* π Β πππππππ Β πππ.
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β itβs up to you how it plays out. β Β
β in the end, it all lies with you. β Β
β your decision is the final one. β Β
β this will not happen unless you clear it. β Β
β we know youβre a fucking grass. β Β
β youβre a fucking dead man! β Β
β thanks for the tea. β Β
β you stand like a hard-man, donβt ya? β Β
β this ainβt no fucking street fight no more, kid. β Β
β donβt you fucking move. β Β
β donβt you ever fucking bring it here. β Β
β do you fucking understand me? β Β
β just keep them away from the vitals. β Β
β youβll have to be okay with your own company for a bit. β
β the mug you want will be off-guard. thatβs the time to take him. β
β was it worth it? β Β
β you just gotta decide early on on what type of cunt you wanna be. β
β i ainβt a funny cunt. β Β
β i deserve to be here and by the sounds of it, so do you. β
β weβre not animals. β Β
β look out for me and iβll look out for you. β Β
β you come at me with your aggression, you come at me with your bottle, you have to fuck me off, otherwise iβm gonna come on, and iβm gonna end you. β
β i will stab the shit out of you until you stop moving. β
β this is your doing. β Β
β i couldnβt care less how he feels about that. β Β
β i will lock you up for the fucking peace, do you hear me? β
β this is a way of life. i chose it, i live it and i accept it. β
β iβll take his fucking throat out next time if he donβt drop it. β
β they can do whatever they fucking please. β Β
β an act so vile, but i did it, just like that. β Β
β itβs amazing how easy it was. β Β
β you donβt know how, you donβt wanna know how, you canβt take it to know how. β
β donβt tell me not to defend and survive in a place where my life can end in an instant. β
β donβt pretend to understand that. β Β
β you mix violence with violence, you watch for the outcome. i mean, what do you expect? β
β you take away a manβs civility and he adjusts to it. β
β you keep smiling at the monsters that you create, βcause eventually theyβre gonna fucking chew you to the bone. β
β iβll have every fucking one of ya. β Β
β itβll make a man out of you. β Β
β different people, different reactions. β Β
β iβd like to know if i was meeting a monster. β
β is that how you see yourself? β Β
β thatβs how most perceive me. β Β
β do you feel uneasy, knowing what i did? β Β
β how about i keep my feelings to myself? β Β
β being forgiven can release you of many burdens. β
β do what you have to, survive how you can. β Β
β leave this place be. β Β
β it donβt simmer a man, it only begins to boil. β Β
β donβt be sorry, itβs good to stretch. β Β
β lost my fucking mind since youβve been gone, man. β
β iβm a fucking target! β Β
β do you wanna let me in? β Β
β how do you see this playing out? β Β
β iβm fucking warning ya, you chuck piss on me, iβm gonna knock your fucking spark out. β
β you gotta earn your muscle. β Β
β i am telling you as nicely as iβm willing to be. β
β my fear factor is fucking zilch. β Β
β next time, iβm telling you now, youβre gonna fucking ask nicely. β
β this is the fucking nicest iβm gonna be. iβll take your fucking head right off, do you understand me? β
β you leave a mark on me and iβll have ya. β Β
β do you have a weapon on you? β Β
β reminds me of me. β Β
β iβm a violent man, i got ire in the blood. β Β
β the difference with me is i could go further. β Β
β i donβt feel nothing, i donβt feel shit. β Β
β iβve tried to feel something, anything. β Β
β that was the first time that iβd seen anything lifeless. β
β i heard that skull crack, and the skin split from the bone. β
β that was the first timeβ¦ the first time that i felt true rage. β
β i ainβt ever killed no one, i ainβt ever opened anybody up, i donβt know what to do or how thatβs done. β
β you are not allowed to crack, smarten up. β Β
β i hope you can forget the suffering youβve endured. β
β i gave up on hope a long time ago. β Β
β thatβs the good thing about time, it passes. β Β
β itβs interesting that you think youβll be leaving. β Β
β you are a ray of sunshine, arenβt ya? β Β
β you kiss too much arse you end up choking on shit. β Β
β i belong to no man, and no one. β Β
β youβre comfortable with hate, itβs how you function. β Β
β iβm my fatherβs son. β Β
β makes you jumpy and shit. β Β
β your family donβt wanna see you with your teeth knocked out. β
β game ainβt based on sympathy. β Β
β fuck do i have to lose? β Β
β i know iβm a dead man walking. β Β
β whatβs this supposed to do, stir up emotions? β
β thereβs no shame in feeling nervous and scared, itβs perfectly normal - human. β
β yeah, iβm scared. β Β
β youβre gonna have to be smarter than that. β Β
β i kill in dreams, i kill awake. makes no difference as theyβve become the same thing to me now. β
β youβre being fucking manipulated. β Β
β donβt start with the fucking mouth, not in here. β Β
β taking your mind off it might help. β Β
β thereβs always a way. β Β
β i decided to do this on me own. β Β
β makes me realize how human you are, in a way. β
β you donβt owe me anything, you know. β Β
β somewhere inside this horrifically violent, angry person, is a man - who is capable of bringing in good into this world. β
β iβm sorry that your path has led you here to this place that feels so real to you. β
β i wonβt be a victim. β Β
β iβm not a good man. β Β
β i donβt know how to be a good man. β Β
β iβm glad you realize your beauty, and your light. β Β
β all i can do is give you false hope. β Β