all me

“You don’t get better on the days when you feel like going. You get better on the days when you don’t want to go, but you go anyway. If you can overcome the negative energy coming from your tired body or unmotivated mind, you will grow and become better. It won’t be the best workout you have, you won’t accomplish as much as what you usually do when you actually feel good, but that doesn’t matter. Growth is a long term game, and the crappy days are more important.”

So I wake up every morning and you’re the first thing that crosses my mind. I make my coffee, mindlessly dreaming about your eyes because the brown matches your gorgeous eyes. I go about my entire day missing you more than I could put into words. I smoke and while I put the cigarette against my lips, how I ache for it to be your lips instead. I try to drink it away but all the alcohol does is bring out memories of you that I so desperately try not to think about. I try kissing someone new but it’s like I can’t kiss if it’s not you. I go to sleep, but you haunt me in my dreams, I’m haunted by how you don’t love me even in my dreams.

“I’m so bad at letting go How do you make it look so easy?”

“Let someone love you just the way you are - as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe you must hide of all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.”

“Guys, don’t make her feel like she’s competing for your time. Make sure she knows she’s valuable to you.”