Dope

And I looked at him, and words filled my heart. I wanted to say

Purple; like the light bruises beneath your eyes. A shaded lavender of midnight thoughts. 

You haven’t been sleeping, have you – you know you could call and I’d pick up, no matter the hour; I would tell you stories until your mind gave you rest. I would, for you…

Or green. When your eyes catch the sunlight and turn into a golden gaze, flecked with voiceless words, and my knees tremble. I wish I could fold that look into an envelope; carry it in my pocket, take it out to save me from my tears. Or maybe 

Black. Like your hair. The curls I have to stop myself from tucking behind your ears; I hold my own hand to keep still. 

your voice is edged in silver. I think your laugh is yellow, love; when you cried and I took your hand, it was turquoise, a cloud of weighty blue, and I wanted nothing more than to stay with you and your electric touch. I could dry your tears if you would let me, pools of cobalt in my hands. 

But you are still looking at me from across the table, and I smile. 

I’m not sure, I say. Orange is nice, I guess. 

you gotta be able to say "suicide"

you gotta be able to talk about "sex"

they're uncomfortable topics, YEAH for SURE

because LIFE is uncomfortable. Death and suicide and sex and pain are straight up going to happen. not having words for the way it discomforts you doesn't make it more comfortable, it just makes you less able to reach out about it.

even more vital, you gotta be able to say words like "rape", "abuse", "queer" or "racist". cause we fought fucking hard to name those experiences. to identify "rape" as distinct from "sex" and "racism" as distinct from "acceptable behaviour" and "queer" as distinct from "invert"

But when Ava is practically undressing her with her eyes at the bar giving full on eye sex and Beatrice is like: I cant see I am blind bliiiind bliiind bliiiind .

Like yes go ahead follow miguel I'll meet you at home where I'll sulk because you are into him and not me.

AFTER THIS LOOK !?

This is such an awesome angle!