I really wonder how Leorio is doing right now
especially with his placement in the medical ward on the black whale. It’s certainly not an easy feat, especially when you see what the hell is going on in the chapters with the princes. I wonder how stressed he is, how little sleep he’s gotten, how much of this does he regret, if he’s scared to falter, or how much he can endure to reach his goal?
Though he seems very motivated and focused, it’s the job he Does want after all. I guess that’s why it’s so comforting to see him in scrubs,,, no suit, no sunglasses, no over-the-top boastful smile, it just feels like leorio at his very core. without that facade I always talk about, as it is an important part that’s woven in his character imo,,, way more sincere. like everything else he does that cracks through what he *tries* to be. but it’s clear that he’s getting more prone to wearing his heart on his sleeve, i think he even shows regret in building this persona. thinking he was shallow like the businessman he tries to be, but he really isn’t. His actions speak way louder!! He *tries* to make a situation in which he’s in power to care for others. That isn’t something a business would do. He gets stressed, he *feels* so very deeply, he gets angry, hotheaded. he’s *sincere*!!
he can be shallow at times, but in a way a teenager would be, not some CEO. that’s the staggering difference!! That’s why it’s obvious!! and money is so important because almost *everything* in his life relies on Money. hearing “money isn’t everything!” is so infuriating because. It truly does feel like it is to him. Money was the barrier between his friend’s life. Money is the barrier between his own goal. Money *can* truly buy a dream, because it can sell out his dream.and he feels so naive for that dream as he just so simply wanted to help the poor.
I like to imagine he does reach his dream. he donates a plethora of money to multiple charities, usually having business trips to that same home town where his friend died, being able to help kids from the same fate, wether watching their own friend die in their arms, or being able to be cured and not worrying about any bill. It might be naive but I know he can do this.
And I feel like nobody ever talks about Leorio’s own mental health, or how *hes* doing,,, granted likely better than the rest of the main 4,but his issues also matter, do they not? I wonder if he feels more empty after screwing around with girls after a house party. I wonder if he deeply regrets that one godforsaken trick tower scene.but I dunno, he is very irresponsible at times. bute also shows regret for that, he already shows that deep regret for goofing off during his election arc speech, knowing that his *best* friend is going through absolute hell.I think the speech in general is a great display of his character. I wonder if him regretting building this persona is him trying to rid away his own internalized hatred towards his own poverty?
My thoughts are all over the place but I want to understand him in the best way I can (and this own rant turned out different than I expected)
I honestly wonder how gut wrenching it feels to watch your friends deteriorate in front of your eyes, I can feel his own desperation when trying to advocate for Gon. he’s like kurapika, he *wont* have another one of his friends die. not in front of him. Everyone talks about how haha funny the speech is but. Leorio is so utterly worried and scared and. just so frustrated that his own father can’t even care for what’s happening. *higher people up not even caring about people in critical condition.* he’s angry but underneath that he’s terrified and. I think that’s why I love the election arc so much.
I wonder if he’s proud of himself. likely not, he tends to doubt himself, but he should be. he certainly should be after everything he’s done.
