localdeadguy

My parents and my cat could die and I wouldn't react it wouldn't faise me I'd move on

And then there are some days we're those same thoughts make me sob

My emotions are random. One day, I am apathetic, and the next, I'm overly sensitive and empathetic

I have fluctuating empathy and emotional delay

I feel empathy and sympathy but it's more "out of sight out of mind" if I see it happening I can feel it and do something about it but if it doesn't effect me my life or my family/friends/pets I'm genuinely not as empathetic or caring of the problem, don't get me wrong I will help if it's in my power but ya

If I can see it happening and understand to some degree I feel it and I can help but if it's a fake sonario or something I can't see or have no experience in my response is either far less or none

The delay is the big one. I might not feel empathy in the moment or that day, but the wave of it will come later when I've processed it or it's happened more than once

It's not that I don't care. I DO, but it's a roll of the dice when it comes to feeling it, and the delayed response

I have high morals and I hold myself to that moral standard but in some situations I simply can't feel empathy ie my grandma or cousin died it doesn't really effect me so I can't really be upset and they went out naturally, but I do feel sympathy towards my parents they are hurting and were close to them

Or my sister moving away my response was ...heavily delayed but my parents SOBED hard when my sister moved ...I didn't really get it and it was incredibly awkward

Or feeling genuine love for people I should like my parents I love them but they are kinda just roommates to me I care for them but I wouldn't stop everything just to ensure they are OK, the people I feel that level of love for are usually my friends that CHOSE to be around me my parents are obligated to love me to tolerate me, friends and lovers arnt and that ig means more to me then blood

Or when I shoved my cat into the tub as a kid I knew it was morally wrong but I couldn't feel anything I was curious to see what my fluffy cat looked like wet, in my mind I didn't hurt him why because he isn't dead bleeding or in pain it was water and easily fixed with a towel

I don't like hurting people even if to me what I said was logical I still regret not going about it more sensitively or helping when I could

I'm a incredibly anxious and awkward person with a problem with overthinking I don't like upsetting people for many reasons I'm also a bit of a people pleaser wich stems from my rather lonely childhood because of my struggle to make long term friends

I've been lied to a lot made to feel unimportant and annoying throughout my childhood. Any praise as a kid was heaven. I've been ripped from my language and hurt for my inability to focus and humiliated for it

As a way to avoid being hurt like that I make sure I'm never an inconvenience but that's just one reason I also genuinely don't like upsetting or irritating people it gives me no pleasure to do it and never has

If someone is crying I will wanna help I wanna help so my base is pretty low or just average for a nerotipical person

Sometimes I feel MORE empathy for fictional characters espessily if they are tragic

But there are very few movies that make me cry

For example, 'Bridge to terrabithia' and 'Wolf Children' are my biggest tear fests they are 2 of the few movies that get me sobing, most good sad ish movies make me tear up its rare for me to sob over a movie

My parents and my cat could die and I wouldn't react it wouldn't faise me I'd move on

And then there are some days we're those same thoughts make me sob

My emotions are random. One day, I am apathetic, and the next, I'm overly sensitive and empathetic

I have fluctuating empathy and emotional delay

I feel empathy and sympathy but it's more "out of sight out of mind" if I see it happening I can feel it and do something about it but if it doesn't effect me my life or my family/friends/pets I'm genuinely not as empathetic or caring of the problem, don't get me wrong I will help if it's in my power but ya

If I can see it happening and understand to some degree I feel it and I can help but if it's a fake sonario or something I can't see or have no experience in my response is either far less or none

The delay is the big one. I might not feel empathy in the moment or that day, but the wave of it will come later when I've processed it or it's happened more than once

It's not that I don't care. I DO, but it's a roll of the dice when it comes to feeling it, and the delayed response

I have high morals and I hold myself to that moral standard but in some situations I simply can't feel empathy ie my grandma or cousin died it doesn't really effect me so I can't really be upset and they went out naturally, but I do feel sympathy towards my parents they are hurting and were close to them

Or my sister moving away my response was ...heavily delayed but my parents SOBED hard when my sister moved ...I didn't really get it and it was incredibly awkward

Or feeling genuine love for people I should like my parents I love them but they are kinda just roommates to me I care for them but I wouldn't stop everything just to ensure they are OK, the people I feel that level of love for are usually my friends that CHOSE to be around me my parents are obligated to love me to tolerate me, friends and lovers arnt and that ig means more to me then blood

Or when I shoved my cat into the tub as a kid I knew it was morally wrong but I couldn't feel anything I was curious to see what my fluffy cat looked like wet, in my mind I didn't hurt him why because he isn't dead bleeding or in pain it was water and easily fixed with a towel

I don't like hurting people even if to me what I said was logical I still regret not going about it more sensitively or helping when I could

I'm a incredibly anxious and awkward person with a problem with overthinking I don't like upsetting people for many reasons I'm also a bit of a people pleaser wich stems from my rather lonely childhood because of my struggle to make long term friends

I've been lied to a lot made to feel unimportant and annoying throughout my childhood. Any praise as a kid was heaven. I've been ripped from my language and hurt for my inability to focus and humiliated for it

As a way to avoid being hurt like that I make sure I'm never an inconvenience but that's just one reason I also genuinely don't like upsetting or irritating people it gives me no pleasure to do it and never has

2 DECADES

also alt version for no reason whatsoever