some things are better left unsaid

i really badly wanna hold you ngl

see but i like you and i dont actually know how to tell you for the first time i dont know how to approach that kind of thing

if id just kept my mouth shut this wouldnt be happening

youre sorry you kept me youre sorry you didnt give me up you wouldve been happier if you did and i know you would i dont want anyone else but you youre my bro i need you ive only ever needed you please god dont leave me

"no matter what mood you are in or how you are feeling, tho, i am very, very proud of you."

you havent been in my life for eighteen years why do you suddenly care now

THE FACT THAT HE HESITATED WHEN I ASKED ABOUT HIM CALLING ROXY HIS BABYMAMA SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TIPPING POINT AND IT WASNT IM SO FUCKING STUPID.

im a goddamn idiot all those fuckin times hes been joking about having made me calling me his kid like yeah im your kid your fucking kid brother im so im so!!! ugh i cant believe him

shes even calling me her child like why why didnt i know about this jesus christ im so im so !!!!!!!!!!!!

why couldnt he have just told me i cant. shes my mother??? i dont. god. fucking christ.

maybe i should keep calling her mama...

i cant believe shes my mother.

what the fuck