it.

Keep on my social medias it’s my internet

Work smarter not harder

Learn to say no

Spend more time with Mabi, introduce her to my parents or her to the girls.

Stop talking tho the one who owes me money

Gym 5 days a week 6 days cardio

Meal prepping

Keep helping my brother and his wife

Ask out Mabi at Disney for valentines

Find out why Brandon doesn’t care for me.

Clean up my work desk. Files etc.

Time management

Quit vaping for good.

Talk to my parents more often, including coming to the house.

3rd house if possible

Raise the rent on the rental

Keep communication good with Mabi and I get her to open up more to me. And me to her.

Possibly look for new jobs.

If I want to grow, I need to say okay when or how

Things are getting funky, with my situation ship.

But I guess that’s just part of life and I need to learn that it’s just life. You can’t control, how the other people feels. Just know that all I done, did it been out of kindness and from my heart, if things end now then it will be what it is, like I said to you. You hold a very special place in my heart. That won’t change does it hurt yes it does, but that’s just part of what makes us human. Your going through things as well that you can’t tell me.

Im not looking to date if this ends, I need time to heal and feel what im going through just focus on myself and my health and work. That’s just who I am. My communication skills have changed but it’s still things I need to learn.

No matter what I’m going to be here for you M.A.V 🩷

Supporting you and rooting for you even it is at a distance and your girls.

Oh tumblr you’ve been there for me for things I can’t tell others and things I keep bottled in…

What do you do when you have feelings for someone who isn’t ready to date but when you’re together things are different.. evening I’ve done for her and her girls I’ve done because it’s coming from me, I’ve never expected anything back things have just happened.. why now tho because you’ve been more distant. I notice it but I don’t say anything because I already know you’re dealing with your things and that’s how you deal with them.. should I say something? Or just let it be, someone who truly understands you lets you do things on your own because that’s how you deal with them. You just offer to be there.. they aren’t going to fight on why you haven’t talked to cause a fight that’s not how things work. Well not to me.

I just sucks because I want to wait for you, but I feel like you telling me that you don’t want to hold me back is you telling me to let you go and just move on. But I’m not going to go date anyone I’m just literally going to focus on working and making more money… that’s what I do it’s how I cope with things. And the gym which is on my list todo anyways.

I guess I need to focus on other things and not make you a priority but it’s been like this now for a year, you won’t admit it but I know you care more then just a friend. You’re just scared because of all the things you’ve been through…

For now it’s just taking it day by day. What life wants to happen will happen.. if life wants me out of your life or me out of yours then that’s going to be life..

I care for you more than I’ve cared for someone in a long long time but I guess that’s just me.

Sell 132 cars hit the yearly bonus

Get back on the gym 5 days a week get to my goal body weight and look.

Stop vaping for good.

Save 120k

Pay off the Amex

Get the new platinum card

Figure out what I’m going to do with the lease either buy it and or get a new one 1000 max payment

Travel to Mexico with family and then once alone or with friends

Take more risks

More content for work

Be happier learn to leave those behind who don’t want to be in my life.

I think it’s me in my mind that’s getting to me along with things that are going on at work and at home.

I need to figure out how to get out of my head. And just do what I need to do.

Im just going along with things and seeing where they go.

But I’m also putting myself out there. So I can heal myself and see what’s out there too.

I don’t want to say too much but just letting the course so what is supposed todo.

I feel like you want something but then again don’t. Then posting the indirects to someone. I’m not dumb either but that’s your life.

I feel like I’m just taking care of you and that’s all but In the end well see we shall see what happens