Strands Of Thought

I go back and forth. Ironically the things I avoid would probably help me most but since I avoid them I only get worse.

Been taking a trip down memory lane a lot recently. While I'm reminded of how much of an asshole I was I can't say I'm much better now.

Something about determining self worth and how other people view you. Important stuff, that I'll get to later.

Ima find a hideout soon. A place I can read and draw at my leisure. Like a coffee or tea shop that has a comfy couch with my name on it. I'll disappear from the world and be alone.

Irony isn't coincidence. But a coincidence could be ironic. Will I give an example? Nope.

I can do it but the irony is I don't want to.

I’m content for today.  Should probably clean my room though. :D

Twas a good-ish day. I find personal criticism to be harsh right now for some reason. Probably cause I’m conflicted as to where my personal value comes from. Mostly personal perception vs others perception. Ironically, others perception is based on my perception of their perception. I should probably look up this word.

No I’m definitely alone. Not sure how to fix that

I need to realize I am alone and this is not unique to me. Only I can hear my thoughts and my expression to the world will never adequately translate them.

Just me… that’s not bad

I’m Clever :D

I don’t really understand me. I had fun, held it together, got fairly drunk and didn’t have a hangover, plus I didn’t do anything stupid. And yet I’m not happy with it. There is no desire to change anything save one moment I didn’t control… why does it bug me so much

Don't let small success get you down. Sounds ironic but it's an apt description in this case

I like to think I will look back on these and understand some and be totally confused by others. Who knows how smart future me is at decryption.