May 8 Entry
It has been 18 days since I resigned. To be honest, I wanted to achieve a lot of things. As to why I resigned and so far all I have done was lay in bed and feel guilt of how I have wasted my time. At first my plan was to give myself a week to rest and it has been more than a week. I try to rest but I haven't truly rested because I'm constantly haunted by my responsibilities and the lack of direction for my future. I am less of what I want to be. I am far to whom I want to be and still I'm chained to the thought of failing and being stuck and the lingering feeling of people/friends getting ahead and sometimes I am void of feeling and emotion. I am grateful and sometimes regretful of who I am and hoped to be. I am often hopeful that the future I want and deserve is there, waiting for me and that whatever happen I will always succeed as I also see myself as someone who can and who will be an amazing person because even though I feel like I'm everywhere at times I know there is greatness in me and that I will flourish and be known because I feel it in my bones. I know it sounds cocky, I have that glimmer of hope that there is something far more greater for me and that all I need is to believe in GODs perfect timing as he is never late and that his plan is better than mine.
