Herbalize and Verbalize

but im gonna make a new blog on a completely new account. I can’t believe all the memories on this account. all the blogs i created and stuff I wrote. Its like a time capsule for some of the darkest and most defining years and moments of my life 

JEsus christ I started tumblr like what 10 years ago now. 

I need a new place to post and look at internet shit that isnt facebook or reddit or instagram. I miss the ability to type a bunch of shit out and its more personal for myself than facebook.

It feels so good to love again. And feel loved. And by someone who i don’t need to make excuses for in my head, or to my family or friends. He’s just a really good guy. I am so lucky to have someone like this right now. I really needed the extra ecouragement to start becoming more confident in what i want my life to become. My family really wears me down in that way. I just feel like everyone in my family is afraid of what people are gonna think so nobody tells anyone anything and everyones awkward and its always small talk and it just, its so fake! Moosey is so real. And hes honest and it makes me feel honest and good and open. Finally someone who has similar interests, passions, and views on the world as me but is also funny and kind and polite and…. suuuper tall 😍. I am so lucky. But the best part is he constantly tells me how he cant believe “a beautiful super cool girl like me would like a Minnesota boy like him” because he is so modest and kind. We both think we are dorks but we also think eachother are way too cool for our own good. Its a nice mutual “how did i get so lucky” relationship.

After being treated so poorly in my past shit, then being alone for a few years, with nobody even blinking an eye at me, this just came out of nowhere. Oh my god. 😥😙😙❤💖💓