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I've been having dreams that all occur in the same places with the same people and I can remember all the events well enough that it's starting to feel like real life.

Most of the time I miss having a family but the other part of the time I don't miss having an SO who was a self described and actual huge fucking bitch. I like the person I dream about most of the time now but I hate that I have no idea who it is

I've come to the realization that everytime I drop Griffin off after having him my heart is going to break into a million pieces. Its such a crazy realization that losing his mom was basically no big deal, there were so many issues and no real reason for us to be together, but losing time with him is just the worst thing. If I can ever find a partner I love even half ae much as I love that kid I'm going to be so set. I'm not rushing it or forcing it. I'm happy to be getting my life on track. But I cannot wait to have a real family of my own.