the speedweed who had peed

I want to cover you in several large lipstick smooches like a loony tunes character -- I'm bugs bunny when he's in drag, btw

As I grow older I realize how I've grown emotionally dependant and attached towards you. The connection I had from roughly 7 years ago was never this strong. From what used to be a silly little thing of emotional desperation became much more than I ever thought it would be. A journey, an adventure of a life time. A life experience I never knew that could happen. I just want to show that I care. I want you to talk about your worries your doubts and your interests and your hobbies like everything else. I want to include you in everything in my overly chaotic life. Amidst my chaotic life, you're the thing that makes it all the worth while. Someone to live for. Someone to always be around. A best friend, except you get to be my lover. If I see anything at all, it reminds me of you. There's always puzzle pieces to connect you to everything and anything. The sound of hundreds of trees being blown by wind, the sounds of frogs croaking in the night sky, the quiet... serene lake and the soft clouds with the overcast and the following rainbow. Sometimes I often dream of you if I'm not already daydreaming the most cute things. Everywhere I go, I see you. Every smell I smell reminds me of you. Every year that passes by I feel like I'm getting closer to you, that one day, physically, we could share these weird emotions and feelings together, I strive to. You're always on my mind, branded onto my brain permanently... Boyfriend brain-rot. It's never a bad thing, it's always wonderful to think of you at such high regard. Never leave, my love. Never think you're not doing enough because I feel like you are. You're worth far too much in this world and you doing your absolute best is far more than enough to prove your worth to me and I am very, immensely proud of you, I want you to know that. Keep doing what you're doing. I love you and I always will.