chaos but small

fun times !! am loving my usahana plushie <3 🍊🍵

heightened emotions that feel too big for his body, stressing him out, making him oversensitive and constantly on the verge of tears that's he's already embarrassed of. he hates being a crybaby, hates that it's all he's ever been. growing up and trying his best to hide his wet eyes, his hiccups and sniffles, learning to cry quiet— because if he didn't, his sadness was met only with ridicule. stop overreacting. stop manipulating your mother. stop being so loud.

so to try and stop it, to try and reel it in, he snaps. petulant, pouty. robby will touch him and he'll flinch away, snarl out a don't touch me. sometimes robby will try to talk and dennis will tell him to shut up. he's mouthy and he's difficult, and that makes him so devastated all over again, because all he's ever wanted was to be easy.

he hides in robby's closet to fix it. if he's the problem, he'll just remove himself from the situation. curl up in a pile of robby's clothes, rocking and whimpering, trying desperately to make himself feel big again. to be in control again. to stop wanting his papa so badly, to stop wanting softness so badly, to stop wanting to cry.

and that's how robby finds him, curled up and shuddering quieted cries, red-faced and broken. robby's heart hurts. he's quick to gather up his boy, ignoring the protests, ignoring the fists that beat at his shoulders and chest, only focused on keeping dennis folded into him until he calms, relaxes into the comfort robby has been trying so hard to offer. murmuring shh, shh, stop, baby, stop. you're okay. you're alright, it's papa. papa's here, baby, okay? you're okay. shh, shh, shh...

dennis is breaking, babbling all the awful thoughts that he's so careful to keep inside. begging for reassurance through whines and hiccups, sounding like a wounded puppy. apologizing over and over, saying m'sorry, m'sorry, m'so sorry, papa, please, please don' leave... please, m'so sorry for being bad! I didn' mean to! I swear I didn' mean t'be bad... m'no good... I jus' wanna be easy... m'such a bad kid.. m'sorry! m'so sorry...

robby blinks back his own tears at the sound of it, cuddles dennis closer, rocking him gently. as den's babbling fades robby carefully slips a thumb in his mouth, letting dennis take to it, suckle softly, shoulders relaxing now that he has something to help him regulate. slumping into robby, all weak and lax— so, so tired.

Oh, baby, you're really sick. I'm sorry to say this, but I think we need to go to the hospital. I know that sounds scary, but I'll be right there with you every step of the way. It's like going to the doctors, but instead of one doctor there will be a whole team of them to find out what's wrong and how make you better. You can bring all of your comfort items with you, and I'll even let you play on the IPad a little bit in the waiting room, okay? Ready to go, my brave kiddo?

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Colin Grey Moodboard!

Jennifers Body was my favourite film for a very long time when I was like. 11 until recently. so it has a special place in my heart, and Colin older brother. I adore him so much and to me hes very chill older brother that lets you hang around in his room and stuff. What can I say, I see anyone and can turn them into my older brother.

I kinda just wrote them down so they're not the best but I might make a whole thing later

📚Curious little who loves watching documentaries with their cg. They will just sit down while playing with toys or stuffies while cg watches both the tv and their adorable little

📚 Curious little whose favorite word is “why” and teacher cg who takes the time to answer every question. It's not their fault they want to know how everything works!

📚 Teacher cg who tells their little bedtime stories to sleep, but instead of Robin Hood or Cinderella, its history facts and stories of ancient civilizations

📚 Curious little who maybe doesnt wanna talk all the time but is always happy to listen to cg talk about their day or explain their new project

📚 (taking this as they are an actual school teacher) Teacher cg who grades papers while their little watches tv close beside them and maybe peaks over their shoulder from time to time

📚 Curious little who maybe gets frustrated over certain tasks so cg sits with them and patiently explains how to do something while slowly walking through the steps with them

Their carer finds them all the time, standing on a stool to stir pasta they’re making, muffling their cries with a teddy bear or cleaning up their own scraped knees. And carer is trying to be patient, rushes in and tries to take over so kiddo knows they’re not alone and they’re being taken care of now.

“I tan do it…”

Do not sexualize the collars or any parts of my posts for that matter