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FOR THE REST OF MY DAYS

If you goal is to love yourself, then your focus is directed inward toward yourself, and you end up constantly watching yourself from the outside, disconnected, trying to summon the “correct” feelings towards yourself or fashion yourself into something you can approve of.

If your goal is to love being yourself, then your focus is directed outward towards life, on living and making decisions based on what brings you pleasure and fulfillment.

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lovecraft: you’re surrounded by strange things that you do not understand. isn’t it terrifying? adams: those things? those are normal. the worst thing about them is the bureaucracy. you should get out more. you can read all about them in this gigantic book.

lovecraft: you are ultimately insignificant and the universe will be unaffected by any actions you take. isn’t it scary? adams: um duuuh literally everyone already knew that. let’s go get lunch.

lovecraft: you are transforming into a terrible monster and you can’t stop it. adams:

like, Benisnatch Cumberque played the same character he’s always plays as an asshole genius and we were all supposed to be okay with it, but it’s basically character slander

at different parts of the movie Turing is described as ‘arrogant, “inhuman,” “narcissistic,” and even “a monster,” in the film he goes against those around him and is shown to periodically ignore and belittle his colleagues

And. I. Am. So. Angry.

Alan Turing was described by his friends and people that knew him as “intensely shy and kindly”, he was said to “inspire loyalty and affection among those who appreciated his unusual gifts” and was “unfailingly generous with his time and expertise, especially toward younger recruits”

He was kind, he was kind, HE WAS KIND, he was kind

he was kind and geeky and awkward and gay, I don’t care if the whole of society doesn’t find that compelling, I don’t care if we don’t value kindness as an attribute in men, he deserved to be loved and respected as he was, not as we wish he was

I am so sorry Alan Turing, I am so sorry your story was not told with care and thoughtfulness, I am so sorry you didn’t get to be shown to be deeply in love with the men you loved, I am sorry your great and terrible tragedy was never unfolded as a kind and brilliant man abused by a horrible homophobic system

also, I wanted to share what I found in the tags:

we’re crying in the club tonight 😭 Porgy.

he was also most likely autistic, God, imagine a world where an autistic gay man who didn’t conform to toxic masculinity got a big budget Hollywood film

imagine what it would do to be able to see our heroes be sweet and silly instead of hardened and asshole-ish, imagine seeing autism portrayed with fun-loving care instead of fearful derision, imagine he got to love a man on screen, bc the truth is the Nazi’s weren’t defeated by a mean-spirited narcissist

“How can you choose to be good when you can’t feel it?”