Val's yapping corner

!!WARNING MY SPELLING AND GRAMMER MAY BE SHIT!!

so I think having a crush is the best and worst feeling a person can have, I honestly don't know how to explain it, on one hand u literally have a CRUSH like u can make fantasies of them in your head, when u see them it makes u your day so much better AND don't get me started on the feeling u get when u actually interact with them, BUT u also have the horrid feeling of longing for them and just wanting to be with them and getting jealousy

I look at him from afar, a girl form our class is chatting with him... I feel a bit sad, he looks good with her ig... ( I think in my head, but truly I am dying inside with just the site of them together) as I keep watching him and her chat then he looks up just enough to catch my gaze

(OH MY GOD HE IS GOING TO THINK I'M A WEIRDO)

his head turns to the side just a little and to me he looks like a confused puppy then he makes a face like something clicks in his brain he breaks eye contact with me and...

STOPS TALKING TO HER?

(yeaaa his only would happen in my dreams but he did smile at me yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!)

I don't think so but lets not jinx it

I pick up my phone and take it out from the plug, as I turn it on I see a notification from Snapchat?? "I rarely use that app" is all I can think as I click into the notification I see that someone has friended me!?

I check to see who it is and his name is clear in the username

"OMG OMG" I scream making my brother turn his head at me but he quickly goes back to eating his food, 𝙝𝙚 ADDED ME!???

I added him back and almost to soon he sends me a message

𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜

EEEEEEEEEEEEKK!!

ok so context, I like this boy in my year(we are in the same baseclass so we have lots of classes together) and I mean I REALLY like him but we like never speak. We are in to completely friend groups like he is with all the popular kids and my friend isn't like the weird kids but were also way to weird to be popular if u get me and I always make eye contact with him and when ever I walk by him and like neither of us are walking with our friends, he always smiles and says hey but other then that WE NEVER TALK.

I am dying inside why must he do this to me give me just a small bit of hope to my crush for him will never die out.

like someone help me, how would I even try to talk to him?????