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so they could walk

Some unpopular opinions i immediately had while watching Skins Gen 1 for the first time about Tony and Michelle.

There’s no defending Tony in season 1 — he *was* an asshole. But has anyone ever thought about how his behaviour could actually be psychological? That extreme urge to always be “better” than everyone else, flaunting his “awesomeness” like trophies, the narcissistic streaks… sometimes it honestly reads like Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

When Tony explained his cheating to Michelle, he said something like: “Maxxie was bored, I was bored, Michelle was bored, so I fucked around with Maxxie a bit and now nobody’s bored.” That one line shows how obsessed he is with constantly needing “fire” or “ignition” in his life. He doesn’t even realise who he’s hurting in the process. That kind of indifference feels less like normal teenage recklessness and more like something manic and psychological. The way he sabotaged Michelle and Josh? That wasn’t just petty — it was eccentric to the point of feeling like he *needed help*.

Tony is obsessed with philosophical and ethical challenges. Always pushing people, always trying to get to the root of some dilemma at an age where most teenagers are just doing drugs or falling in love. That tells me he’s not depressed, but manic — like he doesn’t actually understand real emotions, only power. Pushing buttons is his fun. He doesn’t want to settle, never wants to commit. That’s not just behaviour, that’s a problem.

And Michelle? Honestly, she just frustrates me. She never looked at Tony in any sort of psychological or “scientific” way, she just kept demanding he say he loved her. Of course she was also a kid, but her entire identity revolved around being “shaggable” (her words, not mine). She and Tony were misfits from the start. She never truly got him. She didn’t have the guts to really understand him or at least stand up to him. He was spiralling with his issues, and instead of grounding him, she’d just cry, rage, or blame poor Jal who had nothing to do with it.

By the end of season 1, all of Tony’s friends were sick of his cockiness. They finally stopped treating him like some god. But if just one person had helped him peel back the layers — really understand why he was the way he was — instead of abandoning him, maybe things would’ve been different.

What makes him even more complex is the way he reacts when Michelle calls him out. His face looks *shocked*, like he didn’t even know he’d been manipulative or cruel. He admits later that he has no idea why he does these things — that people look at him and laugh when he’s being a dick, but inside he feels distorted, like he’s more than that but can’t help being a scoundrel. That blank honesty is proof enough: Tony genuinely doesn’t understand his own behaviour.

And let’s not forget how much he connected with all those “madman” philosophies he was constantly spouting. That wasn’t just flavour text — it was part of his internal mess.

What I love is that after the accident, we finally see Tony’s real persona come out. He’s still Tony, still wants to be perfect, but for the first time he’s beginning to understand his own layers. That being scared is okay. That hiding is okay. But giving up? That’s not him. He doesn’t give up on his love, doesn’t give up on his friends. That’s the Tony we know — not the mask, but the boy underneath.

Honestly, Nicholas Hoult *killed* this role. The micro-expressions, the way Tony’s layers unfold — he made one of the most complicated characters in *Skins* come alive. People may not have seen it when the show first aired, but rewatching now, it’s so clear.