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ARGHHH ITS NOT FAIR 😭😭💗

Take this absolutely disgusting filth.

my interpretation/translation/whatever of the lullaby from spy x family anime ep 24 (part A) and manga chapter 35

you know that lullaby from twi-loid/[redacted]'s flashback that drunk yor sings to him while he's unconscious because she knocked him out? yeah i obsessed over that for about an hour this morning so i decided i'm going to write my own version of it (hopefully i can record it someday but for now i'm just going to show my process)

so firstly, i was reading this wonderful fic "The Perfect Actor" by @sophiamarieispinkbunny-chan which i will link here (sorry about the random tumblr notif but this all started because of your gorgeous fic so i'm making it your problem)

then i just had to listen to the original because i couldn't stop Thinking

This is the spotify link for the OST track, just called "Lullaby"

i found this spotify link from this reddit post:

the reddit post led me to this "Schlafe, mein Prinzchen, schlaf ein" ("Sleep, my little prince, fall asleep") and this is its wikipedia page:

so from there, i was like...hmm...i bet i could attempt to translate the meter into my own lyrics and i can use the (probable) influence from "schlafe, mein Prinzchen," so i listened to that lullaby, looked at the structure (couplets followed by the refrain of "schlaf ein, schlaf ein!") and then doubled back to look at the japanese (latinized) which had the structure of line/line, "drift to sleep/O nemurinasai" so i went from there

it went as far as me writing a lyric, listening to the original melody, then saying "yeah i think that fits well enough"

but anyways all that being said this is what i came up with (open to feedback/extra verses as i could only come up with 3)

Under the stars | no matter where you are

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

Your castle is at rest | and the sun now has left

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

--

Under the moon | and never too soon

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

The day has been long | but the dusk now is gone

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

--

Under the sky | to dream-land you fly

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

With sweetness and bliss | and hope of happiness

Prince of mine, now drift, to sleep

I might have to, in fact...

Not exactly like this, but...

Obviously Anya is adopted. We all know this. She knows this. She loves her family but knows it is incredibly fragile.

But unlike most adoption stories (say Natsume Yuujinchou) Anya is not adopted into a loving functional family who's main goal is to support and love her until she heals from all the hurt she has been through.

Because Everyone in their family is adopted.

Yor enters thinking she is entering an existing family dynamic of a man and his daughter. She is the step mother, eagerly wanted but a definite outsider. She does not know about how they lost Loid's first wife. They both Never mention her but Anya clearly has Huge feelings about her Mommy that she cannot touch. Because Loid refuses to acknowledge her. Which means she's not allowed to.

She's a wife brought in to solve a problem. The fact she adores Anya and loves Loid (eventually) doesn't make her any less of an outsider from her perspective. To Yor she's the adopted family member.

Meanwhile Loid, the one who brought them all together almost instantly finds himself on the outside of the family. He works too much and doesn't make it home for dinner frequently. He struggles to connect with his 'daughter' and wife. Can't understand either of them despite constant efforts. Something incredibly distressing for him.

Yor instantly connects with this child when he struggled to hold her hand in public. In his eyes Yor and Anya are a family and he is the outsider only there for the mission. The man who is destined to Not be there. He too often fills the role of the outside child brought into a happy family. One he constantly feels he is fumbling or failing. (If I'm not good, if i'm not perfect- my family will leave me. So I have to be. I have to figure out how to be better)

They are a family of adopted members all holding so tightly to each other. Each one of them chooses the others over and over again. Struggles against their own limitations and fears to be a part of a family they're all terrified to really call their own.

But it is that choice that makes them a family. Not blood or marriage or any certificate. That they all keep trying to be a family to the others. I'll be a good girl and study hard Papa. I'll be a good wife, I'll play my role well so don't abandon me. I'll be a good father and husband, I will try to be a good husband and father if you both will just stay with me. Please. I will figure out how.

We all can understand as outsiders that little [Redacted] thinking all Ostonians are evil is bad and that his father is right to be angry with him (not to say the slap was appropriate). We Know that when he almost kills Frankie saying the same things it's Wrong. (You're monsters, you started this war. Yeah, that's what my side says about you too) We can objectively see that no matter what the SSS did to that man on the bus or his daughter that making hostages of kids is won't make it right. We might feel for them but we care more about the victims. They're 6 year olds who we love.

But these are just little guys! Just folks who want to fix the show! The audience agrees it was shit! The cast does! Everyone is united! Haven't you ever loved a story only to be betrayed at the end? The audience has! YOU probably have been! What if you Could fix it! Let's fix everything!

It's fairly easy to think that in 130. Everyone starts buying into it! The audience, the actors, even Yor and Yuri get wrapped up in the excitement of it!

Yor gets pumped up by the idea of practicing play a role! She'll prove that she IS cut out for this! Yuri was worried at first but he's the assistant director now! They're having a good time. You should be too!

Twilight, our only pov who was In the war - who saw and felt that propaganda first hand- who killed people, a lot of people in the name of a story he was sold, is the only one who keeps trying to remind us.

Aren't we trying to end this quickly? Isn't the priority to just get this done? Sure he's hamming up the 'my wife' angle for Yuri but his 'phew' the his safety is more certain now that he's not on camera and his logic are sound. Just get this over with and done so we all go home safely.

But forget that! It's so cute when he defends Yor here! Don't threaten her- stop it! Look Yor's not afraid and she can sense danger. If they were Really a threat she'd be concerned, right?

But he is. They are. These are people who have prioritized the Story in their heads over the lives of other people. No matter how warm there smile is when they greet you.

And at this moment we are all reminded what the last chapter wanted us to forget. What everyone forgot when they were having such a good time. That they are in danger. These people do not care about them or value their lives. Their lives are worth less than the story to these people.

These people are just as dangerous as the bus hijackers, who by their need to hurt the SSS and get their people back (all dead we are told) and by the loss of their loved ones- decide to hold two busses full of children hostage. They are the same as Spoofy when he (almost) kills Frankie. When he kills everyone Spoofy Didn't 'let' escape. They are people who have bought into the story of their victimization and pain that they will do anything to set the scales right just like the dog bombers. Like Edgar in chapter one, who is so plainly evil its hard even to understand him.

The people in this arc are not hard to understand. They love their show. Their story. So much that they would do anything to fix it.

Even kill.

Read this as Loid loving Yor if you want. Read this as Twilight protecting a civilian if you want. Read this as Twilight reacting first because he has been in this situation before. Read this as Yuri having to pause to remember they were a threat when Twilight, who even when he pretended to be a sweet man eager to help with the set, did not forget. He is the only one we see who did not. (Did you? I wouldn't be surprised if you did too. You were meant to.) Because [Redacted] knows what he did for the sake of a story once. Over and over again.

Because this is the thinking that starts wars. He knows this first hand.

My pain, my story, my victim is worth more than everyone else. I don't care how I get from point A to point B. Any route will do. Were you caught up in their story? As [Redacted] was as a child? As the bus hijackers were? Did you think 'Yeah I'd have loved to do that for my favorite show that was destroyed at the last minute too?'

It's hard to understand the nationalism that drives people to these actions from the outside, especially for a fake country. The pain of losing your whole family and needing to balance the scales. To do it over a goddamn wig like Edgar did.

But this? This is easy to understand. 'You loved something that was ruined. What if you had the power to fix it?'

'What if you stopped caring about what you had to do to fix it?'

a really quick comic for @theunbearablelightnessofbeeing and their fic starlight, parabellum

*mildly exaggerated depiction of written passage

not everyone is cut out to act in certain roles

here is a commission of more telekinetic kitty content (still unnamed despite the huge amount of suggestions I got, im indecisive 🥀) !

thank you for commissioning this because now I've actually got some ideas running thru my brain on this. I also think it's appropriate for telekitty to have unchecked power, i.e being able to teleport a specific blade from unknown lengths straight to your door. It's only right

Look at them

Look at three apples tall deme, he's so fascinated while looking at his baby brother 🥀💔💔