I Swim For Better Days Despite The Absence of Sun

Right now I'm kind of staggering between the different stages of grief. I don't even know how to explain what one direction meant to me as a teen, or where to begin talking about not only how much, but just how they affected me, but if you were a fan back in the early 2010's, or you just followed me or any other 1D stan way back in the day, then you just know. There were times when I was literally only kept living because of one direction. I'm watching old videos and it's absolutely heart breaking with hindsight. RIP Liam 💕🕊

Hey would any of my followers are under the age of 27, have any connection to Judaism and haven’t been to Israel wanna help me out, can you dm me?

Currently so homesick for Israel. i need to go back asap

Wow, we went to the kotel yesterday and it was just. Oh my god. I don’t know how to properly explain it.  I want to remember that moment for the rest of my life. It was overwhelming and emotional but I’m glad I cried. I feel like a part of something so much bigger. At the time I felt emotionless and but couldn’t stop crying and staring at the wall. Once we left I wanted nothing more than to go back. I know at the time I was, I don’t want to say dissociating but I was definitely having some sort of transcendental experience. I LOVE BEING JEWISH. I know one day I’ll return. I could even see myself  making Aliyah one day. Just when we were all singing and praying during havdalah last night I felt such a connection to something so much deeper. Yes this is a Jewish trip but in that moment it was more than an ethnicity and religion, it’s an ancient culture that’s survived against all odds and we are all apart of that no matter our observance or background. I felt so proud to be a part of this. I love the staff’s passion and excitement for sharing Judaism with everyone especially those of us who didn’t grow up with it. I’m definitely going to thank them before the end of this trip. Going to Yad Vashem today and its definitely going t be another emotional day.

NO because the funniest shit happened in dance tonight. All class it was piano versions of Encanto Moana and Hamilton. it was a vibe and pretty different than our normal stuff. We get to the end of class and we get ready to mark grand allegro standing in sous-sus our teacher plays the music AND OUT OF NOWHERE WITH NO WARNING ITS FUCKING CATS. NIT JUST CATS BUT THE FUCKING CATS SONG. Me and my friend take a split second to look at each other like ”is this what i think it is” and we collapse in laughter. like all class we’re dancing to lin manuel miranda then we finish with fucking memories. It was the funniest thing i swear to god.