Killua Zoldyck || stellarkillua

Next time: Unparalleled Joy x And x Unconditional Love

Killua: I never ask for anything in return.

Gon: Isn’t that unconditional love?

I'm not saying Killua is talkative either, but what I'm saying is that both are kids , both are energetic, and both would be goofing and play around, greed Island was clear enough to prove that , yet , you'll still find some people LOVES to characterize Killua as this emo gloomy traumatized edgelord , well , Killua is not some Sasuke or Bakugo,sorry to disappoint you,

( not to mention how they love to make Gon seems " stupid and acts like a 4 years old " because that's a whole different story)

And I REALLY think it's unfair to mischaracterize them just in sake of them to fit with " your " headcanons and fantasies ( I'm not saying you're not allowed to enjoy yourself, I'm saying don't talk or act as if your headcanons are canon )

it is not “you are light” and you are my sun and my stars and my moon – it is, “Gon, you are too optimistic and sometimes I can’t see what I should…” aka: logic

In that scene, Killua is admitting to knowing that Gon is an optimistic fool…but negates his own rational side and stays positive with Gon. WHICH EITHER WAY YOU LOOK AT IT – WOULD HAVE ENDED BADLY. If Killua said, “no gon, give up on kite and your optimism of him being alive” … that clearly wouldn’t have ended well. And the other side of it was…EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED. Gon’s optimism burning and crashing at his feat. 

Gon had a lot of growing and learning to do…it’s unfortunate that it came at such a shitty cost, but it happened. And Killua, his best friend, was there every step of the way. Just as Gon had saved Killua in the beginning, Killua had saved Gon in the end. 

smiling

damn sure Kite was alive

he wasn’t pretending or trying to sound positive, he genuinely believed in that

Gon believed that no matter what happened he would somehow save Kite. To Gon, the thought that Kite could be dead was nonexistent. It never once crossed his mind.

In that scene Killua had two options: either he would ignore logic and trust Gon or he would get real with Gon and watch the scene unfold. There was no right choice, Killua just picked one of the two and went with it. Why? We can’t know for sure, but we can speculate it’s for the same reason he knew Pitou was saving Komugi but couldn’t tell Gon about it.

We could spend hours questioning how much better or worse the outcome of Killua telling Gon about it in that scene would have been, but it doesn’t change the fact that Killua decided to keep quiet and listen and believe in Gon. I say believe because although Killua knew Kite had to be dead, he also truly, honestly believed in Gon, hence why he was so adamant in reminding Gon when he was facing Pitou that they were there to rescue Kite. It was why Killua told Meleoron that he would stay beside Gon.

It’s honestly a beautifully written scene because because of its complexity and because of how well Togashi handled the deconstruction of shonen tropes in it, but still so heart wrenching it honestly hurts to watch/read that scene, especially once you’ve watched episodes 116/131.

And the worst part about it is that although that scene was the point where Gon and Killua started to crack, it gets reduced by the majority of the fandom as a scene of Killua being mushy towards Gon. It’s really not. It’s the opposite in fact.

It’s about two thirteen year old children choosing to deny logic and believe in Kite’s recovery even though we, the viewers, are certain that Kite is not alive anymore. It’s for this very reason that the scene right afterwards the “you are light” one is this one:

This is illumis room

(He got in the picture ignore him)

This is millukis room

This is kallutos room

This is the guest room were the clown sleeps sometimes

OH THIS IS SUCH A GOOD CATCH, THANK YOU!!

So, to explain to everyone here who doesn’t know what furigana is, furigana is basically a reading aid in Japanese. So sometimes complicated kanji has text in hiragana (the basic alphabet) beside it to let readers know how to pronounce the word if they can’t read it.

I just googled ‘furigana’ to find some example images to better explain:

How it appears in manga:

So!! What @itsybitsyjoltik just pointed out is that, in the manga, Illumi’s dialogue is written as “Nanika belongs to me” but Nanika’s name has the furigana for the word “this” above it, so Illumi is clearly referring to Nanika but calling her “this”. He also uses the word ‘mono’ (もの/物), which refers to objects. (There is a way of using ‘mono’ to refer to people, but it’s written as 者 and almost always has a qualifier before it). So he is basically saying “this thing/object belongs to me”, and it’s VERY deliberately written by Togashi to drive home the point that Nanika is being treated as subhuman again.