𝑆𝑡𝑒𝑝ℎ :]

“She’s not suicidal like you when you were 8” okay fuck you too then what the fuck

If I had killed myself, no one would even know. No one would have noticed. They’d still think I’m asleep right now. It’s 1:05pm. Happy birthday to me.

Waiting, waiting drives you crazy. Waiting drives you crazy ;; One day I am gonna grow wings

Restoring to tumblr to vent because no one I know irl follows me here 🗣️‼️ I’m genuinely tired. I can’t be emotionally available to anyone right now but I can’t say that because who does that to someone who’s struggling. I feel shitty admitting that I’m tired of hearing people’s problems, but I just want some time to just not feel anything. To not have to be anything. I don’t want to be understanding, I want to call people out on their shit but I can’t because that’s the wrong thing to do. I wanna tell off everyone, to tell them to get out of my life, to leave me stranded on the side of the road. I’m a shitty friend and a shitty person to be thinking like this, but I’m just tired of people coming to me. I’m tired of being told to suck it up or to be told that I can be upset because who can I break down to or go to without feeling like a hypocrite for doing the same thing that I’m tired of others using me for.