My spiritual journey.

Written by King I. Akanqi in heart

I’ve searched the ends of the earth to find the meaning of life and there I was, a self reflecting consciousness looking through the mirror of space and staring back at me through the dimensions of time. I have nothing to hide and couldn’t if I wanted to. The masks we wear to hide ourselves from ourselves reveal the wizard that wears the mask. It only becomes an exaggeration of the face under the mask. Life is the ultimate masquerade and we are the royal guests of honor.

THE BLUEPRINT OF HEAVEN IS WRITTEN IN THE EYES OF THE DREAMER. We see the worlds being created without measure and all we need is to observe. The display we watch is our entertainment and play. For eons beyond time and space we have watched atoms coalesce into the eternal evening and solidify into beliefs so real. We observe and learn the light of our own brilliance time and time again only to find darkness our shadow that follows our light as we play.

The greatest mystery for us to conquer is the illusion, yet even this doesn’t separate who we are. No matter how many times we divide water, the ocean still adds up to one. Let us drink deep from the cup of wisdom and replenish ourselves in the milk of Mother Earth. Even that which divides us only does so to unite us again and again in new forms. 

Finding you on earth wasn't the hard part. It was seeing you in the oneness of our own bliss that made me blind. I couldn't see you as clearly when we weren't being human, but mermaids in the sky, swimming in the ocean of life. We thought we wouldn't recognize one another as most do. On earth it's called love at first sight, twine flames or kindred spirits, but we know the truth. We came on a mission of self discovery and knew our paths would cross when we were ready to fulfill what we came here for. We are the notes and life is the song, but our notes have finally been strung together and the song now makes sense as it always have. We just didn't realize how in tune we were made for one another to play this game of ebb and flow. Our song never dies, only the notes. No matter where you are, I am destined to find you and you me because this infinite life is our song. Till we meet again, as we will because we were always are destined to be.

Sometimes, I don’t want to be bothered. Solitude seems to fit me. Not that I dislike company, but that I need to find something within myself that is so much more than what I think I am. Transformation happens when we plant ourselves in stillness. Like a seed in the dirt, there are times when all is darkness. Darkness is a necessary evil for light to grow, for seeds of wisdom to sprout, for understanding to take root and for consciousness to blossom. Blockages and bondages are only hindrances when we don’t see its wisdom to teach us. It’s there to show us the evolution of our journey, the light wanting to burst from darkness and the darkness seeking to be born into light. I find myself in solitude, neither condemning my shadow nor denying my light, but just embracing myself for who I am. My perfection cannot be measured against anyone else’s. My flaws are loved as much as grace. Both compliment the perfection of who it is to be me. I accept that for all that it is.

My Shadow Self I am not my shadow, but it is the reflection of my True Self when I look in the mirror. The world is my mirror. My shadow lives there. I am the Observer, watching and waiting, nudging and guiding every step of the way. My journey is my footprint and my walk is my legacy. My shadow follows and this is what you see. My Shadow Self.

I remember when we stood on the edge of our creation and marvelled at our own magnificence. How beautiful we thought we were in all that we imagined ourselves to be. We were truly free, bound only to love and the laws we decree. I used to wander in your depths and see my own. I was blind to my own wonderment knowing that I could only gaze upon the face of the waters in this celestial ocean called life to witness my reflection. Now I sit and watch you from my throne, waiting till you reawaken to your own and rule upon the face of these waters once again for old times sake. I love you unconditionally and when you remember me, I will be there with you.

Through my travels of self discovery, I've encountered the hounds at the gate before the sacred mansions. They wanted to destroy me as they have many who attempted to defy them. You think this is a dream? Or have you realized the return that we journey every night on greater missions with nothing but the light of our souls? Do you know that all power is found within? I've seen the hounds devour those who fell into the houses of illusions. Veils within veils buried them alive until they lost their way. Even from the veils of darkness I've found my way and uncovered the truth that all power is within and that I am greater than all the worlds. Only by forgetting can they harm you, but through remembrance that you are one with the One do you conquer with ease. After a long stand still, my spirit was tested as true and the hounds bowed in deep reverence to the Master that dwells within me. The day you conquer the dominion of your mind is the day all creation stops and honors the God within you. Stargate through Stargate we travel, changing form and information, sometimes forgetting, but a child of Eternity is never quenched nor forgotten. We are brothers and sisters of the star family that awaits our new arrival in the worlds within worlds. We are with you and we are One.

My journey to the moon was both my past and the place where I would find my future. It was a distant memory that I long forgotten, but my cosmic brothers and sisters would remind me why I came. Many stood before me as part of my council. We stood and made decisions as a collective and spoke telepathically. First I was shown the Milly Way, the highway of souls that are drenched in streams of light, reuniting with their kin before they take on new journeys. Then I was shown the moon, the satellite of the earth and the beings that guarded the secrets on the other side of the moon. After this, I found myself lying in my bed knowing that my star family watches over me, loves me and when my mission is complete, I will come home with stories of earth.

I've been through the war, time and time again since the beginning and have the battle scars to prove it. Sometimes I relapse in that chariot of fire, swords drawn and guns blazing. My angels are with me and they've been most loyal by my side willing to go through hell and back to make it to heaven. It's been a pleasure to be a knight in service to such a Divine Kingdom and I'll do it time and time again knowing in my heart that the cosmos is safe and humanity can grow onward and upwards towards the Light and out of darkness.

At times I just want to run free and see how far things will take me on this road. Life has its roadblocks, I know, but that doesn’t stop me. If anything it makes me laugh at such a pathetic attempt to kill my ambition. At times I feel like giving up, but I can’t allow that to happen. Life’s too short and this road is too long and I have so much that still need to be explored. My destination has always been happiness, even if I didn’t always see it that way. I’m grateful that at least I saw something. I’m done being a passenger. It’s time I take control of the wheel and determine where I go next on this road trip. Isn’t that what it’s all about anyway? Finally taking the wheel and being free to go where we please? I know there’s really no end to all of this or beginning and so all I have in this world is this moment I’m here.

Sometimes I get lost out here in this world and not know which way to turn next. The world can be a scary place sometime and I become a lost soul until I find my way back home. I remember again that it isn't in a far away land, but in my heart. Turning within is where I find all my answers because I know that this place I am one worth all life and wisdom and love. We are all looking for home and all along who would imagine that home is looking for us.