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Summary - Why would the Force do this to him? Why was he being made to suffer?

The Force, why, why would it do this to him? Did it not love him? Create him?

The Force gave him no answer as everything went around him went pitch black.

- multichaptered, canon divergent during the Galactic Empire era.

You can read it here !

me v the freaky child i adopted

I apologize for the humungo post, I wanted all the images together in a master post instead of separate installments.

Remember the Jedi Knight Japanese Dictionary I posted about, with the artists Chifuyu Sasaki and Naoko Kawano? Well, @ciette on tumblr actually purchased the book (so lucky!) and was so kind in letting me see the inside by scanning all the A/P images. I haven’t gotten the book myself yet (I will someday, hopefully) but getting these scans was a major relief as I’m not all over the place wondering what I was missing out on. To top it off, it was right near my birthday; such a great gift! I wanted to post these one the 16th but circumstances made it too difficult. I’m just happy all over. I did my best; ran them through lots of filters, and with some personal touches, I think I just about re-created the look as they are in the book.

For more inside, check out ciette’s post as she also shares images from the Padawan Learners Dictionary. :D

I’ve said before I loooooove an Obi-Wan who doesn’t see himself until Anakin’s father until his exile on Tatooine, usually playing with the idea of “how else could I still love him”. HOWEVER, I think an Obi-Wan who needs to accept his role as Anakin’s father because it proves Vader is a different person and “no parent could ever do that to their child. He wasn’t Ani then no that was someone else that was someone else.” is very fun.

Obi-Wan vehemently denying Anakin can be brought back, doubting Luke could succeed not just because of old Jedi doctrine but because he needs to. If Anakin is in Vader, if Anakin could be saved, that would be Obi-Wan did leave him to burn alive. That would mean that Obi-Wan violently and angrily mauled the boy who used to flinch at loud sounds, the boy who Obi-Wan promised he would never physically hurt.

That would mean that Palpatine’s influence went beyond Anakin’s immediate fall. And Obi-Wan is deep in survival mode. He just can’t think about that.

It’s not that Obi-Wan always believed so strongly in this separation, or even that he always believes it come time for ANH. He has nightmares of little Ani screaming for help in the fire. He thinks of the dear Emperor when he see’s men around Mos Espa who try to take advantage of their status and age and exploit people who don’t know much. He see’s Anakin everywhere.

Obi-Wan is closer to understanding Anakin than he ever has before but he doesn’t let himself. 19 years is a long time and slowly, overtime Obi-Wan does convince himself that Anakin is dead. Vader is alive. Obi-Wan hurt Vader. Anakin could never come back and he is a machine not a man. Because Obi-Wan would never have abandoned the man who he called his brother and the boy who he cared for like a son.

It’s a fun inverse of Anakin who also needs to see Vader and Anakin as separate people. Lets adopt maladaptive coping skills with Papa!!!

We are too ready to accept Obi-Wan as a reliable narrator! The people of Tatooine call Obi-Wan a crazy old hermit. Let him be funny and light in ANH because he has been so desperate and alone his reality is a little warped.