What is the point of this

Sorry but no..

I know you do.

You messaged me last night and said you wanted to give me a drawing that you did. I thanked you and said it was done well, but I knew that you didn’t actually draw it.. You told me you were stressed out and I asked if you wanted to talk. Once you saw a picture of me with someone else you couldn’t even talk to me. I guess its just okay with me for you to go off and be with multiple people.. just not me :P and Ive stayed with one. If I saw you with someone else and you were happy, I’d be glad for you at this point.. I dont really need you. I dont need your lies. Ive seen through most of them already. I know the truth now.. But Im still here :) and willing to be a friend, when you hit me up in your hour of need. I see your asks about missing me and wishing we were back together but you know thats a lie too. I miss it too you know? the feeling we had together that we would always be together and love eachother. I miss the way I used to love you so so intensely. Sometimes I wish it was someone else it happened with. someone real.. Because You have buried yourself too deep with lies and too much has happened. but I still have hope. I still feel like were supposed to be in eachothers lives even if its just a phone call here and there. Maybe if you could be honest with me and honest with yourself then you’d feel better. and grow. and be able to have some sort of friendly relationship with me. and maybe even a better relationship with your new bf.. Bc face it he will never be me.. But maybe I could give him some tips ;P hahaha I wanna include you in my life and things that happen to me. But if you dont care then I guess I‘ll just keep getting the same behaviour I have been gettin from you :P

You finally got your way. If you really meant what you said in your letter then you would have gotten to me by now.. If I was your soul mate you would fight to be with me. You said you were upset with me about the open relationship thing still. (I still regret that) About how you went and dated those other fuckboys but they weren’t me and just used you. Well since you reject me Im sure there will be fuckboy after fuckboy.. which makes me sad. You had a guy that loved you for you, not your looks or body or for sex. Just for you. I was supposed to be your guy. I would have given anything I possessed to spend any amount of time in your presence. I was ready to commit to you for as long as I could breathe.  And you have thrown that away.

You wouldnt have me jumping through all these hoops. you wouldnt keep me at arms length but make me love you. You would see me and love me and cuddle me and talk and laugh with me. you wouldnt reject me like you have been.. If you say you love me so much then you need to touch me. Give me reality not just a fantasy.

I was made for you