Breathe it all in, Write it all out

let my life be a love letter to you.

unthinking bliss, unwanting hands

i bet the sun always shines

and i’m never on your mind

but you have always been out there

just waiting to be written about

said space was what you need,

with oceans between us

do you finally feel complete?

i hope loving me is never thought of as a mistake

to want to be a better person?

a breeze that lifts you off your feet.

suddenly, you feel lighter.

does not mean i am not full of wanting

was to make it through july

because august would remind me

that old habits never die

AND YOU LOVED ME SILENT

CLIPPED OFF MY WINGS

AND THEN MADE ME A SIREN

FOREVER CALLING FOR YOU

TO CRASH INTO ME

fissured but still whole

beaten but still beating

my kaleidoscope feelings

my everlasting hope

please be kind

please

she is drenched head to toe,

it must have been raining for days.

i sit her by the fireplace, offer a blanket.

she cries.

her sobs fill the room with sorrow,

the air starts to taste like dread.

i draw circles around her back,

i comb her hair,

i sing her lullabies,

she goes quiet in my arms.

drifts into sleep and a world of nightmares.

i light a candle,

i crack open a window,

i make myself a cup of coffee,

she will have company through the night.

tomorrow she will be dry.

and maybe she will be ready to leave.

but if not,

she is free to stay.

to her, i whisper “there is no rush,

you have all the time in the world.”

— S.Y. // face your feelings, i dare you.

blaring loud flashing red

stop signs in a one-way street

deafened by my own heartbeats

reason stomped and set ablaze

eyes clouded by a burning haze

i can’t hear nor think nor see

i can’t hold back this rage in me

— S.Y. // sirens