~maize~

Week 5/12 in my last term of nursing school. We had been online last term. This term the school opened up... but not for long. People were getting sick and dropping like flies. Teachers were exposed as well. So we are back online... I am sick as well. I will not have results for several days. I was admitted into a home health agency to monitor my symptoms and treat what we can. When I got tested I was told it’s likely a mild case. I feel like it’s progressing. My anxiety is so high because I’m afraid I’ll get behind in school. I just want to graduate! I could use all the prayers and good vibes I can get. Wear a mask. Wash your hands. This virus is not a hoax or a joke. It sucks. You don’t want it.

Also life update: I had an MRI the other day for my wrist(see previous posts) and the orthopedic office called today. They said the doctor wanted to see me to go over the results... I’ve heard this type of situation usually means bad news so I’m pretty worried.

Also the school still doesn’t know if we will be back on campus or not for next semester.

Welp. Ortho in a few days to get checked out. Urgent care thinks it’s broken. It’s my right wrist and I’m right handed. I already feel like I’m doing tasks significantly slower because I don’t have both hands. I’m hoping school will understand that I may take longer on exams. I had trouble taking notes in yesterday’s lecture. I got so frustrated between the pain and the awful handwriting. As for planning I already miss it. I’m stuck using voice to text to make to do lists.

One of the good things that has come out of being stuck at home for two months is that my boyfriend and I have built a garden. I can’t wait to transfer my seedlings over. I’m so excited!

I don’t know how many days it’s been since physically being in a classroom. Definitely over a month. Classes are on zoom... including simulations. One of the things keeping me from going insane is my planner where I can make lists. It’s the one place I feel organized. If I get things done on this list I might just start decorating the rest of my planner with motivational quotes to keep me going.

I still live at home helping my mother and grandmother. I had been having such a hard time getting things done in a timely manner because I’ve been constantly needed. With that being said I started to make boundaries, but I wasn’t respecting them. I would block off a section of my day to not be bothered but when I would get bothered I’d stray away from my work. I didn’t say NO. Now I’m struggling in my classes it feels like. **Set boundaries for yourself. Respect them. Otherwise no one else will. **

My focus for today is to make sure my desk area is clean, my webcam is installed, and I am somewhat prepared for lecture tomorrow.

Then I went to visit my boyfriend and his niece. I missed him so bad. We are still respecting the social distancing rule. Staying 8 feet away from people. Only going shopping if absolutely necessary.

Until tomorrow. -maize

I’m struggling with zoom currently. Everything is so slow because everyone is online. I’m trying to have an open mind and not get anxious about the classes being put online, but it’s so hard.