The diary of a fat brat ⚜️

2.April.2022 - 64.3kg

I turned of my phone yesterday and i am using tumblr on my laptop. Before turning of my phone i posted a pic in my whatsapp-story “bye” i was so down and had several mental breakdowns...and i was shaking and couldn’t breath. Anyone annoyed me and that is why i will be offline on my phone until tomorrow night. I don’t care if there is some one of my “friends” who need an advice or anything. why i habe to be a therapist for anyone while i need a real therapist ?! Especially one friend...

Hey everyone. Its me and i am back to the game. I had several problems and thanks to PTSD i gained a lot. I am at 64kg right now. But i am motivated as hell to lose it all again. I will reply to all of your messages soon. This is my new blog my old one @40kgfairy got t-worded but also not t-worted so i will only use this one ;) DM are always open ❤️🐧

WHAT HAPPEND ? several things and still my worst enieme is my mind. I am dealing with panic attacks every day (several times at least 5 times a day) I hit rock bottom over and over again. I can’t forget the things that happend in my childhood or the things my abusive ex did to me. I don’t want to be more detailed here but if you want to know ,ore just ask me👻I feel so alone and sad but instead of stop eating to “punish myself” or “trying to feel better about myself” I ATE AND ATE AND ATE but surprise surprise THIS MADE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE. Now i am not only depressed, filled with anxiety and fighting with panic attacks - I AM ALSO FAT🥲☠️🤡

HERE ARE MY NEW AND EMBARRASING STATS

Height: 5′1 (1.55m) i turned 23 on 25th March lol but still a fat little biatch

HG: 70kg ( in 2018) CW: 64.3kg (today 02.04.2022) HG(before PTSD hits me) 53.0kg TG: 48kg GW: 42kg UGW: 38kg