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13. here we go again

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WE all love blue

EXACTLY BLUE IS PEAK

I just noticed you haven't posted in a while I hope you're fine :c

Not to rush you or anything take all the time you need to write ofc <3

12. thinking bout u

w.c: 550

the little black velvet box sat on your nightstand like a ticking time bomb, the feeling of wanting to know what sat inside was a thrilling and terrifying prospect at the same time. the uncertainty kept gnawing at you, the thought keeping you from sleep, which the lack of put you into this mess.

your thoughts were broken by ayaka coming into your room, “how are you name..?” she then walked over to your bed. “xiao came last night… are you sure you want this collab to happen now of all times?” you then sat up, pushing yourself up. “i’m sure. i need to just stop hiding from this mess… because the longer i do the worse it gets…” ayaka then nodded her head, “breakfast is ready for when you want it.” she then left the room, leaving you with your thoughts.

you finally got out of bed an hour later, changing into something different, knowing you couldn’t rot in your pyjamas. breakfast was a more simple meal, some french toast and some fruits.

furina was sat next to you, eating some toast and butter, “are you finally going to swim in the lake? the waters the perfect temperature!” you then turned to her, “no… i’m recording with xiao later…” furina then let out a long sigh, “you have to go into the lake at least once… it’s been two weeks since we got here…” you then giggled slightly at her theatrics “fine… i guess i will.”

it was around 11 when xiao finally woke up from his ‘nap’, albedo had helped him set up a make shift recording studio in one of the spare rooms. “so… what’s the song like? i mean is it happy? sad? happy and sad at the same time?” you were looking at xiao, swirling slightly in the spinny chair you were sat on. “sad. just sad.” he then handed the lyrics of the song. “oh yeah just sad.” you then looked back up at him.

“so how is it gonna work? are we signing it duet style or am i just kinda backing vocals?” he then moved from looking at the screen to you, “duet.” you then smiled slightly, feeling the slight awkwardness in the room. “how is he..?” xiao then finally met your eyes, “sad. he’s barely left your apartment since you ran away without any word.” you then nodded your head slightly.

“i did do that…” your eyes then flickered away looking out the window, “i regret it. I regret leaving without saying anything… but i don’t think i could’ve faced him after the song leaked… considering… you know…” you could now feel his glare on you “considering what?” you then gulped, facing him. “that the song was about him.” you then immediately turned your back, looking anywhere but xiao. “so it was… we all had a feeling it was but scara kept denying it.”

you then turned to xiao, “he is…? i mean i thought it was kinda obvious…” he then let out a soft laugh “it was. well for at least people who know the two of you. your fans have no idea.” you finally felt yourself ease a bit since you got here, “well thats reassuring. i don’t like it when my fans try to paternity test my songs…”

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11. dont worry ill make you worry

w.c :934

!!slightly suggestive!!

you remembered the first time you shared a bed with scaramouche, god how could you ever forget. the moment was sweet and pure and tender, and loving and just oh so perfect. the way his lips met yours, how his hands stayed on your waist, grounding you the whole time.

you knew you fell in love with him that night. he just made you feel so fuzzy and warm, the way he cleaned you up and held you after, the soft kisses he pressed against your forehead. he was just so perfect. too perfect almost.

and maybe that was why you had to ruin everything.

you dont know why dottore asked you out. you don’t know why you said yes. but it just happened one day. and it ruined almost everything between you and scaramouche.

he already hated dottore enough before you started dating him, but your relationship made him despise him. after you started dating dottore scara would avoid you like the plague. he would take days to respond to your texts and would only hang out with you in a group setting.

and probably the worst thing of all, dottore wasn’t even that good of a boyfriend. he would barely give you any attention, he was always constantly out gambling with his friends. he was just an asshole and sex with him just felt like a chore.

it only took you two months to regret saying yes. and you wanted to break up with him so badly, yet you couldn’t, well not without causing a full fall out of your friend group. thats why the second he cheated you ran as fast as you could.

that night after your break up became public you weren’t shocked scaramouche texted you first, you weren’t shocked that he came over almost immediately. and deep down it was what you had wanted for yourself ever since that first week of dating dottore. for scaramouche to come back to you.

and you found it ironic that the second you got him back, you fled scared of how he might react to you admitting the fact that you loved him. and partially at the fact you would have to admit you hurt him.

furina jumping into the water snapped you out of your thoughts. you were sat on the deck of the lake house on one of the lounge chairs with a parasol hiding you from the sun.

ayaka was inside, grabbing drinks for everyone, furina was splashing around in the lake, and albedo was drawing one of the nearby mountains.

ayaka brought you a glass of lemonade over, encouraging you to take a drink, so you did, letting the sweet liquid gliding past your lips and down your throat. “are you okay?” ayaka sat down next to you.

“im as okay as i can be” you then put the glass down onto a small table inbetween you and ayaka. “just thinking…” she then looked at you, “about him?” she didn’t need to say his name, you knew exactly who she was talking about. you nodded your head, looking out to the water rather than meeting her eyes.

“he’ll understand you know?” you then finally met her gaze, “i know. i think that what makes it worse.” you then looked away again, “the fact he’s just going to understand why i left him the second he had me back. and he’s going to forgive me. despite the fact i abandoned him knowing it’s what he hates most.”

you then sighed, and ayaka put her hands on yours, “i know this whole situation is awful, and it hurts the both of you. but it happened, and the only thing we can do is learn from it. so please name… don’t blame yourself.” she then got up leaving you alone to stare out at the water.

sleep was evading you, as always, you hadn’t been able to sleep since leaving scaramouche in your apartment.

you ended up going to get a glass of water hoping it could help you in your struggle to sleep. much to your disarray it didn’t. you looked out from the floor to ceiling windows in the kitchen before deciding to go onto the deck.

the night was calm, peaceful, almost too quite. well except from the occasional rustle. the one thing you had enjoyed about being away from the city was the quiet. eventually you found yourself tapping along to the rustling, even while taking a break from making music you couldn’t help yourself, and suddenly you had a full song formed in your head. the lyrics spilled out of you onto a notepad, mentally reminding yourself to send them to xiolen later.

after ten minutes, you felt somewhat satisfied with the song you had made when you turned to go back to your room, when the door opened. xiao then walked in, dragging a small black suitcase behind him, “name… i didn’t think you would be awake.”

you then let out a small laugh, “it’s fine… i’ve not been able to sleep these past few nights.” he then walked closer, “are you okay?”, you knew xiao, well slightly, he could be cold at times but he always cared, kind of like scaramouche. it made perfect sense why they were friends. “i’m fine. well as fine as i can be… you?” your eyes then met his, “i’m fine, if you don’t mind im going to go to my room now… sorry for disturbing you.” you then smiled then let him leave, “wait…” he then turned back around, “scara wanted me to give you this.”

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10. ive been on my knees

w.c: 418

scaramouche’s pov:

it had been two weeks since he had last saw you, one morning you were there and by that night you were gone. he had been moving on auto pilot, simply just surviving the day. he hadn’t left your apartment since that day, it felt like he had only just got you back and you were gone again. and he hated that.

he woke up in your bed as always, your scent of sweet vanilla slowly fading from the sheets. he groaned, pushing his face further into the pillow you normally rested on. the morning brought nothing new, well until childe came over around 11, he brought over some food and something to drink, he knew that he needed a little pick up, as he did yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that.

the rest of the afternoon was spent with childe, nothing interesting happened, he just played games with childe.

at night he kept drinking until childe put him to bed, in your bed as he refused to sleep anywhere else. the next morning he woke up and knew he would do it all over again.

your pov:

albedo, ayaka and furina hadn’t left the lake house since you came there, they had been nothing but comforting and had helped you through everything since your song got leaked. not much productive things were happening most of the time. you were simply just enjoying your time away from the city, but also you missed it. or more accurately you missed your apartment, and your routine, and scaramouche. waking up without him, not seeing him, not being able to be able to be held by him. you just missed him. but you couldn’t face him. not now, but that couldn’t stop you from missing him. one week after you got there you finally got the courage to turn your phone on, and he hadn’t stopped texting you since you left, and you couldn’t handle the guilt of not responding, so you turned your phone off and never turned it back on. outside of your self-misery you finally went back to writing some songs, which furina categorised as ‘yearning’. and more excitedly you had got the opportunity to work with xiao, he wanted to collab for a song and you had made sure that he really wanted to, and he did. you had been speaking for a few days about the song and he was coming to the lake house next week. and everything was… fine.

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