niko

the best thing a man can be is gay and suicidal and miserable and utterly unlikable and unpleasant to be around and prone to addiction and abused and traumatized and not breaking the cycle and

used to be jump scares on youtube videos was the sudden demon or the screaming woman. now jump scares in videos is the nordvpn or the betterhelp. really makes you think. really makes you consider. really makes you believe. really makes you investigate. really makes you bifurcate. really makes you spiralize. really makes you shiver and dance. it makes you shed your skin. it makes you engage in futile acts. it really makes you partition the hard drive. it makes you cut apart the hard drive. making you dissect the hard drive. making you reconstitute the hard drive. making you fill the hard drive with a glue-like substance. making you fill the hard drive with a glue-like substance that is derived from beans. i am making you fill the hard drive with a glue-like substance that is derived from beans.

haha that's a nice starry-eyed ambition you've got there buddy. sure hope the narrative doesn't warp it into something ruthless and all-consuming

I’m ready to be transformed by the ibuprofen . I’m ready to be born again in its purifying light.

may whatever this year was never find me again

hey i’m going to the bottom of the lake to ponder my life and let the algae consume me, do you want anything?

brand new payment method is gore. feed meat organs directly into the vending machine slot. buy peprsi

give me more stories with a trans guy as the main character. give me a action movie where the hero has to take his shirt off bc he got hurt and we see his top surgery scars right in front of us. give me a sitcom where the trans guy talks openly about his period without him being laughed at. give me a drama where the main guy is a father and the story shows how his kid grew up while his dad went through hrt and turned from being a mom to a dad, without it implying that the trans dad is less a man bc he gave birth. give me a romcom where the main love interest is a trans guy. give me horror where the main guy has to face his abusive past from transphobic family members by fighting monsters, and winning through blood and sweat. give me a happy old trans man who lived through decades and survived despite the many tragedies. give me a young nervous trans man who just started to explore his identity and get support from older queer folk. give me trans men from different time period and countries and how their identity would be shaped there. give me more trans men. give them a happy ending.

 i think it was cruel to give lightning mcqueen a foot fetish, as he lives in a world where all feet are wheels. he has nothing.

sorry i wasnt talking to you i think