「Bᴀsᴛᴀʀᴅ Sᴀɪɴᴛ」

I've been struggling to get my foot in the door with YouTube. To be clear, I haven't faced issues like demonetization, censorship, or copyright. I think what I've been struggling with is figuring out who I am on camera. I made some changes to my channel so my name is less like a character/act I commit to, but I still don't know how to act once I get rolling. I don't want to put too much thought into it so I can just be my authentic self, but I easily start to doubt my own authenticity. It's like knowing what kind of archetype I represent in the stories of others, but not knowing myself beyond an archetype. I really want to make content, but I guess I don't know myself well enough to get comfortable with it. Still, I need to do it.

Ambition without direction will be the death of me

I hate to say it, but I need to go back through my company's audio training lessons since I'm stressing over getting the crisp mic quality I'm looking for. I was supposed to have this new YouTube promo recorded weeks ago 🫠🫠🫠

Saw someone in a Monster Hunter Wilds lobby with the custom stickers "Jesus loves you" and "Repent and believe the gospel." I texted in the lobby chat "Jesus isn't my type, but I'd nail him too." Didn't get a response back.

I feel like I enjoy wearing chokers because some tops just need to be on a leash