Im Drowning In Misery

None of my friends could be there and we didn’t have enough money to do what I really wanted to do and I basically got taken to my aunts favorite restaurant instead of mine, watched her bitch at the employees, went to SF only to find out there was no parking and we had to leave. We went to the mall but once again, no money and then ended the night by going out to dinner where I ate too much and now I’m hating myself.

The once saving grace was that my girlfriend was there but she could tell I was disappointed so all I succeeded in doing was making her feel terrible.

I don’t want to have lived a quarter of a century being used to people who say they’re my friends. Being treated like shit by people who say I can always talk to them but lash out when I confront them for being a shitty person.

I don’t want to have lived 25 years hating everything about myself.