Stardust Aberration

don't be mean to yourself that's you

you live there

sighh i wish bunnies were real

Hey... I need u 2 look in th mirror real quick...

bunies are very fuffy and kind. unless theyre evil but we cant judge them

at some point in your life you will be boiling fruit, water, sugar, and lemon juice in a pot to make a syrup or jam. the instructions will tell you to simmer for a certain amt of time. your timer will go off and you will look at the pot and go, "hm, this doesn't look thick enough. maybe i'll let it go for another 10 minutes." this is the devil speaking. it's only so liquid right now because it is at boiling point. it will thicken when it cools down. learn from the follies of my youth and do not let this happen to you

at some point in your life you will be making a sauce or a stew in which you need to add cornstarch to thicken it. and you will prepare a slurry of starch in cold water and think "this looks like way too little starch to thicken this amount of liquid." this is the devil speaking. cornstarch instantly polymerizes at 95°C and if you add too much it will turn into an impossibly thick goop.

at some point in your life you will be making some sort of cream based dessert that requires gelatin to thicken it. and you will soak some gelatin sheets in water and think "this is too few gelatin sheets for this amount of cream." this is the devil speaking. it will thicken in the fridge and if you add too much you will end up with milk jelly

at some point in your life you will be baking cookies. you will take the sheet out after twelve minutes as the recipe instructs and the cookies will still be glistening and soft. "these don't seem cooked enough," you will think to yourself, "i should place them back into the oven until their edges are nice and golden." this is the devil talking. this is how you get dry, overdone cookies. the cookies will continue to bake on the warm sheet for several more minutes and then harden up after sitting on a rack for a while. trust the process. trust the process.

at some point in your life you will be adding a small pasta to a soup and you will think "that is not enough small pasta." this is the devil talking. the pasta will absorb the stock and expand. this is how you end up with a soup that is a solid mass of soggy ditalini.

at some point in your life you will be bringing sugar and butter to boil for toffee and you will think “it hasn’t thickened enough.” that is the devil talking. the toffee needs to cool before it can set. this is how you end up with toffee that will annihilate your mouth. learn from this folly.

"oh you're part of a system? that must be so awful, having people speaking inside your head and taking over your body to do whatever they want!" it wasn't awful when sunny realised I wasn't drinking enough and filled up a large bottle of water so that I could see it and pour it directly into my cup without getting up. it's not awful when jasper immediately shoots down my irrational fears with calm, kind logic.

it wasn't awful when francis spent an afternoon at the aquarium instead of me and got to see all the fishes for herself. it's not awful when julian can't contain a snort of laughter in my head at something we both heard or saw. it's not awful when phoebe procrastinates on assignments to play beatsaber until she's sweaty and bored. it wasn't awful when jon sat outside on the porch late at night, talking quietly to a neighbour's cat. it's never awful when any of the others chime in about everyday tasks and decisions and ideas. it's not awful when I come back and see that my house is suddenly tidy. it's not awful when I come back and it's messier.

we're just people moving through our lives with one body between us. we have just as many small joys, irritations, helpful moments, poor choices, fits of giggles, bad times, and affectionate interactions as anybody else on earth. you can't decide we exist in a state of constant misery from our mode of existence alone. I love my crew.

also referring to cases of DID being diagnosed more after a popular piece of media depicts it is like. yeah man, thats kinda just what happens when cultural awareness of something increases?

imagine you see a popular post about someone realizing theyve been getting poisoned by carbon monoxide in their home and youre like "wait ive been having weird experiences like that too" so you get a carbon monoxide detector and learn that you also have been getting poisoned by carbon monoxide. you tell someone about this and either they act like you spiritually manifested the carbon monoxide in your home by learning about it or they tell you that carbon monoxide poisoning isnt real because nobody got poisoned by it until they discovered it could poison people