Study-pop

7th March

The academic year has begun fr now, just got all my books today and bro does that pile compare to my height (I am 5 10 btw). The overwhelming feeling I got after seeing the 3 volumes of rd Sharma really made second guess my love for math.

I have officially began maintaing notebooks with my own notes for subject today. One of my goals is to start reposting my notes on pinterest.

Ik it doesn't sound that hard but for some reason I am always hesitant about it. It's either I am not good at editing my notes or that my pics don't look good enough cause of the camera.

I hope I can get the motivation to just post more even it's not the perfectly edited high quality pics ever.

Ig that is really it for my academic rant.

The sky is just so pretty these days and I think it's turning me into a sky girlie cause like all I am clicking these days are sky pics.

And though they don't do justice to the actual beauty of it, they turn out better than my expectations.

One of my favorite songs these days is house on a hill by eric nam.

4th March 2024

Today was my very first day of 12th grade and oh god how do i already have pending work left to be done <_>

I am still having a hard time comprehending that it's almost been a year since i shifted cities and came to my present school. The relativity concept of time never seems to amuse me cause istg in some aspects i feel like everything's passing by a blink of eye but at the same time I feel stuck at a place and time just doesn't let me overcome it.

Maybe this is just growing up but I have yet to crack the code to escape this cycle of wanting to grow up while still staying exactly where I am (crazy right?)

Amongst all this cloudiness in my vision and thought process, some highlights could be

Me considering tutoring kids for some cash and job experience

Interest in photography and editing

Reconsidering posting notes on insta and pinterest

1st march 2024

Can't believe i got my result of 11th today.

This seems more serious than the actual start of the new year for me. its like the final wake up call after the constant snoozes i have been pressing ever since my 17th birthday. My 12th grade aka my senior year aka my last school year will begin from Monday and no matter how i see it, time just seems to be traveling a little too fast for my good.

Not saying that i am not excited to graduate and step into a bigger world than just my house and school but it just seems to scary and foreign. Weather it be figuring out my future or unseriousness towards my life, i just don't know how to deal with it. This constant thinking and contemplating only leaves with anxiety and never an answer.

I really hope that this time next year i have a better idea of what and who i want to be and have a little more excitement than fear of adulthood,

Having my most favourite ice cream in the world while solving a brutal math assignment.

I went to school after a break of 4 days today and yet it was so exhausting. I miss my old school which literally felt safer than home.

I rediscovered the rare album today and realised just how underrated it is. Literally every song on it soo good.

Here's my favourite one at the moment

It's days like these that confirm that I am not at all a morning person.

I slept for almost 12 hours last night and yet if not for this coffee, I would probably end up napping for another 2.

BTW, I couldn't really study last night (what a shocker it is 🙄 )

So now I have to sit and compete my work. Wish me luck and I really hope I can stay more focused than I was last night.

Here's to my current favorite song

Kind of in a dilemma, I just got these 2 books but I also have some math problems to solve.

Started my day at 9 today cause of my tution I had. I nearly did not get enough sleep and even a 20 min walk to my tution wasn't enough to shake the sleepiness out of me.

Came home and immediately made my coffee for human functioning again. (Wish I took a pic if it)

Now, having my first meal of the day- HOMEMADE BURGERS. I swear there is nothing better than this.

I am feeling a little overwhelmed today so decided to finish the song I was learning on piano.

Hope you all also have a great Saturday!!