dead girl in the pool

You held my hand a little too long for someone who didn’t want to get ‘involved’

@36n

Please stop turning this into aesthetic. This is literally the depressed reality people live here. There is nothing beautiful in existing in a place where you want nothing else than to die

the girls seem fine

I just wanted to say that it’s okay to not always know what you want. It’s okay to suddenly get a feeling that something is wrong with your current situation, it’s okay to question your development and everything you just found out about yourself. It’s okay if you maybe need a few days or weeks or even months to be sure about yourself again. You don’t need to make big decisons in life on just one day. If your life is a mess at the moment take it step by step. Fix things with people you’ve fought with, say goodbye to toxic influences, talk with others about your problems- don’t just keep it all to yourself and most importantly respect yourself and your growth, give yourself time, don’t pressure yourself. If you feel free from all the things that were constantly pulling you down you will see things clearly and bright right in front of you and you will know what to do and what you want. Don’t overthink everything if something feels good and right in this very moment let it in, let your life be filled with what brings you joy and happiness. We don’t always have to think about how everything will turn out in a few months or years. Today is today.

“i cannot perform basic household duties while other people are in my house” crowd make some noise

yes i stay up at night because my life’s devoid of meaning

I get jealous really easily but not like an angry vengeful jealous more like a really sad lonely jealous because everybody likes everybody more than they like me and I really really don’t blame them. 

some days i think it’s better that you don’t know how much i actually like you but on other days i wanna look you dead in the eye and tell you about every little thing that made me think of you