aesthetics maybe | i make my kmt great grandpa roll in his grave | once described as an "eldritch energy" | Matthew 19:24 | dp is a still from Agnes Varda's short film "Ulysse"
Dropping the first papercraft of the year, and the first full papercraft I've personally done in 4 years (if you exclude commissions and standees). I was grateful to catch one of the limited theatrical screenings of Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein (2025) at the end of last year and I think we can all agree this scene was the stand-out moment in the film. But there were also several themes that hit me with such a powerful resonation, I felt like my soul was sucked into the film and split between the mind of Victor and the heart of the Creature.
Firstly, how could I have not captured this scene in papercraft? Assembling the Creature from scraps of paper, moments before he's meant to become scraps himself. It allowed me to step into Victor's shoes, and relive the obsessive pursuit he describes in the film, only to suddenly meet his goal and aimlessly fumble with what he's created, chaining it in the dungeon, out of sight and mind. I find myself, after tireless nights of dedicated crafting, throwing my completed papercrafts into my closet, documented, abandoned, eager to start the next one.
My Cake Tier Patreon members can download a digital papercraft kit of this when I drop the files later tonight!
Read on further if interested in how this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me. Otherwise, have a wonderful day!
Why this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me.
March 2023 is when my health suddenly took a left turn (see Facedown Fate and Night-Glimmer posts). Out of nowhere, I began to have what I call 'low heart rate sessions', where my heart rate for any activity was running 10-15 points lower than normal. I felt like I was walking underwater, my chest felt heavy, I felt cold, and would have to breathe heavy to keep up with the activity I was doing (whether that be walking, or even sitting). Then after several hours, it would suddenly disappear. My HR would rise to normal levels, my breathing would ease, my temperature would rise. No explanation or trigger.
I went to the ER 7 times over the next two months, and with the onset of my second now-chronic symptom, what I refer to as a PVC, I checked into the hospital for evaluation. People who have PVCs describe them as heart flutters, but mine are heart 'kicks'. Like a miniaturized version of the wind being knocked out of you. It's a scary, uncomfortable heart rate hiccup, invoking a short cough, and there's a feeling of dread lasting moments after it happens.
Over the next two years, I went to gastrologists, pulmonary specialists, allergists, 3 different cardiologists, tested so many medications, had multiple CT scans, MRIs, Echos, holter monitors, stress tests, all coming back with 'you're healthy as a horse, it's just stress'. In the end, the only solution my cardiologists could offer were anti-depressants for the stress or beta-blockers for the PVCs (which, hah, lower the heart rate….hello???), which I declined both. I felt if it was stress causing these mystery symptoms, medications interfering with my productivity would just make me more stressed.
During the height of my symptoms I would experience a PVC every 20 minutes, invoked by sudden HR changes (even something like eating shaved ice, which triggers a hypothermic response through your tongue) or random stress events. Eventually, I cut out unnecessary stress in my life (like the news) and I saw my PVCs start to recede to a handful of times per day, months later.
Now, almost three years later, I'm only experiencing them a couple of times a week, if at all, after significant lifestyle changes and rigorous stress deterrents that I invoked at the start of 2025.
I sat through the Frankenstein film marveling at how bosom buddies I was with Victor's ambitions, only to realize I was experiencing my second self through the Creature. A being who was confused in his body, and clashing with his creator, desperate for answers on how to continue living as he is.
Him holding onto the dynamite stick was a taunted retribution toward Victor, but there's a moment of desperate hope in his eyes that this could be the way to unmake himself, perhaps into something Victor would realize he has to accept.
Last year I had to unmake myself to put everything back together with where I'm at now. With those tools in my pocket, I have a better outlook for 2026 and beyond. Rather than the closet, I've hung this frame in my hallway to remind me of this milestone, my Creature, everyday.
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UPDATE: I had to do this whole thing AGAIN because my art blog ALSO got terminated out of the blue and they got back to me the very next day. this shit works!!!! I think the main factor is following up by replying to their confirmation email because as soon as I did that they got back to me.
Can confirm this is how I tackled it when this blog was randomly terminated a while back; I had to do this before. I got my whole blog back, which is good, because I think this one is over a decade old by now.
I was actually going to have an "Umm actually" moment, and I had to check: executioners did double as torturers in the Middle Ages, more often than not.
You also had to remember that being the town executioner and torturer meant you were the town outcast as well, leaving you with nice side jobs as removing animal carcasses or cleaning latrine pits. Throw that on top the teen angst too!
I recently read an article about executioners in feudal Japan. They were under the same sort of societal discrimination as in the west, with designated families plying the trade.
But because Japan transitioned from a feudal society to a modern nation state comparatively late (the second half of the nineteenth century), these families are still known and their members still face discrimination in things like hiring and dating.
As of European executioners there were three options regarding marriage:
Members of other "undesirable" professions. The executioners usually had close ties with undertakers, for obvious reasons.
Executioner families from various cities married between each other. Some of those marriages were quite international.
Less often, people ended up in the profession due to various circumstances. For example Charles Sanson (1658–1695), the first "Monsieur de Paris" of the Sanson line, that held the office for seven generations until 1847, and great-grandfather of Charles-Henri Sanson (1739-1806), the man who executed Louis XVI, Marie-Antoinette, and Robespierre; was a military man, who for some reason ended up marrying the daughter of the then executioner of Paris, and took over his trade.
Speaking of the Parisian Sansons, there's a beautifully illustrated (at times a little bit psychedelic) and very interesting manga titled Innocent, which follows the family's fictionalised history, especially during the final years of the Bourbon Monarchy and the French Revolution.
Gotta love the usage of social media and other anachronisms to showcase Marie Antoinette's isolation in the chapter, when she comes to Versailles
So that's what the well dressed skeleton picture is from. Dammit man....I might just have to pick this up now. I've not seen anything so utterly up my alley in a while...
Gunna once again shout out a favourite historical piece of literature. Although Franz seems specifically well suited to this job so he should be seen as an outlier. You don't get much of internal thoughts from him except when it counts
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reading about the participation of children in rituals as a form of play in ancient greece and came across an incredibly charming story from julius pollux's onomasticon where a flood prevented the adults from reaching a sanctuary to sacrifice a ram to heracles, and the children solved the problem by....sticking a bunch of sticks in an apple to give it "legs" and "horns" and offering it as a sacrifice instead. it's such a charming thought and i can perfectly picture kids these days also pretending at sacrificing an apple "goat" at recess
