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🌈 she/her ★ adult 🌈

☆ i like talking to people. ☆ i am autistic and don't understand social cues or sarcasm. please be direct and patient with me. ☆ i will use this account to ramble as well as post my art.

🌈 my interests are :: space , animals , aliens , dinosaurs , roblox , minecraft , neopets 🌈 💥 dni if you are :: ᴛ3ʀꜰꜱ, ᴘʀ0-1ᴄᴇ, ᴘʀ0-ᴛʀᴜᴍᴘ, ᴢ00ꜱ, ᴘ3ᴅᴏꜱ/ᴍ4ᴘ 💥

I AM A SYSTEM! and with that, some alters will sometimes talk here. emoji indicators: #🌈 - host #💥 - cohost #🫧 - private role

THANK U ANON!!

but also the concept of trying to reach out to systems scares me

ive known this friend group since.. 2017-2018 LMAO. we met on some dumb undertale roleplay on roblox

they've been in the friend group for i'd say about a year now?

i shouldnt feel disgust or anxious towards or around him. i cant help it. not after what happened.

he refused to show me his face even after i showed him mine. i shouldve taken that as a sign and left.

they refused to date me until we meet irl, which is fine on its own, i guess. but theyd still be super romantic towards me

it was a little odd, but i let it slide

but that was until he started getting sexual with me, even admitting to getting off to me two days in a row.

i didnt tell them to stop. i weirdly liked the idea of someone loving me so much they would do something like that. but now i feel disgusted. i shouldnt. i dont have a right to, i never told him to stop.

we're still friends. i think. i cant bring myself to have a full conversation with them and its awful.