"I hate being passionate" something something "I hate being [any other positive attribute you have that may sometimes make you feel awful for whatever reason]
This is the devil talking.
#little reminder for myself mostly#because i had the *very fast* passing thought that being so passionate about my interests was embarrassing#it's not. choke that rat in the back of your head out and kill it immediately before it spreads or something#being passionate or whatever you are#whatever attribute you thought about when you read this#is a good thing to be shut up#haven't slept in days crazy audhd hyperfixation style#for me it was like what#a mix of things but mostly i was thinking all night about how badly i wanna act some day or at LEAST be apart of art some way somehow#or i'll die#which could be a whole other post if i so feel the need to rant about it (edit: i probably will)#and whatever lately it's so bad i'm full on sobbing on and off about the idea of it every night#like i'm *yearning* for it crazy style#so whatever again this could be a whole other post but ugh#been on my mind forever it's just like. idk finally exploded and now it feels like i'm bursting at the seams with the need to learn to act#and be in/apart of art in general#ok whatever. i need to go to bed#goodnight (/morning ?) I love you.#edit: pinned where i can see it until i “sober up” and get embarrassed#because hopecore or whatever i think especially as an autistic person i deserve to not be so embarrassed with myself
