~All things made lovely~

I bet it has you restless

I’m so sure of me

You can give them your all and they’ll still walk pass,

Leave your heart on shelf,

Then revisit you and ask,

Can you do this for me or share a moment of your task,

I been on a journey and saw nothing quite change,

The more you love them,

The deeper they invoke pain,

I’m not being extra,

I’m not a victim or anything,

I know wat I feel,

And the feeling gets strange,

I listen to you,

I express my concerns,

I cater to you and I still get burnt,

Just like an Aries playing with fire,

Your water it drains me,

But, I still revive you,

So selfish and always in a rage,

I learn from you to be more softer,

Until I’m tied of the pain,

You make me want to hide under a rock,

I don’t want to be seen,

I know I shouldn’t feel this way,

But, there’s so much hidden pain,

You know what I can’t help that I’m great,

Can never tell with you if it’s love or is it hate,

Some times you there for me and I can see your red cape

Other times I’m alone

Seem like you’re happy when I’m in that state,

I love you and wish you well,

So why I am the one you raise your knife up to and yell,

Who can I run to

To heal this broken heart

I feel

It came so unexpectedly

Now my heart have a shield

I want to be open

Though I never wanted to be without you

You showed my all the signs

I still didn’t doubt you

You left in anger

Just to betray me to the upmost

No apologies

No love

Just a ghost

So unselfish

I give my love all the time

Completely genuine

There’s nothing fake about mine

Soft words spoken

Motivational lines

Heart been broken

But, not this time

I knew it was coming

We’re just passing time

I know I’m not yours

Well....

I am some times 

If you’d call me I’m there

But, not this time

I need more time to myself to realign

What can you teach me,

When it is me you come to for guidance?

You come with your intentions of violence,

To damage my heart in silence,

It is my energy you come for,  isn’t it?

You take what you can and I deal with it,

Because love is blind,

And you never been in it,

I know you’re much better now,

You saw the healer in me from miles away,

So you say,

I’ll use her when its convenient  then, I’ll put her away,

I realize with you it ain’t safe,

Yo chest I use to love to lay,

Should’ve known you’d push me away,

By the way your heart would race,

Your actions are so visible,

The more you get involved with her,

The more you make us an issue,

We weren't ever official,

But, I was loyal to someone who couldn’t even bring me tissue,

In my darkest moments, of morning,

What if it was you?

But I get it,

When you lack compassion you don’t really have any feelings,

I hate when I see past the bullshit,

I was looking at the king in you,

Just focused on the good shit , 

I trusted you with my body,

You fuked me when it convened you, 

You showed me it didn’t mean much, 

I don’t  wanna fuk with an inconsiderate dude, 

It’s funny,

I don’t apply pressure,

Don’t need no lectures,

Just want you,

I think you’re full of pride and have self issues,

But, we all do, 

With all due respect,

I trusted you to be loyal,

Until finding out your definition of loyalty is not similar to mine, 

You want everything you’re way,

You have a selfish mind, 

Why did I trust you?

Silence,

 They say it’s golden, 

Just like my heart, 

Keeping it all in can be really hard, 

Won’t say I’m scarred but, I’m damaged, 

Traumatized and I can’t manage, 

I wanna speak out but, to whom, 

It’s sort of lonely round deez parts of the room, 

Especially when I know we won’t ever resume,

 Back to how it use to be,

Got your body without a tomb, 

I know earths been needing a queen.