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Xíu / starmocha. She/Her. Personal blog that accidentally became a LNDS blog that accidentally became a horny Zayne, Caleb, and Sylus blog, but is still very much a personal blog. I just personally think they're neat and have three holes for a reason. 💁‍♀️ 18+ only. Very unserious. Possibly unhinged. Always down to clown. I'll do what I want. 💖

recent writings.

☆-— ❝i moaned your name last night❞ // OT5 + Reader. 4.3k words (total). ao3. ☆-— A Happy Penguin Nest // Zayne + Son. 2.2k words. ao3. ☆-— Bride of the Dragon King — Part 1 // Sylus/Reader. 17.3k words. ao3. ☆-— dirty fantasies // Zayne/MC. 760 words. ao3. ☆-— pretty afterglow // Zayne/MC. 1.1k words. ao3.

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LADS sideblogs where I document game lores for my personal reference: @deepspace-orbit @sylus-bigcacawk @large100percentsugarlattetogo @x02-candyclouds @bunnieshotpot

@engraved-affection is a side blog for reblogging LADS fanarts (I still reblog on main too lol). Run entirely on queue.

@pandaalus is where I live my truth ✨️

@royal-shining (Several Shades of Sadism fanblog / archive) + @starppears (Mr Love: Queen's Choice archive) - forever in pain gimme my husbands back 😭😭😭😭😭

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YOU REMEMBER 🥹

you can say look deadass you're tripping, touch some grass

cause I spent 2 hours of my scrutinizing every detail of GoA and Goddess MC's clothes...

i'm a 98% convinced zayne's choker in silent underflow is partly inspired by the first half of Goddess mc's choker

I also noticed that Goddess mc's long necklace is in the same pattern as the back of zayne's end of depths overcoat which, in turn, is also based on the shapes we see on trial grounds and when activating the nexus in the no hunt zone in ms

also, his first bday outfit has a little triangle on its back

which leaves me with two questions:

with what we have so far, were GoA and Goddess mc the first of the gods and he saw her death in multiple lifetimes, then she died, he did the ritual, broke natural order, ressurrected her thus creating a variable that should not exist and started wearing the blindfold so he wouldn't see the end of anything but couldn't help hinself but it puts a lot of emphasis on zayne calling themselves a "power couple" if you introduce him to your family??

AND

if i'm not tripping, and that choker is inspired by goddess mc, then apart from having an entire card dedicated to MoF, we got more references to GoA than i thought

1--"gave my heart to you and long time again" literally. ripped it from his chest and all.

2--" should the love be true, the deity will walk among mortals and become one himself" he's a morral, dressed as MoF, blessing the mortals, walking among them while having been one

3--the love making akin to a ritual in a sacred place, in healing, warm water covered in flowers and bamboo leaves

4--and now the choker, more emphasis on when she says he's wearing something that matches her outfit

which, in a way, merges GoA and MoF, kinda making him go through trials and punishments until he reached the zen state he is in MoF, but I would not know where to put Forseer

it'd make sense for him to be punished by the other gods after what he did in GoA, so Foreseer in the middle of GoA abd MoF wouldn't be so far fetched since he destroys the tower and says he will never forget her again, I thought this was for ms, but jn MoF he seems to know exactly who she is

so he really had every opportunity and right to become an awful, mean god, but mc's love changed that, transceded time and space

which makes sense why he's a doctor and why he never had any doubt that he'd be a good one and is also the reason he cares so fucking mhch about every little thing, why he's got the mindset that one minute spent together is better than a minute spent alone or wishing to be together, why he's so sweet with his little patients, his parents...it's all because of mc

i need to go to bed but i'm so sick and havjng fever delusions apparently

so maybe i am tripping

anyway, i know you like caleb too, so i hope you get him in the first ten pulls ✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

Not you making me go check... /lh

Imma butt in and say that maybe i'm slow to pick up on this but during that first round in SU these chain of events happen:

We ride him

We come

We collapse onto him

He checks his hand

AND WE APOLOGIZE

And you might be like, anon, we have eyes, we know this

Yeah, but I just realized she was so horny for him she came earlier and faster than what they're used to and that's why she apologizes, blames the hot spring for bewitching her and he looks smug and teases her because he's like "sure but you're pulling back slightly to be the menace i love and tease me cause you want more"

And that hasn't left my mind

She literally came the second he was inside her because they're not used to not sleeping together anymore, in both the innocent and naughty way

I don't think I'll ever move on from this card, his excellent stamina, it wouldn't shock me if he had to carry her back to their room because her legs wouldn't stop trembling

i almost passed out when reading snowy serenity for the first time, then absolute zeal and his hands covered mc's ENTIRE FACE

and i died in silent underflow a billion times. when he checks his work and how much she came is brilliant but what killed me was when he grabbed her knees. the contrast of how worked up he is and how rough he wants to be but she wants to hold hands AND THE SIZE DIFFERENCE 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

it doesn't help that he grabs her other knee anyway and keeps her well secured in his arms while thrusting up into her

i know the lore of his scars is sad as hell but will you judge me if i say i say i'm attracted to all of them as well? it's the combination of a handsome man with huge hands and battle scars mixed with the ones from his evol backlashes and the fact you can see he's been through hell and back and still chooses to be kind and mindful 🥹

sooo for mlqc, i started watching some videos of lucien but then fell for victor 😭😭 i like his voice when he calls mc a dummy cause it's affectionate but at the same time he says it like "you dummy 🫦"

i recently missed him and read the karma where he's a tree spirit and mc's also one or a flower one and he makes her bloom again and again as a metaphorfor them having sex. the art is so beautiful. i like lucien's too, the promise they'll eventually devour each other...

honestly, forever grateful for everyone who keeps posting videos and translating the cards for us

i saw the latest banner pv where victor is basically tarzan and i'm totally not jealous that other people will get to read it, not jealous at all, i'm coping so well

LOL shooting at zayne by accident is funny though, it happens much more when i'm using GoA as my companion because that lovely idiot keeps dashing through the screen dodging enemies all mighty and powerful and i'm just trying to survive so anything in front of me is getting shot at or sliced through

i feel bad sometimes so i take him to the house system and gift him jasmines and dance with him and kiss him

he gets all bubbly so i know we're cool 🤣🤣

saw the pics of your jasmines and they seem to be thriving though, i hope they bloom beautifully ♥️

🫠🫠🫠 I love his scars too and everything that makes him him. Actually, I hope we get to see him in future cards in short sleeves more. He doesn't really have any personal outfits wearing short sleeves/sleeveless... 🥺👉👈

Oh! NGL my guess was either Lucien and/or Victor lol just based on some other Zayne girlies I've spoken to who also gravitate to Lucien and/or Victor 😌 Victor is my second favorite LI... I love his "dummy" lines too LOL I saved nearly all of his "dummy" voicelines...

THE TARZAN-ESQUE BANNER IS SO UNEXPECTED. I feel like I've never seen this theme before, and I've played so many otome games in the past too lol ngl (aside from Gavin ofc) I love Kiro's card the most. His Helios form with the silver hair, golden eyes, and tanned skin? He looks so ethereal. 🥺

LOL oh wait this reminds me of this edit I saw once where a player was so frustrated doing one of the battles in AC, because all of the LIs kept getting in her way as she was trying to do one of the battle tasks

i'd flirted with mlqc over yt for a bit, never downloaded it though (yes, i regret that immensely), then they announced lads and zayne had already caught my eye due to him helping us use his bow and arrow in the beta (i love the elaborate myth companion oath and resonance attacks, but i so wish i could use regular zayne as a companion cause the fact she uses his bow and arrow that he creates on the spot for us is so important to me but there's no way for me to get through the higher trials like that. although GoA zayne dropping from the skies in all his glory with his arrows in his resonance skill is everything and more)

but anyway, i resisted

then was like, nah, downloading it. 3 months after official launch. the battle system also lured me in cause it reminded me of the final fantasy battle system when it came down to protocores (which in ff are called materia)

and now here i am. i considered buying jasmines plants but i have cats and was afraid it'd harm them (like, just the pheromones of orchids and lillies can be deadly, so i stick with roses and succulents), plus i'm pretty sure the poor flower would not thrive under my care and i'd feel horrible

i also had to add to my expenses a zayne's funds section. i work for my kitties and my fictional man. funsies left a long time ago. did they have to make him so insanely well developed and lovely and tall and handsome who's got huge hands and i love huge hands,like, sir, pls

fun fact about doing trials with him: i have chronic migraines so the brightness of my ipad is always at its lowest...sometimes i start attacking him thinking he's an enemy 😭😭😭

he has saved me so many times cause he was on the other side of the screen with me shooting at him while i was about to die from the wanderer literally sneaking up on me only for him to swoop in and block the attack 🥹🫶

LOL emphasis on personal i just truly couldn't be bothered to make a separate side blog so welcome to my dumpster fire main instead lmao 🙂

WAIT A MINUTE WHO CAUGHT YOUR EYE IN MLQC 👀 I'm like still going through withdrawals... and just staring longingly at China and Taiwan servers with all of the cards I want...

I'm so happy GOA uses a bow and arrow, because that caught my eye in the beta stage, too. I know as a doctor, Zayne leans more toward being a pacifist... so I like seeing his other selves using weapons LOL and I mean DAR aside.... you get what I mean...

You probably made a smart decision with the jasmine unlike me because I did research on them before buying and they seem to be pretty high-maintenance, especially if you intend to grow them as an indoor plant (needs regular watering, pruning, and fertilizing...). ;~~~; My area would probably only allow them three or four months of warmth and sunlight outdoor, so they would need to be indoor most of the year anyway, and preferably in a very sunny area. As my bedroom is the only sunny spot... I may choke on the fragrance who knows we'll find out :D

A FELLOW HAND WHORE LOL <3 People always talk about Sylus' hands (...valid), but I've been pointing out Zayne's hands since Snowy Serenity's original run 😩😩😩 They really perfected him in a way that real men are now undesirable to me wait a minute....

😭😭😭 omg noooo not you attacking our pookie on accident </3 I can't remember, but I feel like there's a videogame out there where if you attack your teammates, they legit take damage too, like, imagine that happening here!! ...It would lowkey be funny, especially if there are spoken lines calling this out lol....