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i use this sideblog as a dedicated place to post about my mental health issues as well as for certain other things relating to them somehow

i post primarily about szpd/stpd/adhd/dissociative stuff but sometimes some other things

if you believe this disorder either is not real or you don’t believe it should be a disorder, what is your stance on the current “classification” of friendship called low-maintenance friendships? how do you react to someone who does not speak to you for months, or who requires a lot of time away from you, or who generally can come off as holding you at an arm’s length? do you judge these people as being shallow, scared of commitment, unable to understand what “true” friendship is, or otherwise hold some damning opinion of them to paint them as “evil” or simply uncaring? if you believe there’s something “wrong” with these people, by society’s standards, you would be correct. that is what a disorder is.

if you think you may be a schizoid because you are introverted and don’t like being around people and just don’t care about anything around you, ask yourself — do i feel this way because i’m depressed? being depressed isn’t any lesser than any other problem out there. if being invited out with your friends makes you feel loved, or on the inverse, not being invited out makes you feel ignored, this is not how a schizoid feels (more often than not). szpd is not the introvert disorder. think of it more as a condition in which the social aspect of the social species we are is lacking (a very broad concept and it’s not exactly what szpd is, but i’m describing it as such for the sake of simplicity and also because this post is not meant to be a deep-dive). many believe schizoids tend to be misanthropic, and while there are plenty out there that take such a stance, many schizoids are indifferent on or even like the concept of humanity. it’s the desire to be detached from these concepts that make the disorder a disorder. don’t conflate these many different things with what szpd actually is. it wouldn’t exist otherwise.